Broken:Flirt New Adult Romance(23)

I lose track of how long we sit there in silence, with only the crackle  of the fire and the occasional rattle of her ice cubes breaking up the  quiet. Both of us know without talking that she's not here as a  caregiver. She's here as . . . what? A friend? Something more?

No, not more. When I walked into that bar, she was happy to see me. But  not in the way a woman hot for a man would be. She looked like she was  fucking proud of me, for God's sake. Worst of all, her expression when I  came to her rescue wasn't relief. It was worry.

Olivia Middleton cares for me, of that I am certain. She doesn't want me  to get hurt, and more than that, she wants me to heal. But she doesn't  care about me for me, for who I am. And for reasons I can't bear to  explore, that hurts more than my leg and bloody nose combined.

I don't open my eyes when I hear the rustle of her standing up, nor when  I hear the door close quietly behind her. Apparently her patience for  sitting with a pathetic invalid has its limits.         

     



 

I take a large swallow of Scotch and tell myself I don't give a shit. I  tell myself that I want to be alone and that I need to get used to being  alone. Although I'm half terrified that if she leaves-when she  leaves-being alone will no longer be a respite. It'll simply be lonely.

Five minutes later the door opens again. I don't look at her as she approaches. I don't want her to read the relief there.

Olivia doesn't reclaim her spot on her chair. This time she settles on  the arm of my chair, her small, perfect ass just inches from my arm. I  tense. What the hell is she up to?

It finally registers that she hasn't come back in empty-handed. She  takes my drink from my hand and sets it on the table. I let her.

My eyes watch her hands as they dunk a clean white washcloth into a bowl  of steaming water. I watch her long fingers wring it out. I'm bracing  myself for what's to come, even as I long for it.

Neither of us meets the other's eyes as she slowly reaches out a hand,

She hesitates an inch away from my face before softly, carefully setting  the warm washcloth against my skin. I let my eyes close once more.

She wipes gently at the cut before dipping the cloth back into the bowl. The process repeats. Dunk. Wring. Hesitate. Touch.

I don't miss the fact that she's careful not to touch my scars. I don't blame her.

Finally she drops the cloth back into the bowl, although she doesn't  move off my chair. "I don't think your nose is broken," she says,  finally ending our silence. "But I'll get you some ice."

She shifts her weight as if to get up, and I'm shocked to feel myself  reach out with a quick, desperate touch to her leg. Stay. She stays.

The relief I feel at her continued presence doesn't prepare me for what happens next.

She touches me. Not with the cloth, but with warm, gentle fingers. It's  harmless at first. Just a soft stroke along my hairline. She traces my  eyebrow. My cheekbone. She cups my jaw, and I let my cheek turn toward  the warmth of her hand. It's been so long since someone's touched me. As  long as she stays on the left side of my face-my good side-I'd let her  touch me forever.

But she doesn't stay on the left side. My heart stops when I feel her other hand touch my right temple.

I try to jerk away, but now she's cupping my face. Don't, I silently beg her.

She does.

I suck in a breath as she tenderly, reverently runs one gentle finger over the top of my right cheekbone. Then lower.

She's touching my scars. And I'm letting her.

The three lines running down my face have always reminded me of a  wolverine slash. As though some clawed animal swiped at my face instead  of a cruel Afghani with a blade and an agenda. She traces each one  gently, thoughtfully, as though she can heal them with her touch.

The touches finally stop, and I feel the loss acutely as her hands drop  away from her face. I feel it even more when she stands, starting to  gather the bowl of bloodied water.

"I'll get you that ice."

I touch her again, this time on the wrist, like before silently begging  her to stay, but this time she gently pulls away, and I let her go.

I get up and walk to the fire, staring quietly into the flames, lost in thoughts of Olivia and the danger she represents.

This time, when she comes back, I'm ready for her.

She stands before me, offering the ice pack. When I ignore it she frowns  a little, as though I'm a petulant child disobeying his nanny's  instructions.

Fuck that. I knock the ice pack out of her hand, and before it even hits  the ground, one hand finds the back of her waist, pulling her gently  but firmly toward me. The other hand slides gently beneath her hair,  settling against the smooth skin of her the back of her neck.

