At the same time, I’d be getting Gianna back one day for real, hopefully soon, and I didn’t want any other girls on my conscience. It would hurt my cause if Gianna had any reason to believe I’d messed around with anyone else. Besides the fact I couldn’t see myself being with another girl, period.
I was counting on her territorial feelings to get her agreement.
I was practically rubbed raw from fantasizing about her the past few weeks. Not to mention that being apart from her was messing with my head.
“What I meant,” I explained slowly, “is that I want to spend time with you on the weekends. Whether or not we have sex is up to you. Just being with you is enough for me.”
I was given hope by the thoughtful look on her face. I’d said the right thing, thankfully without giving up too much information.
“Caleb, you do realize how pathetic it’d be of me to accept a half-ass relationship from you?”
Kissing her cheek, I forced a lighthearted smile. “It won’t be half-ass. You’ll have all of me. It’ll just be stored up all week for you. You just can’t tell anyone about it.”
An unexpected elbow hit my stomach right before she pushed me down onto the bed, climbing on top of me. All hopes of being ravished were dashed when her angry face hovered over mine.
“Are you freaking serious, Caleb? How stupid do you think I am?” She sat up straight. “Let me get this straight. You want to ignore me all week, see me on Saturdays only and you want me to keep it a secret?” She held both hands over her heart and asked sarcastically, “Oh really, Caleb, can I be your secret girlfriend?”
When she laid it all out like that it sounded bad. And strangely funny.
“I just think we should keep it to ourselves.”
Both her hands landed on my chest. “What the hell for? So your other hoes won’t find out?”
Before she could react, I flipped her over onto her back and pressed my lower body against hers. “I told you already, no other girls. Of course, I’ll expect you to cut off all other guys.”
She grunted, trying to buck me off her. Being a cheerleader, she was strong, but not strong enough. “Get the hell off me! I’m not going to be your secret booty call, Caleb! You can go and sleep with any girl you want for all I care and I’ll be doing the same thing!”
I ground my hips into hers and kissed her forcefully, holding her chin when she tried to turn away. “No one else touches you, Gianna, and you’ll meet me here next Saturday or I’ll come find you to drag you here.”
She screamed in frustration. “I’ll be with Ian next Saturday and I’ll be sleeping with him!”
That did it. All rationality flew out of my head because there was only enough room for the extreme jealousy lashing through me. If she had sex with Ian, I’d kill him and lock her away somewhere only I could get to her.
I’d kill him and anyone else who touched her.
I started tugging away at her clothes, imagining Ian putting his hands where only I’d touched. I needed to show her I should be the only one touching her. Not until I had her practically naked, only in her panties, did I come back to myself and realize she was crying.
Shaking my head, I got a grip on myself, finally coming to my senses. What the hell was wrong with me?
I cupped her face in my hands, leaning down to press my lips against hers. “Shh, baby, don’t cry. I’m so sorry, I would never hurt you. Just, please, don’t say anything like that again.”
Taking a deep breath, she finally stopped crying as I wiped away her tears. The wide-eyed look on her face let me know how much I’d freaked her out.
I used to be normal before I met her. Life was simple. I knew nothing would ever be the same and somehow I didn’t care. I couldn’t even relate to the guy I was before.
Lifting her slightly, I pulled the comforter back and threw it over her. I stood up to strip off my jeans and shirt, letting them fall to the floor. Joining her under the covers, I took her into my arms.
“Let’s just go to sleep, we’ll talk about it in the morning.”
She didn’t answer.
*****
I’d said we’d talk in the morning, but I woke up with a raging hard on and a sexy Gianna curled up against me wearing almost nothing. She was still sleeping sweetly, her beautiful features soft in slumber.
Unable to resist, I lifted up the covers to peek at her body. I needed to be inside her. Hopefully, she’d agree.
I started stroking her body while she slept, rubbing gently, hoping to get her aroused enough in sleep she wouldn’t be able to resist me once awake. She groaned sexily, making my hard on twitch in response. It recognized the sound.