She fell back to sleep as I covered up her hot body with the blanket. I looked down at the towel in my hand, tinged with a small amount of red.
Gazing down at Gianna, I realized nothing had ever been precious to me before. Now this beautiful girl had become the most precious and important thing in my world.
She’d told me she loved me. While her loving me made me cautiously happy, I wasn’t sure what I had to offer her. I didn’t ever want love any girl and I didn’t think I could love her back like she wanted.
I witnessed firsthand the hell loving my dad was for my mom. In the end, he didn’t love her back enough. The way he loved Julie wasn’t right either. Look how easily she threw his love away.
If Gianna said it again, should I say it back if it was untrue? I was in no doubt that I cared a lot for her. I loved spending time with her and I liked everything about her. On top of that, she was the best in all of my experiences.
I ran my fingers through my hair in frustration. This relationship stuff was hard. Being a player had been so simple. I just hit it and moved on to the next available and willing girl.
Things were more complicated now. The way I was feeling at that moment, I didn’t think I’d ever want to move on from Gianna.
CHAPTER FOUR
“Love me when I least deserve it, because that’s when I really need it.”
-Swedish Proverb
CALEB
I woke in the middle of the night with Gianna curled up against me. Her body was so soft and warm against mine. Even in her sleep, she was asking for it. At least, that was the excuse in my head for what I did next.
The bathroom door was cracked open, letting in just enough light to get a visual. I pulled the sheet back to get a look at her hot little body.
Easing her onto her back, she grumbled in her sleep. I ran my hands down her body until I reached her thighs, spreading them open to touch between her legs until she was wet for me. I knew I should be gentle with her, since she’d just lost her virginity a few hours ago.
Deciding to surprise her, I filled her slowly, causing her to finally wake up. “Caleb?” she murmured sleepily.
“Who else were you expecting?” I teased her.
I was holding still inside her, letting her get used to the intrusion. “What is this? Open season on my vagina?”
“Yours?” I asked in mock disbelief. “It’s mine now.”
She laughed, making her whole body shake. I groaned at the unintended sensations where we were connected.
Not able to hold back any longer, I began rocking in and out of her. Her legs wrapped around me, giving me a better angle. Grinding into her just right, I had her climaxing on a long moan. I liked hearing my name as she came, but with an unexpected pang of regret I missed the more tender words she’d said last time.
Deciding to shake it off, I drove into her harder until I was seeing stars.
Heaven.
As I pulled out, she curled to her side with an adorable little smile on her face. “Thank you,” she sighed in contentment, already lowering her lids to return to slumber.
I chuckled, tucking her into me. “You’re more than welcome. Sweet dreams, princess.”
Her lids remained closed but she made a sour face. “No more waking me up.”
I spanked her on the butt. “Go to sleep!”
“I am so kicking your ass when I wake up in ten hours.” she muttered sulkily and drifted back to sleep.
Sitting up, I stared at her sleeping face. God, she really was the most beautiful girl I’d ever seen. After getting to know her, I tended to forget it. Her personality kept my interest beyond her looks.
She’d been unhappy when I’d first met her. Living a lie and playing a part she’d detested. Except for her crew. It seemed like I’d finally got Jared off our backs. He accepted our relationship, but that could just be him saving face. No doubt, in a heartbeat he’d be willing to take my place in Gianna’s life.
I lightly stroked her full bottom lip with my thumb. She was my pretty girl, now. Jared wouldn’t be getting the chance to take my place. No one would.
She was happy now with me. At least I’d put a smile on her face. But was it love? Why did it have to be? Why couldn’t things stay the way they were now? In my opinion, we had an absolutely ideal relationship. We could continue to have fun, have loads of sex and not ruin it with love crap.
Perfection.
Closing my eyes and laying my head on the pillow next to hers, I figured Gianna and I would have to talk about our relationship in the morning. I’d explain my way of thinking to her and she’d understand. She’d see that my way would cause less hassle. Love inevitably beat relationships to death, killing the connection two people started out with.