“Why did you want to end your life?”
“The doctors said it was low self-esteem, a lack of direction and purpose. I guess that’s true. I was sad and unhappy and just … you know, drifting.”
“Why? Difficult childhood?”
A vein bulged and pulsed on one temple. It was several seconds before she said, “Yes. Difficult.”
“In what way?”
“I didn’t care about anything,” she said, not answering the question. “I just wanted to die. That’s what I thought then, anyway.”
“But now you think differently.”
“Yes, but it took a long time. I was still sick after they let me out of the hospital. Not so bad that I wanted to die anymore, but I had to go back again later for more therapy before I was finally cured.”
“Cured by the therapy?”
“That, and finding work I cared about, my purpose in life—helping people who are worse off, who need me. I found Jesus, too. He really helped a lot.” She looked up at the crucifix, smiled, and reached for another cookie.
Runyon said, “Do you mind if I ask you a personal question?”
“Well, I’ve been telling you personal things, haven’t I.”
“Are you close to your sisters?”
The cookie stopped moving a couple of inches from her mouth. “My sisters?”
“Francine in particular.”
“Why do you want to know that?” Tense all of a sudden, the hurt in her eyes magnified and joined by some other emotion that Runyon couldn’t quite identify. Fear, maybe.
“The reason I’m here,” he said. “Bryn Darby and her son.”
“I told you, I don’t know anyone named Bryn Darby.”
“Francine does. You know she’s engaged to be married?”
“… No, I didn’t know.”
“You’re not close, then. Don’t communicate often.”
“No. I haven’t seen her in…” She dammed up the rest of what she’d been about to say by shoving the entire cookie into her mouth. Ate it so fast, glancing up again at the crucifix, that crumbs dribbled out unchecked; she choked on one of the swallows and that started a spate of coughing. Her face was a mosaic of pink and dark red splotches.
Runyon watched her get the coughing under control, dab at her mouth with the napkin, then begin picking the crumbs off her lap one by one and depositing them on the plate. At length he asked, “Why don’t you get along with Francine, Ms. Whalen?”
“I don’t have to answer that.” Not looking at him, still picking crumbs.
“No, you don’t. So you don’t care that she’s engaged.”
“Why should I? She doesn’t care about me.”
“What about your other sister?”
“Tracy? Francine doesn’t care about her, either.”
“But you do?”
“Yes, but she lives in Southern California. We talk on the phone sometimes, but I haven’t seen her in … I don’t know, a long time.” Gwen Whalen’s head came up. “Why are you asking me all these questions? What do my sisters have to do with Bryn Darby and her son?”
Runyon said, “The man Francine is engaged to is Bryn’s ex-husband, Robert Darby. They live together in San Francisco.”
“Living together before marriage is a sin.”
“The boy lives with them—he’s nine years old. The father has custody.”
Her eyes rounded. “Nine?” she said.
“Francine takes care of him while the father works. The boy doesn’t like her. His mother thinks he’s afraid of her, that he has good reason to be.”
“Oh, my Lord!”
“Can you tell me why a little boy would be afraid of your sister?”
“No!” Neither a negative response nor a denial, but a cry of anguish. “No, no, no!”
“He has a fractured arm, bruises—”
“Don’t tell me; I don’t want to hear it!” She heaved to her feet, stood spraddle legged with her hands in front of her, palms outward, as if warding off an attack. Her gaze was back on the crucifix. “O Jesus, look down in mercy. Forgive our sins, forgive those who have sinned against us.”
“Francine hurt you and Tracy, didn’t she? When you were growing up.”
Violent headshake.
“Please tell me. I need to know.”
“Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour—”
“For the boy’s sake. To keep him from being hurt anymore.”
She backed up, still shaking her head. Stumbled against a corner of the couch and staggered off-balance—would have fallen if Runyon hadn’t come up fast out of his chair and caught her arm to steady her. There was a gathering hysteria in her face, the whites of her eyes showing. She wrenched free of him, cringing, as if his touch terrified her.