Bound By Marriage(25)

Time passed and she managed to avoid him till almost the end, when she  found herself drifting to stand in front of a piece bearing a Not for  Sale sign. It was a meticulously detailed painting of Randall Station,  one of the few landscapes on show.

"Home," Gabe said from behind her, reading the title. "But home is somewhere else now, isn't it?"

"No. Home is a place of safety, where people don't automatically assume the worst about you."

He touched her shoulder in an uncharacteristically soft caress. "Would it help if I said sorry?"

Startled at the idea of him apologizing, she told the absolute truth. "I'm not sure."

"First, I get that call as I'm about to take off for Auckland, then I  walk in and see you dressed as if you're waiting for a lover." His hand  stroked down her spine to rest on the curve of her hip. "I may have  jumped to conclusions."

"May?" she asked, struck by something else he'd said. "You were coming  up here before Kayla called? I thought you were too busy."

"I made time."

A stubborn tendril of hope pushed its way through the hurt. Then Richard  was suddenly beside her, wanting her to come say goodbye to several  patrons. As a result, the next time she and Gabriel had any real privacy  was when they stepped through the doors of the hotel elevator and began  walking toward her room.

Her eyes resting on his face, she said, "I can't think what Kayla must  be-" She came to a complete halt at her husband's muttered curse.  "What's the matter?"

She followed his gaze.

Her stomach curdled. Anything good that might have come about as a  result of Gabe's unexpected apology had just gone out the window.  Striding down the plush carpet, she faced the man slumped outside her  door. "What are you doing here?"

Damon stood. "I wanted to talk to you face to face."

"I said what I had to say on the phone." Sickeningly aware of another  couple walking out of the elevator, she tried to keep her voice low. It  was hard-frustration and anger were exploding bullets inside of her. "I  told you to go home to your wife." She slid her keycard into the lock  and stepped inside.

Gabe hadn't said a word to that point, but he now put his arm on the  opposing doorjamb, turning his body into a very effective barricade. "I  think Jess has made herself very clear."                       
       
           



       

She placed a hand on his back. "Go, Damon. Whatever we had, it's not  there anymore. I don't know that it was ever strong enough to last." The  time for gentleness had passed.

Rebellion spread across Damon's handsome face. "You're seriously  choosing him over me? Jesus, Jess! Everyone knows you married him for  his money."

"You know nothing about my marriage," she snapped, then tempered her  voice at the open hurt on Damon's face. "Don't destroy our friendship  like this. Please leave."

"So he can do to you what his father used to do to his mother?" Damon's  shouted question attracted the attention of a maid coming along the  corridor. The petite woman hurriedly wheeled her cart in the opposite  direction.

"What?" Jess frowned, aware that Gabe had gone preternaturally silent. The hairs on the back of her neck prickled in warning.

"My mother used to work at Angel before the fire. She knows all their  dirty little secrets!" He reached out as if to grab her from under  Gabriel's arm. "I'm not leaving you here with a bastard who's going to  put bruises on you!"

Gabe's fist slammed into Damon's jaw. The blow sent him to the floor.  Crying out, Jess put herself in front of Gabe, her hands on his chest.  "Don't, Gabe."

Hostility blazed in the green of his eyes and the dark red flush over  his cheekbones. There was no question in her mind that Damon was sorely  overmatched.

In all honesty, she wasn't so sure she could handle Gabe either. But she was his wife. "Please."

He finally brought his hands to rest on the flare of her waist. Relief whispered through her.

Damon picked that moment to yell, "I'm not leaving till you tell me you don't love me!"

Jess felt everything in her stop. Her eyes met Gabe's. His hands dropped  away and she swiveled to face Damon with a sense of destiny having  caught up with her. The younger man struggled to his feet, rubbing his  jaw and looking at her in a way she would have given everything for  once. But that was then.

She blinked back tears. "I don't love you."

"You're lying."

"No, Damon." Shaking her head, she tried to make him see the truth in her eyes.

"I'm not. I don't know if I ever loved you." She'd clung to him after  losing her mother, her father and then her home itself. He'd been the  last remaining part of her childhood.

His shoulders were so tight it had to hurt, but the anger seemed to be  giving way to grudging acceptance. "You might not love me, but you sure  as hell don't love him either. Do you?"

Her spine went stiff. "That's between me and Gabe. You don't have the right to ask me those questions."

"Jess?" Sheer disbelief.

"Go home, Damon. For God's sake, go home before you lose Kayla, too." As  he'd just lost her friendship. How could she continue to respect a man  who'd ignored everything she'd tried to tell him.

As realization dawned across his face she wanted to look away. He didn't give her the chance, striding past her in silence.

Sad for what had become of the wild but never cruel boy she'd known, she  turned and walked into the room. It felt as if she'd severed the last  safety rope tying her to the past. The future stretched out ahead. And  it held only one certainty.

She was in love with Gabriel Dumont.

It had taken her far too long to recognize the feeling, blinded as she'd  been by girlish daydreams of what love should be. She'd seen in Damon  what she'd wanted to see, putting him on a romantic pedestal and  spinning perfection out of fantasy.

Gabriel wasn't perfect, far from it. He could be so harshly distant and  to expect tenderness from him would be to set herself up for  disappointment. But still she'd fallen for him. Because while he might  not be perfect, he was a man who'd stand by her through the tides, a man  who'd respect his vows and his promises.

He was also a man, no matter what he said, who had the potential to both  feel, and give, the deepest, most rare kind of love. The kind that came  from the soul and left devastation behind when it was stolen away.  She'd found her evidence in an acorn, a bunch of wild daisies and a  smooth river-stone.

She wasn't so naive as to think he loved her, but Gabe could love, and  love as women dreamed of being loved. If only he'd unlock that  potential … but no, her husband was determined to dam up his emotions  behind a barricade so thick, she was starting to lose hope of ever  penetrating it.

The door closed with a click.

Giving a small start, she moved to stand in front of the uncurtained window.                       
       
           



       

"I'm sorry about that." Gabriel was a proud man, one who wouldn't have  appreciated passersby being privy to his private business.

"I think you broke his heart."

She couldn't tell if he was being sarcastic. "He'll recover. He always  does." In many ways, her childhood friend was still that-a child. It was  why she'd found it so difficult to break from him. Because so long as  Damon was in her life, she could pretend that nothing had changed, when  the truth was … everything had. "And if he has any sense, he'll try to  make his marriage work."

"Hard words." His hands closed over her shoulders.

"What do you want, Gabe?" Placing her palms against the glass, she  stared out at the glittering city lights. "I admitted I don't love him.  Isn't that enough?"

He massaged away her tension with fingers grown strong from a lifetime of physical work. "I'd never touch you in violence."

Jolted by the unexpected reference to Damon's accusation, she tried to  meet his reflected gaze, but he was hidden in shadow. "What did he mean  about your parents?"

"My father loved my mother," he said, his tone holding nothing of happiness.

"Loved her so much he wanted her to be completely his. Even if he had to lock her in the basement to achieve that."

She put a hand over his, wanting to cry. Because she knew he never  would. "Did he hurt you and your brothers and sister as well?"

"Angelica was too young," was his oblique answer. "He should've never tried to lay a finger on her."

"You were all too young."

"I don't talk about the past. It's dead and buried."

"But it has a way of rising up as we saw today," she said quietly,  conscious that she couldn't force him to speak. "I'm your wife. Treat me  like that matters."