Bought for Revenge(10)

Nothing, save be the daughter of a man I am sworn to destroy.

Lucas could not tell her as much, especially now he had decided her affection would prove a better weapon than her disgust.

'Perhaps you were fatigued,' she offered helpfully. 'That can make one irritable.'

By heaven, she was even giving him his excuses! Looking into her eyes,  he saw a faint, shy smile lurking there and he was obliged to squash a  slight prickle of unease at making use of her in this way.

'Yes, that was it.'

They were approaching the wooden bridge. Lucas could now see just how  poor a state of repair it was in. The side rails had broken away and the  boards looked grey and rotten. He stepped on to the bridge and tested  one of the boards with his foot. It crumbled beneath his weight. He  exhaled impatiently.

'Sheer foolishness to leave it in this state. If it is so dangerous, it should have been rebuilt or removed.'

'It should, of course, but no one ever came here to use it.'

'You came.'

'Not for years. Not since … ' She looked about her, and Lucas had the  impression she had withdrawn from him. It lasted only a moment, then she  shook off her reverie and said in a robust tone, 'If you are going to  reinstate the lakeside drive, then a stone bridge would look very well  here.'

He replied absently, 'Yes, I have always thought so.'

She laughed. 'Now I know you are teasing me, Mr Monserrat. You have but this minute seen this place.'

He recovered quickly. 'But I have studied the plans, and this point faces due west, into the sunset.'

Come, Lucas, let us go down to the lake and watch the sunset from the bridge.

'Are you mentally landscaping the lake, sir? Perhaps you want to return  it to its former glory. I am afraid that is not something I can help you  with, since I have only seen it as a wilderness.'

It took Lucas some time to realise she was talking to him. 'I beg your pardon, I was … dreaming.'

She waved aside his apology. 'It is your home now, sir. Of course you want to take it all in.'

He looked across to the boathouse. 'I wonder if the boats are still there.'

'No. My brother and I looked in once. Papa said he had them broken up  because they were unsafe. But the oars were on the walls then and there  were some old fishing rods upstairs … '

'There were?' His eager response caught her attention and he was quick  to explain. 'I mean, I am surprised that they should have been left  there, that no one would have taken them away.'

'From what I understand Mr Blackstone was very severe with trespassers  and the local people learned to stay away from his land. After he died  they said he had left a curse over it.'

'More ghosts, Miss Havenham?'

She gave a little shrug and a smile. He tested the bridge again.

'What are you doing?'

'The thick timbers spanning the inlet appear to be strong enough. I am  going to have a look in the boathouse.' He looked back to find her  watching him, a wistful look in her eyes. 'Will you come with me?'

'The water is not deep here. I suppose the worst that can happen is we would get a ducking.'

'Come along, then.' He held out his hand. 'Keep your weight over the main beams … that's it.'

Her fingers clung to his as she carefully followed him across the  bridge. He wanted to tease her, to say something about having to trust  him, but he did not want her to withdraw again. She was clearly aware of  their situation, for she kept her eyes lowered and a delicate flush  painted her cheeks. As soon as they reached the far bank she disengaged  her hand and began to stride ahead of him.

The boathouse was built out over the lake on the southern side of the  bridge. The waterside opening yawned black as they approached, but when  they drew closer they could see the water lapping gently against the  stone walkways inside. The sturdy walls of the building were intact and a  set of stone steps ran up the outside to the upper floor.                       
       
           



       

The wooden door to the lower part of the building had long since parted  from its hinges and lay almost hidden in the long grass. The double  glass doors in the gable end over the boathouse entrance had fared  better and were still in place.

'I suppose that is where they would have fished from,' remarked Belle,  gazing up. 'The iron railings across the opening would have prevented  anyone from falling into the lake.'

She put her foot on the first of the stone steps, but Lucas caught her arm.

'No, let me go first. It may be dangerous.'

She followed him. There was no handrail, but the steps were wide and  caused her no problem. The old wooden door at the top of the steps was  swollen and Lucas had to put his shoulder to it to push it open. He  moved inside, carefully testing the boards as he went.

'The floor here is in better condition than the bridge,' he remarked.

'The roof is still intact. That has protected it.' Belle followed him  into the room. 'I haven't been here since Edwin was alive. It must be  ten years and it is just as we left it.'

