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By:H. P. Lovecraft


Here howl by night the werewolves, and the souls

Of those that knew me well in other days.

Yet on this night the grove spake not to me;

Nor spake the swamp, nor wind along the moor,

Nor moan’d the wind about the lonely eaves

Of the bleak, haunted pile wherein I lay.

I was afraid to sleep, or quench the spark

Of the low-burning taper by my couch.

I was afraid when thro’ the vaulted space

Of the old tow’r, the clock-ticks died away

Into a silence so profound and chill

That my teeth chatter’d — giving yet no sound.

Then flicker’d low the light, and all dissolv’d,

Leaving me floating in the hellish grasp

Of body’d blackness, from whose beating wings

Came ghoulish blasts of charnel-scented mist.

Things vague, unseen, unfashion’d, and unnam’d

Jostled each other in the seething void

That gap’d, chaotic, downward to a sea

Of speechless horror, foul with writhing thoughts.

All this I felt, and felt the mocking eyes

Of the curs’d universe upon my soul;

Yet naught I saw nor heard, till flash’d a beam

Of lurid lustre thro’ the rotting heav’ns,

Playing on scenes I labour’d not to see.

Methought the nameless tarn, alight at last,

Reflected shapes, and more reveal’d within

Those shocking depths than ne’er were seen before;

Methought from out the cave a demon train,

Grinning and smirking, reel’d in fiendish rout;

Bearing within their reeking paws a load

Of carrion viands for an impious feast.

Methought the stunted trees with hungry arms

Grop’d greedily for things I dare not name;

The while a stifling, wraith-like noisomeness

Fill’d all the dale, and spoke a larger life

Of uncorporeal hideousness awake

In the half-sentient wholeness of the spot.

Now glow’d the ground, and tarn, and cave, and trees,

And moving forms, and things not spoken of,

With such a phosphorescence as men glimpse

In the putrescent thickets of the swamp

Where logs decaying lie, and rankness reigns.

Methought a fire-mist drap’d with lucent fold

The well-remember’d features of the grove,

Whilst whirling ether bore in eddying streams

The hot, unfinish’d stuff of nascent worlds

Hither and thither thro’ infinities

Of light and darkness, strangely intermix’d;

Wherein all entity had consciousness,

Without th’ accustom’d outward shape of life.

Of these swift-circling currents was my soul,

Free from the flesh, a true constituent part;

Nor felt I less myself, for want of form.

Then clear’d the mist, and o’er a star-strown scene,

Divine and measureless, I gaz’d in awe.

Alone in space, I view’d a feeble fleck

Of silvern light, marking the narrow ken

Which mortals call the boundless universe.

On ev’ry side, each as a tiny star,

Shone more creations, vaster than our own,

And teeming with unnumber’d forms of life;

Tho’ we as life would recognise it not,

Being bound to earthy thoughts of human mould.

As on a moonless night the Milky Way

In solid sheen displays its countless orbs

To weak terrestrial eyes, each orb a sun;

So beam’d the prospect on my wond’ring soul:

A spangled curtain, rich with twinkling gems,

Yet each a mighty universe of suns.

But as I gaz’d, I sens’d a spirit voice

In speech didactic, tho’ no voice it was,

Save as it carried thought. It bade me mark

That all the universes in my view

Form’d but an atom in infinity;

Whose reaches pass the ether-laden realms

Of heat and light, extending to far fields

Where flourish worlds invisible and vague,

Fill’d with strange wisdom and uncanny life,

And yet beyond; to myriad spheres of light,

To spheres of darkness, to abysmal voids

That know the pulses of disorder’d force.

Big with these musings, I survey’d the surge

Of boundless being, yet I us’d not eyes,

For spirit leans not on the props of sense.

The docent presence swell’d my strength of soul;

All things I knew, but knew with mind alone.

Time’s endless vista spread before my thought

With its vast pageant of unceasing change

And sempiternal strife of force and will;

I saw the ages flow in stately stream

Past rise and fall of universe and life;

I saw the birth of suns and worlds, their death,

Their transmutation into limpid flame,

Their second birth and second death, their course

Perpetual thro’ the aeons’ termless flight,

Never the same, yet born again to serve

The varying purpose of omnipotence.

And whilst I watch’d, I knew each second’s space

Was greater than the lifetime of our world.

Then turn’d my musings to that speck of dust

Whereon my form corporeal took its rise;