I froze on my bed, as I watched Kyle slip a hand inside his jeans and uh…rearrange himself.
“You piece of shit, you promised me. Your goddamn loyalties should lie with me,” Rachel screamed. Her hand lashed out and she struck Kyle in the face, hard. “You owe me Kyle after what you…”
“Don’t fucking go there Rachel, not here,” he warned, rubbing his cheek as he looked over at me. I scrambled to my feet, getting ready to run.
Rachel’s attention turned to me and her eyes tightened. “Her Kyle, really? I’ve tolerated everyone else because you promised. But her? You’re different with her, why? You said it yourself, she is a fucking hillbilly hick. Why is she different from a thousand others?” Uh, no, I wasn’t staying here listening to this, I was out of here.
I tried to scoot past, but Kyle grabbed my shoulders and pushed me down on the bed. “Sit down princess, this is your room,” he said almost desperately before turning to Rachel. “If you want to keep your shit to yourself then get the fuck out of here now, because I’m just about ready to lay it all out there Rachel.”
Her eyes widened in disbelief. She screamed and actually stomped her foot. “Fine.”
Rachel stalked out, stopping at the door. “You think you’re so special now hick,” she hissed at me. “But I wouldn’t get too comfortable if I were you. You are always going to be second best. He’s mine. He is always going to be mine bitch.”
She slammed the door out and Kyle cursed loudly. He crouched down in front of me. “Princess…” He whispered, reaching out a hand to touch my face.
“Don’t touch me.” I leapt away from him and ran out into the hallway, down the stairs.
I heard him call my name, but I couldn’t look at him right now. I needed him to back off and give me space.
The kitchen was empty when I burst in. The party had cleared out. Thank god for small mercies. I leaned over the sink, striving to compose myself.
“What you heard back there, it’s not what you think.”
“Go away Kyle. I don’t need any explanations. Go back to your girlfriend.” Tears flowed freely down my cheeks as I turned to face him. “And whoever else you’re fucking.”
I watched Kyle drag his hand through his hair and he hissed loudly. “She’s not my… It’s complicated.” He groaned in frustration.
“I bet it is Kyle, it must be complicated trying to decide which woman to fuck, but maybe not so hard for you since I’m such a fucking hillbilly hick.”
He strode towards me, pressing me against the sink. “Watch your language,” he warned. “Don’t say that about yourself.”
I clenched my fists at my sides. “That’s what you see me as though, isn’t it?” I spat. “You used me Kyle, like a cheap whore. You led me on.”
He flinched, his eyes narrowed. “Well, if you weren’t so fucking easy we wouldn’t be here. I tried to keep this from going any further. I warned you, but you kept fucking throwing yourself at me,” he spat. “You’re a fucking tease Lee…”
My blood ran cold and my hand swung out before he could finish what he was saying, connecting with his face. “You bastard,” I screamed, tears flowing freely from my eyes.
Kyle’s expression was one of pure rage. He grabbed my wrist, squeezing it painfully tight. “Don’t.Ever.Fucking.Hit.Me.Again,” he roared into my face and I cowered.
My breath came in fast pants and my heart was palpitating. I was terrified.
We stood frozen like that as Cam burst into the room with Derek following behind. “What the hell is going on?” Cam shrieked and my attention turned to her. Her face looked shocked as she took in the situation.
“Kyle man, let go of her,” I heard Derek say. Kyle had my wrist gripped in his hand and I was whimpering in his grasp. I couldn’t feel the pain now. This was bad. My anxiety turned into a full-blown panic attack.
Derek grabbed Kyle’s arm and jerked him away. He seemed to notice he was still holding my wrist and gasped, releasing me quicker than lightening. I sank to the floor, shaking, crying fitfully. I couldn’t breathe. I hugged my knees and rocked, urging the painful images of my past to leave, but the voices of my past wouldn’t leave.
“You’re a little whore. That’s all you’ll ever be.”
“I should have drowned you in a barrel when I brought you home from the hospital.”
“You’re a little cock tease aren’t you?”
“It’s your fault she’s dead. You killed your own mother.”
“You want to defy me? Go out with boys like a little slut? Let’s see what boys look at you now.”