She let out a relieved sigh and her arms rose of their own volition, wrapping around his neck.
On and on he kissed her, his tongue plundering the deepest recesses of her mouth, until she wantonly squirmed beneath him. She’d never felt anything like this before and she wanted so, so much more.
Finally he pulled away, raking her with his hard, dark gaze. “Tell me to stop, Cindra. Tell me you don’t want it.”
“I…” She couldn’t say more than one word right now, much less speak in sentences.
His face took on a satisfied expression and he sat up, staring down at her for one second. Before she could guess at his intent, he tore the sheet from her body, then expertly slid her nightgown up from where it had tangled around her thighs…further and further up, until he’d scrunched the entire length of fabric underneath her breasts.
Sudden alarm penetrated her foggy haze. Though he hadn’t taken her nightgown off, he might as well have. Her entire body was bared to him, from the tips of her breasts to the apex of her thighs. She tried to sit up. “No.”
“Relax,” he whispered, pressing down on her stomach. “I’m not going to take you. Not unless you agree to be our mate.”
There was that word again—our. Just as before, it made her thighs soft with moisture and her gut clench with desire.
“I won’t,” she whispered. “I can’t.”
Bannor stared at her for one long, loaded moment. His lips twisted into a bitter smile. “Then you’ve nothing to fear from me.”
Something permeated the air, something harsh and disappointed, and she stared up at him, fearful to respond. Fearful he’d stand up and leave.
Finally he took a breath and the heaviness dissipated. “Okay, Cindra. Have it your way. If you wish to marry a Keulot farmer, there’s nothing I can do to sway you.”
He straightened, and she fought the urge to cry, “Don’t leave.” But he didn’t stand. Rather, his hungry gaze raked her body, drinking her in. She squirmed against the uncomfortable feelings it aroused within her.
What was she doing? She should yank her nightgown down. But…she didn’t want to. Something about the way he gazed at her nude form made her want more. She was so confused.
“But…” he continued. “Perhaps you should know what you’re giving up.”
“Wha-what do you mean?” she stuttered.
His gaze locked on hers. “Let me touch you. Nothing more than that. If, after feeling my hands on your body, you’re content with the farmer’s, then I’ll do nothing to stop it.”
His words drew her breath tight. Let me touch you. It was as if he was reading her mind. Because yes, she did want that. She wanted to know what it felt like. It didn’t mean she wasn’t going to marry Adamon. And he’d already told her he wouldn’t take her without her permission. So why not indulge, just once?
Because it’s wrong. Adamon would consider it cheating.
But, then, unless she told him, he’d never know.
Slowly, she nodded at Bannor. His face relaxed and he eased toward her once again, keeping his hands to himself as his lips found hers. He kissed her again, deep and erotic, a kiss that went on and on until she found her hands clenching the fabric of his shirt. That was when he reached down to cup her breasts.
“Oh gods, yes,” she panted, trying her best to keep her voice low.
He said nothing, merely gave her a pained smile as he kneaded her breasts, then lowered his mouth to one. She gasped at the amazing sensations it aroused when he suckled on her breast, then moved to the other to do the same. Heavens, but this was fantastic. How had she not done this before?
“Please, oh please,” she whispered, shifting her head from side to side.
Finally, without lifting his mouth from her breast, he trailed one hand down her body until it reached the apex of her thighs. When a finger slid along her soaked crease, she couldn’t stop the cry that tore from her mouth.
“Shush,” he whispered. “You don’t wish to wake anyone.”
Nodding, she bit her lip. He grinned, then moved his mouth back to her breast, sucking and tugging on the nipple in a move that almost made her cry out again. And then his finger found its way to the entrance of her body, and he shoved it inside in one silky thrust. She gasped and arched backward, digging her heels into the mattress.
Oh, sweet heavens. She didn’t know it was possible to feel this way. To want so much. His finger in her body was the sweetest of tortures. She wanted more of it. No, more, period.
