I turned the monitor again and added the couch to the list for the store to put on my order. Then I pulled up the next set of options, moving the monitor for her to see them. "What about end tables? And do I need a coffee table?"
"That all depends on the entertainment center. You want them to match."
I switched the screen to the options for wall units and let her choose one.
"I like the mahogany one. You could display trinkets and things behind the glass doors, and it still has a lot of room for a big TV. But if you go with the black couch, that would probably clash. So I'd say the more industrial looking one would go better with the black. It would fit with the single man vibe."
Refusing to look her in the eye, knowing I'd give away more than I cared to, I returned to the end tables and gave her a moment to look at the options.
"It's kind of hard to pick when I don't know which couch you're getting."
I snickered and raised an eyebrow. "You did fine picking out a wall unit without knowing. Who knows, maybe I'll end up changing my mind about all of it depending on which end tables I like the best. I like how you're pairing the furniture. It's easier to see it all in my head."
"Okay … " She adjusted in her seat to get closer to the computer again. "The solid mahogany matches the entertainment center, and like the beige couch, it's mature and seems fitting for a family room."
I waited for her to give me other opinions, and when she didn't, I saw through her. "And which one would go with the black couch?"
"Oh, the single man feel … yeah. Well … " Her eyes softened as she focused on the screen in front of her. The disappointment rolled off her in waves. "Out of these, I'd have to say the one that's stained black with the glass tops, and the matching coffee table. But honestly, if you can find one that matches the TV stand, that would be best."
"Yeah, I didn't see any on this site. I'll probably have to look around for one of those. But you're right-it should match the entire room. See? Look how much you're helping me. I've never decorated a room before. Without your eye, this could've been a disaster. Now … " I switched to another screen. "What do you think of these kitchen tables?"
"Are you redoing your whole place?"
I shrugged. "Gabi had picked out all the furniture, so yeah, I need everything."
With a nod, she turned her attention to the options of kitchen tables I'd shown her. "These larger ones are too big for one person. Those are more for families. You'd need one of these smaller ones."
"I was thinking the same thing. I mean, it's only me, but what if I have people over?"
She eyed me with curiosity and smirked. "What kind of company would you have over? Have you made new friends in the last few days?"
"You never know. I could have a woman over for dinner … or breakfast." I was pretty sure I'd gone too far with that statement. She quickly glanced away and seemed to have grown uncomfortable. I wanted to say something to ease her mind, but she didn't let me.
"Then go with this one. It comes with a removable center so it can either seat four or six." Without looking at me again, she stood from her seat and stepped away from the desk. "If that's all, I have to get to work. I was just making sure we were okay … and it seems like we are."
"Whatever happened to that house you found?" I called out, halting her escape.
"I wasn't able to get it." She didn't offer any other explanation before disappearing into her office, closing the door behind her. It seemed she wasn't ready to keep it open, or the blinds for that matter. But I couldn't obsess over it. I'd led her to believe I was taking time to be single, and possibly meet someone. I could've corrected her, but after ignoring her for a few days, she finally admitted she'd missed my attention. I only needed to get through the weekend, get everything in place, and I knew it would all be okay.
She needed to miss me as much as I'd missed her.
And then she'd be willing to see how much she wanted to be with me.
It wasn't a game I'd set out to play, but one that had fallen into my lap. If it worked, I had to play along. I needed her to know for certain that she wanted the same things I did, because I couldn't chance getting her back, only for her to run away again.
I sent the list of furniture I decided to purchase to the salesman and paid for it over the phone. Delivery was scheduled for the next day, which meant I'd have to miss work. Normally, I would've cared and planned to have it all delivered on Saturday, but I didn't want to wait that long to get moved into the house.