Dirty Bad Savage(76)

My body took over as he freed me, coughing and spluttering and gasping for breath until my lungs recovered.

“Are you fucking mental?” he said.

“Something like that,” I rasped.

My mouth was starving for his, hands in his hair desperate to force him down to me. He gave in to the urges, burying deep inside and fucking me the way we usually fuck.

So fucking dirty.

So fucking bad.

So fucking savage.

I thought I’d got him, pulled him back from the edge of pain, but as he approached climax his eyes turned dull again.

I felt him leaving me, disappearing back inside his hurt.

He got up without speaking, pulled his clothes on.

“Don’t come here again,” he said. “Ever.”

“Callum...” I started, but his eyes stopped me dead in my tracks.

“Ever, Sophie. I never want to fucking see you again.”

He called Casey, and she followed reluctantly, looking back at me with sad eyes. It jolted me into action and I jumped to my feet.

“Please, Callum, please don’t do this.”

“It’s done. You don’t love me.”

“Yes, I do!” He didn’t answer, just fastened his jeans. My hands were in my rancid hair, struggling for words. “What about Casey?” I hissed. “Please!”

“What about her?” he spat.

“She’s not a stray anymore, Callum, she’s an indoor dog now. She loves cuddles on the sofa, and a warm bed, and proper food every night.”

“Don’t we fucking all.”

“Please,” I begged. “Please let me take her.”

He seemed to consider it, but again the shutters came down hard, eyes full of pain. “NO!” he boomed. “She’s all I’ve fucking got!”

I covered my face with my hands as he stormed away, just to hide the tears.

His next words came with a crack of emotion, his voice wavering for just a moment.

“You’ve ripped my fucking heart out, Sophie! Ripped it fucking out!”

And mine.

I’d ripped mine out too.



***



Callum

I was lost. Casey was edgy, lagging behind and whining all the time I circled the block. Just walking. Walking to nowhere.

I should’ve known, right from the beginning. Should’ve known a loser like me wasn’t good enough for someone like her.

I don’t know how I ended up at Vick’s. I was at her door before I realised it, hammering so hard I nearly broke the fucker. She came to the door in her dressing gown, peering out through the crack.

“Jesus, it’s you!” she screeched. “You scared me, thought it was the bloody Stoneys coming for me.” She flung the door open wide.

“You were right, Vick. She weren’t real, weren’t serious.”

“Shit, Cal.” She pulled me into a hug and I didn’t fight her. “Fucking hell, that’s shit, babe. I’m sorry.”

“Ain’t your fault,” I rasped. “You warned me.”

“I was just being a jealous bitch.”

“Nah, you were just saying it out loud. I ain’t no good for someone like her.”

“Wanna talk about it?” Her hands rubbed my back.

I shook my head against her. “Nah, just don’t wanna be alone.”

“You ain’t alone, Cal. You’ll never be alone, not with me and Slay around.” Casey jumped up at the pair of us, nose snuffling.

I pulled away, and we stood in silence to smoke. The night was quiet, so fucking quiet. Too fucking quiet.

“Come inside,” she said. “I’ll get us a drink.”

I shut Casey in the shed, and she grumbled a good while before she settled down, poor little sod. It would be hard on her, just like it would me. Vicki made us a cuppa and I perched on the sofa, brain fucking reeling. She sat down close to me, her hand on my knee.

“It’ll be alright, Cal. We’ll be alright.”

“Aye.” I didn’t believe it, though, didn’t believe a word of it. That fucking lump in my throat started up again.

“I’m here for you,” Vicki said. “She ain’t worth no upset, stuck-up cow. She ain’t like us, Cal, we’re different. We stick together, we get each other, from the same mould.”

I nodded, not really sure what I was agreeing to. I hadn’t got any fight left, just letting her yank my head to her chest. She nestled my face against her tits, arms wrapped round me, stroking my hair.

“I love you, Callum Jackson, even if she don’t.” I made to pull away but she held on tight. “Relax, Cal, let me hold you a minute. You need love, that’s what you need. Real love this time, someone who really cares.”

My nose pressed tight against her soft tits, and she kissed my head.