She shook her head, hardly conscious that she was responding. She had to intubate. But if she left the wound … She couldn't do both jobs herself.
'Unless you can intubate … ' she whispered, hopeless. She shouldn't have tried. The oral conformation of koalas-small mouth, narrow dental arcade, a long, soft palate and a caudally placed glottal opening, all of these combined with a propensity to low blood oxygen saturation-made koala anaesthetics risky at the best of times. And without another vet …
'I can intubate,' he snapped. 'Keep working.'
'You can?'
Jake was already at the side bench, staring down at equipment. 'What size tube?'
'Four millimetre,' she said automatically.
Another vet? Maybe he was, she thought, as he grabbed equipment and headed to the table. Whoever he was, he knew what he was doing.
The soft palate of the koalas obscures the epiglottis from direct view, but Jake didn't hesitate. He'd found and was using silicone spray, snapping instructions at Becky to hand him equipment.
Tori was concentrating on applying pressure to the wound to prevent more blood loss. She was therefore able to watch in awed amazement as Jake manoeuvered the little animal into a sternal recumbency position, as he applied more spray-and as he slid the tube home.
It was like the Angel Gabriel had suddenly appeared from the heavens. Ask and ye shall receive. She'd barely been aware that she'd prayed.
No matter where he'd come from, no matter that she couldn't see his wings and he sounded autocratic and fierce rather than soft and halo-like, her one-and-a-half-minute date was definitely assuming angel-like status. He had oxygen flowing in what seemed seconds. The monitor by Tori's side showed a slight shift in the thin blue line-and then a major one.
She had life.
'Heart rate's seventy beats a minute,' Jake snapped, adjusting the flow. 'How does that compare to normal?'
Not a vet, then? Or not a vet who cared for koalas. Of course not.
'Low, but a whole lot better than before you arrived,' she told him, but there was no time for questions. Stunned, she went back to what she was doing. She was incredibly grateful but now wasn't the time to show it. She had to get this wound debrided, then get it dressed so the anaesthetic could be reversed.
Koalas died under anaesthetic. This one wouldn't. Please …
As if in echo of her thoughts, Jake said, 'She seems knocked around. Wouldn't euthanasia be the kindest option?' He'd had time now to take in the scar tissue, the signs of major trauma.
'Says the man who just saved her,' Tori muttered. 'Let's try to keep her alive until I finish. We can do the moral debate later.'
'Right.'
There was silence while she worked on. Becky had faded into the background, assisting both of them, deeply relieved, Tori guessed, to be freed from a task she hated. There was so much they'd done in the past six months they'd all hated-including putting down more animals than she wanted to think about.
How to explain that after so much death, one life became disproportionately important. This little one she was working on didn't have a name. Or … she shouldn't give her one. She should not be emotionally involved.
Only, of course, she was emotionally involved. Koala Number Thirty-seven-the thirty-seventh koala she'd treated since the fire-belonged in the wild, and Tori was determined to get her back there. She would win this last battle. She must.
Thanks to this man, she just might.
Who was he?
She was finishing now, applying dressings, having enough time again to pay attention to the man at the head of the table. He was watching the monitors like a hawk, his face fierce, absorbed, totally committed to what he was doing.
Inserting an endotracheal tube in a koala was always dangerous territory. If you went too deep there was a major risk of traumatising the trachea and extending the tube into bronchus. She hadn't told him that. There hadn't been time, but he'd seemed to know it instinctively. How?
Maybe he was a vet, or maybe he did paediatric anaesthesia. Sometimes she thought paediatrics and veterinary science were inexplicably linked. Varying weights and sizes. The inability of the patient to explain where the pain was.
Who was he?
She was finished. Another check of the monitors. Pulse rate eighty. Blood oxygen saturation ninety percent.
Koala Thirty-seven just might live.
She couldn't help herself; she put her hand on the soft fur of the little koala's face and bestowed a silent blessing.
'You keep on living,' she whispered. 'You've come so far. You will make it.'
