Dirty Bad Secrets(37)
Her finger jabbed in my direction. “This is crap and you know it. I’d have done all of that stuff if you’d bothered to come in and show me!”
“Would you? Doesn’t seem that way from where I’m sitting. It seems you’re only interested in playing Princess Pouty and setting Topaz loose on some ridiculous art project. Have you even seen those things out there?” I snapped. “It looks like you’ve let a toddler play with a glitter gun. What image is that going to give of our professionalism here?”
“Truth or dare night is a good idea, Andy, whatever you think about the glitter.” Our eyes simmered as they met, and her jaw looked as rigid as mine felt. “You had no intention of keeping to our agreement, did you? No intention whatsoever of letting me have a proper place in this club. It was just a stupid game to stall me, to make me think we could work this out.”
It was my turn to jab the finger. “Don’t you dare fucking start that shit, Faye. I had every intention of keeping to our agreement. Who sat there all fucking day with you yesterday while you stuck your oar in like a self-righteous fucking prick?”
“I was asking basic questions, Andy. Basic fucking questions. I’m entitled to know how to do shit around here! I’m entitled to know what the fuck is going on!” Her voice was sharper than usual, sharp and shrill. And then it cracked. “I did everything you wanted!” she shrieked. “I worked bar, I did the mail, I even cleaned up shitty fucking condoms from the fucking drain! I put up with every shitty thing you threw my way! I PLAYED FAIR, ANDY! I PLAYED FUCKING FAIR!” She slapped a hand on the desk.
And then she went quiet. Her hand clasped over her mouth and her shoulders did that horrible fucking judder that only means tears.
“And that’s it, is it?” I said. “Poor little Faye is going to cry her eyes out because Andy’s so fucking mean to her. That’s where we’re at?”
She raised her hand, and the slightest little sob slipped out of her. It was a pitiful fucking noise, and it smacked me right in the fucking stomach.
“What are you going to do now, Faye?” I sneered. “Google some fucking lawyers again? Run off back to Vincent cunt-face Blackthorne? Hide in your shitty little hotel room and cry it all out? What’s it going to be, Faye?”
She caught her breath and summoned a sliver of composure, even though her eyes were pools of hurt. “You don’t want me here, Andy. You’ll never let me back in, will you? Not as a partner. It doesn’t matter what I do now, I’ll always be the enemy.”
“You think that, do you?” I snapped. “That’s really what you fucking think? You’re sitting in my fucking office, at your old fucking desk. You have a fucking in-tray, and a laptop, and a fucking telephone extension. I think I’ve been really pissing generous, all things considered.”
“You don’t treat me anything like an equal!”
“So make me!” I raged. “You want respect, you fucking earn it! You want to be my fucking partner again, then you’ll have to stand up tall and stand your fucking ground! We’re going to butt heads, Faye, all the fucking time. That’s who I am! I’m not going to roll onto my back for you like some spineless fucking squib. I make decisions, I take charge, I boss people around, that’s who I fucking am! Stand up for yourself. You should have called me on the mobile the second you knew I wasn’t coming in, and you should have bollocked me, like I’d bollock you, and believe me, I’d fucking bollock you. You should have told me to get my fucking arse into work, to stop being such an irresponsible, stroppy fucking cunt and to get the fuck on with it.”
“Like you’d have listened! Andy Morgan doesn’t fucking listen!” she spat.
“Maybe I would, maybe I wouldn’t, but you’d have been in the fucking right, Faye, and even I’m not such a thick-skulled fucking asshole that I wouldn’t have seen it. You get respect by demanding it. You’ll be my partner again when you learn to fucking act like one.”
“I don’t know what you want me to do!” she hissed, and there were tears again, rolling down her cheeks in mascara-streaked rivers. She was a pain in the ass; a hysterical, whimpering, self-pitying ghost of the woman I risked a fucking fortune for, but she was so fucking beautiful that she took my breath.
I stormed to the filing cabinet at the back of the room, unloading boxes of paperwork from the top before I managed to reach what I was aiming for. I slammed the case down in front of her, springing open the clasps with angry fingers. The case was a bespoke walnut masterpiece, lined with black silk, and much more expensive than the contents.