I've told myself over and over that I won't kiss her again. That she'll kiss me.

But I'm not above luring her in. I want her. I want her so badly it hurts.

My eyes meet hers, watching as her shock fades to desire. She wants me too.

I purposely move my gaze to her mouth. Kiss me, I silently beg. And then I say it out loud. "Kiss me, Olivia."

She shakes her head once.

"Please," I whisper. I don't care if I'm begging. I don't care if she kisses me out of pity. I need her.

Her eyes go dark, and I brace myself for her to pull away.

Instead she moves closer until we're chest to chest, her eyes level with  my chin. My arm goes more firmly around her back, my other hand toying  with the soft hair at the base of her neck.

Her hands move to my hips, and my heart beats harder.

Slowly, slowly, she lifts her head, her eyes moving from my chin to my mouth.

I can't wait any longer. I dip my head, tilting it to the right just  slightly as I press my lips to hers, just briefly. Then again, longer  this time.         

     



 

When I move in the third time, her mouth collides with mine.

The kiss is hot and hungry, somehow managing to be slow and frantic at  the same time. At my hips, her hands pull at the fabric of my T-shirt,  holding me closer, and my arm is all the way around her now as my other  hand presses at the back of her neck, keeping her lips fused to mine.

I dip my knees just slightly, bending to her height, wanting to get  closer, but it's not close enough. My tongue seeks and finds hers, shy  at first, then bolder as the kiss becomes explosive.

My palms are itching to roam. I want to touch her everywhere. I want her  naked by the fire. But for now, I let this be enough. It has to be  enough.

Finally she pulls back, and I let her. Her breathing is low and raspy,  her chest rising and falling as though she can't catch her breath.

I sure as hell know I can't catch mine. She makes me forget to breathe. She makes me forget everything.

"That was . . ." She breaks off.

I silently fill in the blanks for her. Stupid. Irresponsible. Crazy.

Amazing.

She says none of those things, instead shaking her head as if to clear it.

"I've got to go," she says, her hands abruptly leaving my waist as though she can't bear to touch me.

I release her instantly, even though I ache to pull her back, just to hold her.

She starts to turn away, but first bends down to get the ice pack. The  hand holding the ice moves toward my face; she pauses a moment and  starts to pull her hand back, but then she frowns and decisively but  gently places the ice against my nose.

"Ice that for thirty minutes," she says, her voice soft and bossy at the same time.

"Will do," I say gruffly. "Wouldn't want a swollen nose to mar my otherwise perfect features."

"No," she says, giving me a little smile. "We wouldn't want that."

She turns away, and I stand like a fool, holding an ice pack to the center of my face as I watch her walk away from me.

"Olivia," I say, the word out of my mouth before I can even register what it is I want to say.

She stops. Turns back.

Fuck. Double fuck.

I have no idea what I want to say to her. Actually, a part of me does  know, which makes it even more imperative that I say nothing. This kiss  needs to be a fluke. For both our sakes.

"Yeah?" she asks, the word just slightly impatient as I stand there staring at her.

Keep it light, fool. Let her know this was nothing.

"I'll see you tomorrow?" I say.

Idiot.

She rolls her eyes. "Yup."

"Five a.m.? By the trail?"

"Same as every other day, except when you're having a tantrum."

"Cute," I mutter. "And hey-"

"Yes, Paul?" she says in her impatient schoolteacher voice.

"What did you think of Kali?"

Bam. There goes her smile. And the confidence. I hate myself for relishing her discomfort.

"She's great," Olivia chirps. "Super cute. Very sweet."

"Very," I say, my tone thoughtful. "Well, good night."

I turn back toward the fire to hide my smile at her disgruntled huff.





CHAPTER NINETEEN

Olivia


I kissed Paul. I kissed Paul, I kissed Paul, I kissed Paul.

It wasn't the first time, of course. But this time was different. The  first two times, he'd initiated with the intent to drive me away.

But this time it was softer. Hotter. And infinitely more dangerous to both of us.

See, the worst part isn't even that I kissed the guy I'm supposed to be  caring for. The worst part is that I want to kiss Paul again. And again .  . .