Buy Me, Sir(24)

"Beautiful," he says, pulling the camera away and focusing on my face.

My legs are shaky and my breaths come out shallow, but I keep Mr Henley's image close in my mind.

"The man who will take your virginity, Amy, tell me what else you would like him to do to you. Tell me what turns you on, Amy."

I know exactly what I need to do. "This," I say and let go of my  tingling pussy, trailing my hands up my stomach and over my tits, and  then I wrap my fingers around my throat and squeeze just a little,  pretending its him, pretending it's him watching me right now, and it  works, my clit is fluttery and the muscles in my belly are tight.

I stare at the camera, the glaring light. I can hear him breathing. Heavy breathing.

"Come for me," he says.

My own breaths are ragged. So hot. So scared as my trembling hands leave  my throat and I'm hitching my legs, my heels scrabbling against the  fabric of the chaise longue, but I don't care as I touch my aching clit.

Don't care as I rub like crazy.

Don't care as I hiss and my eyes burn at the camera.

Don't care as I feel myself losing control.

When I come it's a rush and a shudder, my thighs clenching around the  fingers on my clit. A little murmur that I stifle with my hand, and my  head lolls back, waves of white rolling through me.

And then it stops.

It all stops.

A shivery rush as I realise I'm naked, naked and exposed, and that my stupid heels are digging into Claude's posh furniture.

"I'm so sorry," I whimper as I scrabble to change position. "My heels! I should've been more careful …  I'm so sorry … "

But Claude doesn't seem to care. He doesn't say a word as I look up at  him with wide eyes, and then I hear the click as he turns the camera  off.

He adjusts his trousers, and suddenly I feel sick.

"Can I get dressed now?" I'm already yanking up my knickers as I ask him.

He hands me my bra, and tosses me my dress from behind him.

I get dressed as quickly as I can, and then I sit, my knees tight together as I wait for his verdict.

He stares at the camera screen as I stare at him, nodding his head with a smirk.

"Very good," he says.

My hands are twitchy, I have to clasp them in my lap. "What happens now?"

"We work out the fine print," he says.



Alexander



Once I've shot my load over my faceless cleaner I can't fucking stop.

A day of shitty client meetings with a constant fucking semi, and not  even my stint in the soup kitchen can ease the fucking cravings.

I watch porn until I my eyes are bleary, trying to come over any fucking  thing other than the thought of choking her in her uniform, but it  doesn't work. Nothing fucking works. My cock is sore and aching from my  constant jerking, and yet nothing will tip me over the fucking edge.

In desperation I try a different search, one that makes my gut lurch.

Gay bareback rough.

Christ, what have I fucking become?

I'm minutes away from accepting defeat and checking out Claude's  listings just to regain some fucking sanity when the guy on screen takes  a big fat cock in dry, his face a grimace as it ploughs all the way to  the balls.

And I come.

Thank fuck, I fucking come.

I'm a wreck. My thighs tense and straining, my temples pounding as I gather my breath.

This has to stop.

I've got to stop.

I take as hot a shower as I can stand, scrubbing myself down as though body wash has any chance of cleaning away my own disgust.

I browse my regular dealers for current listings of rare gemstones, and spend twenty-five grand without even thinking about it.

I take Brutus out after midnight and barely notice the rain.

I smoke three cigarettes this evening instead of one.

And then, when I finally slip between my perfectly folded back sheets, I find I'm fucking hard again.

I tell myself it's just one more time. Just once more that I'll allow  myself to jerk off over that poor little oblivious cleaner. But I've  come twice more already by the time I finally get some fucking sleep.



Melissa



I try to remember everything as I prepare to tell Dean what happened with Claude.         

     



 

It's late by the time we have a coffee and I've checked in on Joe. He's  fast asleep, none the wiser of my crazy mission, thank God.

Sweet dreams, little one.

I kiss his head before I head out to face the music.

Dean looks terrible, pacing around the living room with his hands behind his head.

"I'm fine," I tell him. "Seriously, Dean, I'm fine."

"For now," he says.

