Day 21
Dear Diary
Thank goodness. It’s the weekend, finally. I’m going to try and forget about everything that happened this week, and just move on into the next one. Maybe the other kids from school will forget about it all.
I plan on spending the rest of the weekend finishing up my project and talking on the phone. Kyle wants to go fishing with his dad. I might go with them. We’ll see how things go. Keeping my fingers crossed that things go okay, especially when I go back to school on Monday.
Day 22
Dear Diary,
It’s like, almost midnight right now. For me, this is pretty late, but I just got home. It’s Saturday, and I did end up getting to go fishing with Kyle. My dad came too, to spend some time with his dad. It was pretty cool, because then neither of them were paying all that much attention to what Kyle and I did. They talked for like five hours straight about politics and sports and things like that.
While they talked, Kyle took my hand and led me further down the river. The area there is really cool, there are nature trails that lead everywhere, and you can see the fish jumping in the lake. It’s a lot of fun being with Kyle. When we were sure that our parents weren’t paying attention, Kyle led me down the start of a nature trails.
It was very dark and cool under the cover of the trees. I was surprised that we saw a few squirrels pretty close, and even a ground hog way off in the distance. There were a lot of different flowers there. We kissed for a while, under the shade of the trees. It was so romantic. I haven’t had the chance to kiss him for real ever since the party. Maybe kisses on the cheek here and there, but his parents were around when we went to dinner. This was the very first time that the two of us were alone together.
I have a few friends who have talked about the way that they are with their boyfriends. I know that their hands move to very private places when they kiss, especially the girls I know that have older boyfriends. I was worried that this kiss was going to be like that, but it wasn’t. I wouldn’t know what to do if it was, especially since that makes me blush and feel shy just to think about it. I don’t know how the other girls can handle it.
But this kiss was just sweet. There wasn’t tongue or anything, and that’s good because that sounds too sloppy. It didn’t last very long, but I’m not complaining. I think that both of us were worried that our dads would look up and see us gone. He held my hand and we ran back to where they were fishing.
Neither of us caught anything, because we were too distracted to really do much fishing. It was really nice though. He hugged me goodbye, and he would have kissed me again, but both of our dads were watching.
I want to do things with him more often, because it’s so nice. I’m just worried about what happens when we get closer. My older sister has always been really close with her boyfriend. I’ve walked into her room when her boyfriend, Andy, was here, and found them kissing in her bed. She’s only two years older than me, and I think that she’s too young. That makes me definitely too young.
So what do I do if Kyle wants to do something that I’m not comfortable with?
Day 23
Dear Diary,
Well, it’s Monday now. I just got home from school, and I’m going to go to the library to meet Sharon soon, so that we can do our homework together. Then we’re going to a movie.
Sharon thought that the picture was funny, and she didn’t really understand why I would have any problems with it. She said that Kyle stood up for me and yelled at Kristy for doing that to me. Then he went all over the school looking for me to make sure that I was okay. He saw me get into the car with my mom, and he was really sad for the rest of the day. Sharon thinks that I should just be happy that I have a real boyfriend like Kyle, and not a boyfriend that would dump me just because of a silly picture.
She might not understand it, but I still get laughed at sometimes in school, even though a good few days have passed since that picture was put up. Kristy especially laughs at me. She walked by with a piece of chocolate cake today and probably would have smeared it on my clothes except that I moved out of the way quickly enough, and then one of the teachers in the classrooms by my locker came out. It was really lucky for me, but I’m sure that she’ll catch up with me eventually.
Still, it was fun to laugh at her not being able to follow through with her evil plan.
Day 24
Dear Diary,
It’s been crazy lately. I can’t believe how much homework is being piled on top of me. My backpack is crazy heavy, but it’s okay, I’ve been getting it all done. Today is Wednesday, and Sharon just got dropped off at my house. We’re going to get our homework done and then go to sleep. It’ll be a lot easier with Sharon here—everything goes a lot faster when I have a friend by my side. And tomorrow, she’s going to ride the bus with me to school, so it will be a lot easier. It’s kind of cool having a sleepover on a week night.