'She might well,' Jake said. He was working surely and confidently, removing the endotracheal tube with care and watching with satisfaction as the little animal settled back into normal breathing pattern. 'So who's going to pay her bill?'
'Now there's a question,' she murmured. She was carrying the little animal carefully back to her cage in the corner. She wasn't out of the woods yet-she knew that. Any procedure took it out of these wild animals, but at least there was hope.
She'd done all she could, she thought, arranging the IV line the little animal needed to provide fluids until she started eating again. Then she was finished.
Really finished, she thought suddenly. There was now nothing left to do.
The sensation was strange. For the six months since the fires Tori had worked nonstop. This place had been a refuge for injured wildlife from all over the mountain. They'd had up to fifty volunteers at one time, with Tori supervising the care of as many as three hundred animals. Kangaroos, wallabies, possums, cockatoos, koalas-so many koalas. So many battles. So much loss.
It was over. Those who could be saved had been saved, and were being re-introduced in the wild. The spring rains had come, the bush was regenerating; there was food and water out there for animals to re-establish territories.
This little koala was the last of her responsibilities. She glanced down at her and, as she did, she felt a wave of the deep grief that was always with her. All those she'd failed …
'Is it okay if I go now?' Becky said, glancing uncertainly at Jake. 'It's just … Ben's picking me up. He'll be waiting.'
'Sure, Becky. Thanks for your help.'
'You won't need me again, will you?'
'No.' She glanced back at the koala. If there was a need for more surgery, she knew what her decision would have to be, and for that she wouldn't need Becky.
'See you, then,' Becky said. 'I'm out of here. Hooray for the city-I'm so over this place.' And with another curious glance at Jake she disappeared, closing the door behind her.
Leaving Tori with Jake.
'I … Thank you,' she managed. He looked pretty much like he had the night before. Slightly more casual. Faded jeans and a white, open-necked shirt. Elastic-sided boots. He looked like a local, she thought, which was at odds with his American accent.
'My pleasure,' he said, and sounded like he meant it. 'I didn't realise last night that you were a vet.'
'I didn't know you were.'
'I'm not.'
'So inserting endotracheal tubes in koalas is just a splinter skill for, say, a television repairman?'
'I'm an anaesthetist. Jake Hunter.'
'An anaesthetist,' Tori said blankly. 'In Combadeen? You have to be kidding.'
'I'm not kidding. I'm staying at Manwillinbah Lodge.'
'Rob Winston's place?' She was struggling now with the connection. What had Jake said last night? 'I own properties here, in the valley and up on the ridge.' And Rob. Distracted, she thought of the pleasant young man who'd flirted outrageously last night. She remembered him arriving with this man. With Jake. 'Was Rob Winston the ninth date last night?' she demanded.
'That was Rob.'
'He was nice. Fun.'
'Meaning, I wasn't?'
'I didn't say that. But I wish I'd known who he was,' she said ruefully. 'He should have told me. I need to thank him, and not only for letting us use this place. I had a friend who went to Manwillinbah Lodge when she was released from hospital two months ago. It wasn't right for her. She needed ongoing medical treatment, but that wasn't Rob's fault, and she said he tried so hard to give her time out. So many people around here need that.' She frowned, figuring more things out. 'So is this … is this your farm?'
'It is.'
'Oh, my … '
Uh-oh.
Last night she'd walked out on her landlord. On the guy who'd made this whole hospital possible. 'You've been giving this place to us rent free and I didn't even know who you were.' It was practically a wail and he grinned.
'This is a whole new conversation topic. If we'd known last night we could have used our whole five minutes.'
She managed a smile-just. How embarrassing. And how to retrieve the situation?
She should shake his hand. Or, um, not. She glanced down at her gloves and decided gratitude needed to wait. Plus she needed to catch her breath. Breath seemed in remarkably short supply.
'Could you excuse me for a moment?' she muttered. 'I need to wash.' And she disappeared-she almost ran-leaving him alone with Koala Number Thirty-seven.
He was in the front room of what seemed to have been a grand old farmhouse. It still was, somewhere under the litter of what looked to be an animal hospital.