Dead Chaos (A Valkyrie Novel - Book 3)(26)

"I think you hurt his feelings," I said, grinning.

"I do believe I have." Odin nodded. And then his form flickered in and out, disappearing for a few seconds, sending the raven fluttering to the ground as he lost his perch. A few moments later, Odin appeared again, his smile fading. "Come, child, I do not have much time."

"What can I do for you, my lord?" I rose to my feet and stepped before the All-Father.

"In this instance, I believe it is more to do with what I can do for you, my dear Bryn."

My mouth formed a soft, silent "O".

"You have done so very much for us in so many ways. You have withstood so much, putting yourself second so many times. You have the mark of a true Warrior, and for this, the Nine Realms thank you. For this, the Aesir thank you." Odin bowed, light from somewhere glinting on the white hair that fell below his floppy hat. "I know you have suffered much since Stephen Lee, son of Loki, stole your wings." Odin paused, his eyes glistening as he swallowed and took a deep breath. "And because of your suffering, I have been searching for a way to return your wings to you. It will tax my strength but it has to be done."

"No, my lord. We need you. You can't endanger your health in any way. We need to find a way to get you home." Although my heart soared at the prospect of the return of my wings, the emotion was bittersweet knowing it could hurt Odin. I’d prefer no wings if that were the case.

"Never fear, Brynhildr. I will find a way. But now, in this moment, I need to give you a few things to assist you in your journey." Odin held out his staff, pointing it at me, and for a moment, a rush of fear swept through me. I tamped down the urge to step away, knowing that Odin would never harm me. The All-Father concentrated on the tip of his staff and slowly, the air began to shimmer. A thin line of shifting, colored lights grew before me, so close I could reach out and touch it. Not that I dared.

The line of color slowly coalesced into a golden rod, almost a foot taller than I was. And as it gained solidity, gravity began to pull on it and the rod tipped over slowly. Without thinking, I reached out and grabbed it. I could do without the gleaming staff falling to the stone floor and being damaged.

Only when I had it in my hand did I notice its deadly, pointed tip. Odin's spear. The very same spear that it was foretold he would ride into battle with. I stepped forward and attempted to hand the spear to Odin, but the god shook his head, his shaggy, grey hair shivering with the movement. His single eye regarded me with such emotion my throat tightened.

"That is Gungnir. And I am leaving it in your safekeeping." I shook my head, unsure if I should accept such a valuable treasure from Odin, but I didn't speak. I'd taken one of his birds without any qualms, how could I decline his gift now? Odin walked toward me and placed a ghostly hand on my shoulder. "I suspect it will also come in handy at some point."

He placed his hand over my fingers where I held the spear. Only a hint of warmth touched my skin, no solidity in his form, reminding me that he struggled to maintain his presence beside me. I nodded then, knowing I'd have to keep the spear if only because he wanted me to.

"I do not have much time left, Brynhildr." Odin sighed. "I have one more thing to give you."

"But—"

"No, this is my choice and you must accept it." Odin brooked no argument from me. "You must take care of Gungnir for me. And you must take with you my two companions, Geri and Freki. Once you return to Asgard, they will come to you. Do not be afraid of them. They are powerful but obedient, and you are now their mistress."

As Odin spoke, the spectral image of him wavered, shivering in the air, there and not there. Odin was fading away, and too fast for his, or my, liking.

"There is one more thing, child. It is of utmost importance that you know who you really are."

But his last words were whispers on the wind as he shimmered and flickered before my eyes. His face crumpled in disappointment, Odin faded away, his mouth forming words I could not hear.

I shook my head. "I can't hear you," I yelled.

He spoke again, muscles in his throat taught, telling me he was shouting but not a sound reached my ears.

And then he was gone.

Just like that.









Chapter 23




I could no longer hold back my tears. Odin had been more to me than just a god. And the heavy weight in the pit of my stomach made me wonder if I'd just lost him forever.

Was this what Mimir's prediction had spoken of? That I would cause the death of the All-Father.

Had I just killed Odin?

And as the tears fell, I cried for Odin and I cried for me. Through the glimmer of moisture, I studied the spear. Slowly the tears stopped. No time for self-pity.