For the first time, she wondered what it would be like to take a man into her body. Oh, she knew the process. She’d seen the camays and other farm animals mating enough not to be ignorant of it. But she’d never truly wondered before. Now…
“Don’t stop,” she muttered, her voice guttural.
He groaned against her flesh, then withdrew his finger, only to replace it with two. They slowly worked into her soaked, satiny flesh, stretching her in the most delicious of ways. Spreading her thighs, she moved her hand to his, urging him to move. To go deeper. To do something.
“By severn,” he murmured, his fingers gliding in and out. “You are so very tight. Lifting his gaze, he looked at her. “Have you ever been with a man?”
Cindra stilled, staring at him for a long moment. “No.”
He groaned, his eyes shutting on a pained expression. “Gods, Cindra, it’s all I can do not to fuck you right here.”
When she tensed, fearful he’d do just that, he opened his eyes once again.
“I won’t, Cindra. Not only did I promise you, but it’s against the custom of our people. A mating can only be accomplished with all members of the pod present, once the mate has agreed to the ritual.”
All members present. Oh gods, just the thought of the other three men being here, touching her like this, made her thighs clench. “Please, don’t stop. Please…”
Something flashed in his eyes. “You want me to make you come.”
Taking a deep breath, she nodded. She didn’t know quite what that meant, but clearly he did. “Please. Make me come.”
Growling, he smashed his lips to hers, plundering her mouth while his fingers rammed back into her body with a force that made her cry into his mouth. He slid them out, only to thrust them back in, hard.
Oh yes, yes. Hell yes!
This was just what she needed.
When he forced a third finger inside, stretching her tight walls even further, she bucked against his hand, undulating her hips wildly while every muscle in her body constricted, squeezing the breath from her lungs. Her vision splintered, and suddenly she was soaring high, arching on a release like she’d never before experienced.
She breathed hard into his mouth, riding out the wave of ecstasy that buffeted her body, until finally she collapsed into the mattress, spent.
Bannor lifted his mouth from hers, raking her with his glittering gaze. His fingers still buried deep inside her, he smiled. “What do you think, Cindra? Can your farmer give you that?”
His words sparked the return of sanity. She stared at him with growing horror. Heavens, what was she doing? She was in her fiancée’s house, for goodness’ sake. He was good to her, as was his family. He loved her. And she’d allowed a virtual stranger to suckle her breasts, to bury his fingers inside her body.
“I…I can’t do this,” she choked out.
Bannor stilled, uttering a muffled curse. “Cindra, it’s not wrong to feel this way. We are meant to be—“
“No,” she cried out. “No, we aren’t. You’re just a stranger. I can’t.”
He started to say something else, but sudden footsteps sounded along the floorboards in the hallway. Stiffening, Cindra pushed up against Bannor’s chest.
“Someone’s coming,” she whispered. “You have to leave. Now!”
Bannor let out a curse, but he obeyed, sliding his fingers from her body and rising from the bed. She tried not to cry out at the feeling of abandonment she felt when he strode to the window and grabbed onto the thick branch of the beladora tree. Within an instant, he was gone.
Cindra hurriedly tugged her nightgown down over her body, then threw the sheet back over her. A second later, the door opened. Nadine, the household cook and maid who slept just down the hall, peered inside, her stringy white braid glimmering in the twilight.
“I heard you cry out, child,” she whispered. “Are you okay?”
“Just a bad dream, Nadine,” Cindra replied, feeling guilty for lying to the sweet old woman who’d been like a grandmother to her since she’d arrived. “Go back to bed.”
Nadine left and Cindra was once again alone.
What have I done?
She’d allowed one of the Spygians to take liberties with her body, to bring her to pleasure. And despite the fact that she knew she should, she couldn’t bring herself to truly regret it.
Worse, she couldn’t stop wondering what it’d be like to be with the rest of the Spygians.
Chapter Three
Devan glanced out the window of their rented second-story lodgings. It looked right out into the main square. Dust balls kicked across the field and passersby dodged to the left or right to avoid them.
“We’re in hell,” he muttered.
“Not hell,” Bannor replied, striding next to him and staring out the window as well. “Just a foreign land.”