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Craving Beauty(4)

By:Nalini Singh




"My home. Louisiana. Near Lafayette." His words were curt, holding no welcome.



She thought for a moment. "That state has much water but also pra..   .prairies and its borders touch the Gulf of Mexico. Lafayette is near   Baton Red... No, Baton Rouge. It is sometimes called Cajun Country, is   it not?"



The man she was joined to was staring at her. "What, you read encyclopedias in your spare time?"



Since that was exactly what she did, she scowled at his sarcastic tone.   "They are very informative." And she was starved for information.



Her father didn't believe in higher education for females, but she'd   managed to educate herself, first through books and later through   clandestine use of the Internet-linked computer in the study. As a   teenager, she'd railed against the unfairness of being denied the   educational opportunities lavished on her two uninterested brothers, but   had soon realized the futility of her pleas.



"What's your favorite subject?" It was the lack of sarcasm in Marc's question that startled her out of her dark mood.



"You're not making fun of me?" She didn't understand his curiosity. Her   husband was not reacting as she'd expected. Instead of nursing his  anger  over their disastrous wedding night, he appeared to be trying to   facilitate a conversation between them.



Those piercing eyes seemed to narrow. "No."



"Well then. It is economics, theories of management, things such as   that." Aware that it wasn't a feminine type of subject, she stared right   back at him, defiant.



"Sure, princess. I believe you." He appeared to be fighting a smile.



Suddenly her frustration erupted. "How dare you... what is your word..   .patronize me? You see only what you think to see. You cannot recognize   what is beneath the surface for you are a man who buys only on outward   appearance!" She turned on her heel, the wind generated by her dark   skirts buzzing angrily around her legs. "I will be ready to leave within   the hour."



His arrogance made her angry, but beneath the anger the broken edges of lost dreams rubbed her raw with pain.

Despite everything, she'd dared to dream that her American husband would   be a man who'd allow her to spread her wings and fly. That hope was  now  forever lost.



He was just like her father, intent on caging her in the box he'd set   aside for her in his mind. She'd fallen for his slow, seductive smile-so   rare on that brutally masculine face... a warrior's face-forgetting   that being akin to a warrior was no guard against male failings.



Marc frowned as he watched his wife storm out of the room, as regal as a   true princess. He'd learned long ago that appearances counted for   nothing. Had he committed the cardinal sin and judged his wife on her   beautiful face rather than what lay within?



It took him only a minute to discard that idea. If she was so damn   smart, what was she doing living in her father's home, on his charity?   Zulheil wasn't a restrictionist culture. Sure, the women were well   protected and cherished, but they were allowed the same opportunities as   their male counterparts.



If nothing else, Hira could've gained the money she needed for study by   joining the modeling world. The minute she walked into an agency, the   bookers would've crawled on their hands and knees to sign her up. One of   his best friends had clawed her way out of poverty using her face, and   he respected her for it.



Snorting at almost falling for his spoiled new wife's tricks, he   continued to sign papers relating to a minor outstanding matter. He'd   have to return to Zulheil in a month or so for a further set of   negotiations, but right now he was needed in Louisiana.



Truth to tell, he missed his watery homeland. All this stunning golden   desert and too-blue sky could get wearing on a matt used to humidity and   mosquitoes and the occasional gator.



Hira didn't speak to Marc again until they were winging their way   through the clouds, seated side by side in the first-class cabin of a   commercial jetliner. Having never flown before, she was feeling more   than a little lost and wished Marc would talk to her instead of working   on his documents. He might be stubborn and inclined to snap, but at   least she knew him. All these other people were strangers, even the   flight attendants who smiled at her so nicely but whose eyes were cold.                       
       
           



       



They thought her nothing but a pretty face, a rich man's newest toy.   Marc's dismissive attitude toward her had undoubtedly strengthened that   belief. Her anger at the way she was always labeled without being given  a  chance was a pulsing wound inside her, a wound that grew each time  she  tried to protect herself by showing a cold face instead of  shattering  with rage.



Even the times when she'd broken down and cried, she'd done so in the   dead of night, in silence. Who could she tell? Who wouldn't laugh at her   and call her a "poor little rich girl," as if her looks and her   father's wealth meant that she was never to be accorded any real   sympathy?



Yet all her life, how she'd envied those plain girls who were adored by   their husbands for their laughter and their wit; girls who would never   have to worry about being forgotten once their skin wrinkled and their   bodies changed. Girls who could joyfully confess to gaining a few   pounds, safe in the knowledge that in their husbands' eyes they'd remain   forever beautiful.



Despair and hurt tangled inside her soul, making her want to scream and   cry at the same time. But she did neither. She'd been brought up to be   the perfect daughter and the perfect wife. Seen, not heard. Never  heard.



The blond flight attendant passed by again, giving Marc a subtly   interested glance. He didn't look up. At least he wouldn't humiliate her   by openly flirting with other women, though it was likely that many   would throw out lures.



He wasn't a man who could be described as handsome, but there was   something compelling about him. Power and strength, buried passion,   depths without end-he had the kind of charisma women found irresistible.   She'd been pressured into marrying him, but in the privacy of her  mind,  she admitted that he was a man who made her blush with impure  thoughts.



The first time she'd seen him, he hadn't been aware of her scrutiny.   She'd been standing in a hidden alcove on the upper floor of their home,   looking down onto the banquet hall to check that everything was in   order. Barely after she'd arrived, her eyes had landed on Marc, drawn by   his magnetic presence.



He'd been standing alone in one corner, his determined and ruthless   nature stamped on his features. She didn't fear ruthlessness-all the   truly strong males she knew had that element in their makeup. It was   part of what made them the powerful men they were.



When he'd moved, she'd imagined him as the most predatory of hunters,   all dangerous grace and barely contained power. Her eyes had followed   him across the room, unable to drag themselves away. Disturbingly, he'd   paused midstep and looked right up at the alcove, as if he'd known she   was watching.



Shaking from the impact of those ice-gray eyes, she'd retreated with her   hand pressed over the thundering beat of her heart. It had taken her   half an hour to calm down enough to finally join the banquet.. .where   Marc had smiled that slow, secret smile at her and turned her whole   world inside out.



In short, her husband was a very sexy man.



But even concentrating on Marc's undeniable sexual allure wasn't   alleviating her fear. Aware that she couldn't expect sympathy from the   man she'd frozen out of their marriage bed, she forced herself to reach   for a magazine.

Moments later she watched in dismay as the glossy paper slid out from   between fingers numbed by the desperate way she'd gripped the armrests.



Without saying a word, Marc put down his pen and picked up the magazine,   placing it atop his papers. Eyes wide, she waited. Before she could  ask  for its return, he reached over and closed one big hand around her   trembling fingers. She froze.



"Not a good flier, princess?" There was no mockery in his expression, only concern.



She gave him a watery smile, stunned at his compassion. "It is my first.. .flying."



"Your first flight?" His surprise was clear. "I've met your father several times in Munich, L.A., even Madrid.'"



She knew all the facts and figures for those places, could name streets   and landmarks, but never had she seen them in reality. "My father   believes in unmarried women remaining at home." She tightened her grasp   on his hand. "But he never took my mother, either, so perhaps he really   believes in keeping all women at home.'"