That was all it took to convince him and he helped me release him from the confines of his jeans and underwear. Days of pent-up sexual frustration now faced me in one throbbing, thick, veiny cock, straining towards Cam's stomach. When I wrapped my cool hand around it, he tried to stifle another groan, his head falling back with the feeling.
My grip tight but slow, I began to stroke him. I couldn't move any faster for fear of pulling on my ribs, and the torturous momentum had a sexy effect on Cam. Instead of watching my hand, I studied his face. He'd closed his eyes, his eyelashes resting against his cheeks, his cheeks now flushed at the crests. His lips were slightly parted in pleasure.
God, he was hot.
I squeezed my legs together, feeling my sex throb and grow wet with need.
'Baby, I'm – ' He sucked in a loud, harsh gasp for breath and I was suddenly glad that the volume on the television in the living room was up high. 'Going to come – ' His jaw clenched and he made this guttural noise as he came all over my hand and his T-shirt.
After a few seconds of listening to him pant, I bit my lip and mused aloud, indicating his T-shirt, 'I hope that wasn't new.'
His body started to shake with rueful laughter. He ran slightly shaking fingers through his hair, his eyes bright on me. 'I just came like a callow youth.'
'Magic hands,' I teased.
Cam shook his head. 'Jo hands,' he corrected, then pressed a sweet kiss to my mouth.
After he'd cleaned up my hand and himself and changed into a fresh T-shirt, he got back on the bed, but this time he straddled me.
'What are you doing?' I breathed, excited but also still in pain. 'We can't do anything.'
He shook his head, his eyes full of heat. 'You don't have to do anything but stay as still as possible.' And without another word he went to work on my jeans, carefully pulling them off, along with my underwear.
He pushed my thighs apart and crawled up the bed until his head was between my legs. Gently, he eased two fingers inside me and grunted. 'Fuck, you're soaked.'
'I enjoyed getting you off,' I whispered, trying not to writhe at the delicious sensation of him inside me.
'I can feel that.' Cam took a shuddering breath. 'This is torture.'
'Do you know what torture really is? Having your tongue so near and yet so far.'
He threw me a wicked smile and then promptly put that tongue of his to better use.
Epilogue
The peace it brought me to look back and no longer see that wall Cam had helped me scale so long ago was indescribable. I would never be back behind that wall again, or have my colours muted and my personality trapped in the stranglehold of my insecurities. This was me. Life from now on would consist of being real, which was somehow scary and freeing all at the same time.
It helped that the pieces of my life were falling nicely into place for once.
Cole pretended to be indifferent to the news that we were moving into Cam's flat, but I could tell by the way he'd been enthusiastically packing, and slowly moving something new into the flat every day, that he was happy about the new arrangement.
As for Mum … well … first she'd gone off about how we were abandoning her, and how she wouldn't let me do this to her, and I couldn't take Cole, and I was a selfish little whore, and blah, blah, blah …
Allowing her to exhaust herself in a tirade seemed like the best way to cope with her. That way she tired herself out and had no energy to fight me as I calmly told her that if she didn't let me move Cole downstairs, if she even dared to call the authorities, I'd leave her ass in the dust and never look back. I assured her that this way I would check in with her, and if she needed me I was only a staircase away. Her silence was a bittersweet relief and it informed me in its heavy weightlessness that I'd won this particular argument.
She hadn't spoken to us for three weeks.
Wiping sweat off my forehead, I blew air out between my now completely healed lips and gazed around Cam's sitting room. Boxes surrounded me on every side. Cole and I were supposed to be officially moving into Cam's the next day – a Saturday – so that Cam and the guys could help us with all the boxes. Feeling a little overexcited about the whole thing, and restlessly wandering around the flat, I'd decided to take one of the lighter boxes downstairs to his (our) flat while he was at work. It was now late afternoon, my side was hurting a little, and I'd moved most of the boxes into their new home.
Cam would return from work in an hour or so and a few hours after that I had to be at the bar for one of my last shifts ever at Club 39. I was going to miss everyone at the bar. I'd still see Joss, of course, but that place had been a home away from home for the longest time, and I had spent time there with two of the most important people in my life. It was the end of an era.