Belle looked around, remembering her excitement when they had found this  miniature house with its little table and chairs, the wall sconces on  the wall still bearing half-burned candles although their brass  reflectors were pitted and dull with age. Now she could imagine the  gentlemen-and perhaps ladies too-sitting at their ease on the chairs by  the open doors, fishing rods draped out over the railings.

'You discovered this place all those years ago, but never came back?'

'I gave Papa my word,' she said simply.

'I do not think that would have prevented me.'

'Then you have a more rebellious spirit than I,' she replied, smiling.  'Papa is a loving parent who rarely demands my obedience. When he does I  am happy to give it.'

'My parents died when I was ten years old.'

'I am so sorry.'

Impulsively she put her hand on his arm and squeezed it. It was a  friendly gesture, but too intimate for their fragile acquaintance.  Blushing, she drew back. Looking for distraction, she turned to the  fishing rods fixed to the wall. They rested on their hooks as if they  had been placed ready for another day's fishing, which had never come.  Now they were grey with age and dust. One rod was much smaller than the  rest and she pointed to it.

'That must be for a child.'

'Yes.' He took it down and weighed it between his hands. He looked  towards the glass doors. 'Father and son, enjoying a rare moment of  peace together, fishing.'

Belle smiled at the image. 'Is that how you see it, sir?'

'Oh, yes. They would sit here in companionable silence … '

You and your father should spend more time together, Lucas, so I will  not come with you. But be sure to bring me back a fish for my dinner!

'I do not think my father ever enjoyed the sport. He certainly never  took my brother fishing. Edwin liked that little rod. He was going to  take it home and put a new line on it.'

Lucas pushed aside the memories that were crowding him and carefully put the rod back in its place on the wall.

'So why didn't he take it?'

'I said we should ask Papa before we disturbed anything here.' Belle  shivered and went back to the door. 'We should go. Clegg will be growing  anxious.'

'And did your father object to your brother taking the rod?' he asked the question as he followed her down the steps.

'No.'

'Then why is it still there? Belle?' she began to hurry away from him,  but he ran to catch up with her. He saw the tear on her cheek before she  dashed it away. He said gently, 'What happened?'

She stopped. 'We were caught in a heavy shower of rain that day, on the  way home. Edwin became ill. Inflammation of the lungs. He never  recovered.'

'I see. How old was he?'

'Just eleven years old.'

He watched as she looked into the past, such desolation about her that  he wanted to reach out and pull her into his arms, but that was  impossible. He of all people could not give her sympathy.

'I am very sorry,' he said at last.

'It was such a time ago, but I still feel his loss, greatly.'

'I know. The pain never goes away.'

'I am sorry,' she said. 'About your parents.' She stood for a moment,  looking out over the water. Then with a sigh she tucked her arm in his.  'We have become very maudlin, Mr Monserrat. Let us move on now. There is  still a great deal to see, including the hermitage.'

He recognised her attempt to distract him and responded in kind. 'A  hermitage? That is something I did not know about. That will put me in  the very kick of fashion!'                       
       
           



       

She chuckled. 'Unfortunately, it is not a grotto but a natural formation  of the rocks, but Edwin and I thought it would be the perfect habitat  for a hermit.'

'Then take me to it, Miss Havenham!'

He helped her back across the bridge and this time she did not pull her  hand away, but allowed him to draw it onto his arm as they strolled back  to where Clegg was waiting with the horses.

'Let me help you to mount.'

Belle met his eyes for a fleeting moment, remembering the first time he  had thrown her into the saddle. Did he recall it, too? How differently  she had felt then. It would not be wise to mention it in front of Clegg,  however. He was already looking disapproving about her being alone and  out of sight with Lucas for so long, and if he knew of that first  encounter he would most likely deliver a long homily upon the  consequences of a young lady's venturing forth without her groom. So she  allowed Lucas to assist her and tried to look unconcerned while a storm  of conflicting thoughts and feelings raged inside her. His touch, his  nearness, both frightened and excited her. Instinct told her to beware  this man, yet some power beyond her control drew her to him. He seemed  to understand her love for this place and she wanted to share with him  her memories, the happy days she had enjoyed running free in the woods  and glades. She tried to explain it as they rode away from the lake.