I feel better for meeting Claude, as weird as that sounds. He didn't  seem to think I'd be walking into a snuff movie, and if that's really  what he has planned for me then he's a damn good liar.

Before I left he presented me with a ream of paperwork that made the NDA  I signed before cleaning Mr Henley's house look like a love note. Why  would he bother if I wasn't going to make it out of there?

I glanced over it at best, then signed Amy's name at the bottom. What  does it really matter what it said? It'll either be Mr Henley that wins  me or it won't. An epic win or an epic lose.

At least the twenty grand in Joe's trust fund will go some way to softening the blow.

That's how much I'm getting. Twenty grand for one night.

Claude asked me what my expectations were, said he could offer me a  figure right there and then if I didn't want to risk losing out at  auction.

I accepted his first suggestion, before he changed his mind. I've never  seen anything like twenty grand, I've no idea what that kind of cash  would even look like.

But I'll find out.

He says the client will pay me in the hotel room, assures me they will be good for it.

There are rules, of course.

I'm not to count it until I've left. I'm not to talk about money. I'm  not to swap any personal details with the client whatsoever.

When the successful bid has been accepted I'll be notified of the  appointment. I'll be sent the venue details, and I'll be booked into a  hotel room for the evening.

My buyer will decide how they want me dressed and an outfit will be waiting for me in the hotel room wardrobe.

I'm to be shaved as per the client's preference. I'm to wear makeup in line with the client's preference.

I'm to do everything in line with the client's preference.

In the interim I'll have to undergo a medical at a private Harley Street  clinic, and although it usually takes a few months for a satisfactory  screening, Claude says mine will be cleared in days, what with me being a  virgin and all. My bloods should be whistle clean, he said.

Dean listens as I tell him all this, shaking his head all the while.

The only details I leave out are the buyer options Claude wanted me to agree to.

A boob job and a labiaplasty should the client require it, at their  expense. Apparently there will be a bonus expenses payment for that. A  bonus payment should I leave the appointment with any marks which last  longer than a fortnight, too.

I said I'll have to get back to him on the whole boob-labia stuff. I'm  really not sure I want to undergo surgery for this craziness. I mean  there's Joe to consider …  and work …  my actual work …

What if it isn't Mr Henley who wins the auction, and I have to leave my  job for the sake of surgery that some other man thinks I need. I mean  there's the money …  but …  I can't bear the thought of walking away from Mr  Henley's house …

I daren't even think about that, so I don't, just assure Dean again that  this is all going to be fine and I'm cool with everything, really cool  with everything.

"You're fucking crazy," he snaps. "This is all fucking crazy."

I can't really argue with that, so I don't.

My auction will happen in just under a week, all being well. A Friday  evening to leave the weekend clear. That's standard practice, Claude  says.

Until then I'll wait.

Wait and dream.





Chapter Sixteen





Alexander



It's great to see my boys on Sunday afternoon. They're wearing the new  shirts I sent them, full of smiles at the prospect we can share this new  football craze of theirs.

I play along, pretending to the best of my abilities that I'm as excited  as they are by the upcoming fixtures, and it leaves me with no  uncertainty that they're changing. Rugby is old news, and no matter how  much I try to fight it, it's only a matter of time before I become old  news too.

Football, and Hampshire, their cool older step-brother and new younger sibling on the way.

And Terry. Cool dad Terry.

This is their life now, and I'm …  well, I'm still the same old workaholic they knew in London.

I'm pained as I make the drive back to the city, as though the final  shreds of my soul are bleeding out through the cracks. It's been a long  time coming.         

     



 

My fingers feel dirty as they grip the steering wheel. The kind of grime no antibacterial gel can scrub away.

I've spent my entire adult life pulling the strings of those around me, as my father did. Still does.

Clients, judges, juries, boys' club fraternity members. The women I pay to serve me. The women I don't.

The people whose fate rests in these filthy hands and what I choose to do with them.

People may despise me for the outcomes I manipulate in order to fulfil my legal duty, but they respect my ability to deliver.