My skin grew warm around the metal staff. This spear, Gungnir, belonged to Odin. I gritted my teeth. I refused to disappoint him. I may not be happy about the responsibility, but I'd keep it safe just as he requested.

Blinking away the tears, I turned the golden weapon around, studying the business end. Weak light danced on the deadly tip, revealing runes etched into the metal, running along the sharp edge almost like a blessing for the kill. A shiver ran up and down my spine.

Hugin swooped toward me and landed on my shoulder. Overwhelmed by everything, I gave in to the tears and allowed myself to release all the pent-up grief and all the anger and frustration I'd experienced these past few days. Somewhere within the maelstrom of my emotions, I faced the simple fact of who I really was and what I truly wanted to be.

At last, tears spent, I wiped my face with the back of my hand and cleared my throat, staring at the spot Odin had occupied not so long ago. He'd gifted me with the spear, but he'd meant to tell me one more thing. And from the expression on his disappearing face, it had been something important. Something he'd been desperate to tell me.

Although consumed by curiosity, I accepted there was nothing I could do about it now. Odin had disappeared to god only knows where. All I could do was hope that he was safe and that I'd see him again someday soon. For now, I had a few duties to perform.

I let out a shuddering sigh, retrieved the bottle of the Norn’s magical water, and turned toward the entrance of the cave. I'd been away from the group for far too long. There were things they needed to know.



All eyes fell on me as I entered the large cave and they all converged on me.

"What happened? You were gone so long," asked Sigrun.

"And you’re back with a golden spear that happens to look a lot like Gungnir?" Aimee added with a raised eyebrow as she stared from the spear to me and back. "So . . . are you going to talk or do we have to drag it out of you?" Aimee glared at me, but her eyes softened when she saw my face. I was unsure what they'd say when they knew.

I cleared my throat. "Okay, so I went to the cave to have some me time. But as usual, nothing happens the way I intend it." I grinned, but got no response from my audience. They merely stared at me, waiting. "Odin appeared."

"What? Where has he b—"

"Odin? What's he doing h—"

I gave in. "Okay, guys, I'll talk. So just be quiet until I'm done." I related everything that had happened in the cave, and how Odin gave me the spear. I ended with the All-Father’s desire to tell me something. Something he never got the chance to.

"So what do you think it was he wanted tell you?" asked Sigrun.

"No idea. I couldn’t hear him. And I can't lip read," I said in disgust. "But what I'd like to know is why Odin is suddenly giving me stuff? Not that I'm ungrateful for the spear and all. I'm just worried that—"

"That this might be what Mimir predicted? That he's more than just gone? That he's dead?" Sigrun murmured. The group fell silent, absorbing her words and my gut twisted. If she was right, I'd just succeeded at killing the All-Father.

"I don't know," Joshua said. "Maybe he just ran out of power to project. Maybe he's somewhere safe, rekindling his energy."

"I bloody hope so," I said through gritted teeth. But I couldn’t help the doubt that crept into my heart. Something was wrong. I sighed. Perhaps they were there to help me on my mission.

"Okay, guys, there's more."

"More?" asked Sigrun, a frown darkening her features.

I laughed. "Yup, we are going on another mission. The Norns told me where Loki has hidden Gjallerhorn."

"And we need to get the horn back before we retrieve Heimdall." Sigrun nodded.

"So where exactly are we going?" asked Joshua.

"First, we're going back to Asgard. Then we are off to Muspellheim. To the land of the fire giants."









Chapter 24




We gathered our things and readied ourselves for the journey back to the Bifrost. After stowing the bottle of water safely in my satchel, I took one last look around the gigantic cave. The pool in its very center lay still as glass, not a ripple to be seen. The water held such indescribable power.

I blinked to find myself alone as the others headed out of the hall. I hurried after them. We travelled up within the trunk of the great tree, making our way out and across the root-ridden landscape above ground. We remained undisturbed, no giant birds or ravenous wolves attacked.

We spent much of our journey in silence. We weren’t far from the Vigrid Plains when Sigrun’s voice broke into my thoughts. "What is the matter, Bryn? You are unusually quiet," she asked with a smile. Her grey eyes sparkled, quintessentially Sigrun. Always happy and cheerful. At that moment I just wanted to give her a great big, squishy hug.