It takes a moment for the implications of what Carla is saying to hit me. "Debra?" I ask incredulously, my jaw dropping open, "a Submissive?" Never in a million years would I think Debra would have a submissive bone in her entire body. She's just … too powerful for that.
Carla makes a face. "I'm not saying that she is. I'm just saying, would you have thought I was a Submissive without me revealing it to you?"
I shake my head.
"Okay then. Just remember the NDA you signed." She motions me over to an empty table to the side of the clothing rack. "Come help me sort through this mess right quick and then let's get lunch."
We spend the next half hour categorizing fashion designs and matching model profiles to the outfits they'll be wearing for Debra's upcoming fashion show. Carla is making quick work of the task, but I'm finding it hard to do even the simplest thing, tired and my mind filled with anxiety. When I screw up and pin a model's profile on the wrong outfit, Carla places a hand atop mine, her expression concerned.
"What's on your mind, Dah?" she asks.
Do you even have to ask?
"I just wish there was a way that we could find out more about … " I say, my voice trailing off. I don't know why I'm bothering. Carla has already said she doesn't know anything about Lucian. She can't conjure information about him out of thin air just because I want her to. I'm probably just worrying myself to death over nothing.
Carla shakes her head, her eyes filled with sympathy. She must think my worry is getting tiresome, but I can't help it. This is my first time doing something like this, and no matter how hard I try to relax, I remain on edge. "I don't think so, the club's rules … " her voice trails off as her face crinkles into a thoughtful expression. "I know!" she says suddenly, her face brightening, snapping her fingers. "We can look him up on the net!"
Oh my God, I'm so stupid. That's actually a genius idea. Why the hell didn't I think of that? I've spent all this time worrying when a simple Google search could have turned up dirt … if there is any.
Probably because all I've been thinking about is being fucked by him, I think to myself.
"Let's cyberstalk him," Carla says, slinging a black slinky dress over the rack and throwing the model profile she's holding down on a table.
Uneasiness touches my chest.
"You're not going to be able to work unless you find out more about Lucian to put your mind at ease. So let's get it over with. You only have a few hours before you meet up with him, and you don't want to go into your first encounter terrified, trust me." She begins making her way over to the nearest desk, and I hastily slip the white dress I'm holding onto a hanger and place it on the rack. "What about all this?" I gesture.
"It'll still be here when we're done. C'mon. It'll only take a few minutes."
"You think Debra will care that we're doing this on a company computer?"
Carla practically rolls her eyes as she says, "Girl, you don't even wanna know what I've searched on company time."
Fuck it. My need to find out more about Lucian overrides my caution of breaking the rules. "Let's do it."
She grabs a chair and slides it across the floor to sit next to me as I tap on the space bar to bring the screen to life. I take control of the mouse, and within a few clicks, pull up the Chrome browser.
The blank Google search bar sits in front of me, the cursor blinking.
"You ready?" Carla whispers, placing a comforting hand on my thigh and gently rubbing it.
I'm ready for anything that says this man isn't a sociopath, I think to myself.
Gulping, I nod, and my fingers fly across the keys. Lucian Stone. I stare at his name in the search bar, anxiety filling me. What will this search reveal? I wonder. Hopefully nothing. Back in front of Madam Lynn, he definitely didn't look like a bad man with his dashing good looks, but my opinion on that will change quickly if I find something I don't like.
"Dah?" Carla presses.
Screw it. Taking a deep breath, I tap the left mouse button.
The first few results that pop up on the screen are pictures of him, all of them incredibly handsome, and him with other young businessmen in suits. Some are even shirtless pictures of him on the beach, his incredible eight-pack abs proudly on display. Desire stirs in my stomach as I look at them. He's so gorgeous and built like a Greek god. Seriously, he looks like such a tall glass of champagne. It doesn't seem possible that I'm now going to be his property for an entire month.
All that is going to be mine later, I tell myself. Holy fucking shit.
"Jesus," Carla breathes, her eyes widening at all the eye candy of Lucian. "He's fucking hot!"
"You're telling me," I whisper, clicking through several sexy pictures of him on the beach, my pussy clenching at the thought of having this man all to myself.
After admiring a score of pictures of Lucian, I scroll down the page and my eyes settle on a bold headline.
Man becomes youngest CEO to make eight figures.
I click on the article and begin reading. Carla is as well, and I can hear the faint wispy sounds of her lips moving as she follows along. It's one of her quirks, but it's slightly distracting as I read about how he dropped out of college and started his own company. It wasn't long before he rose to the top of the corporate world and made a name for himself.
The article continues listing Lucian's accomplishments, which I find quite impressive. There's nothing in the list that gives me cause for concern. My anxiety ebbing a little, I move on from the article and skim through the next few search results. All of them are about the same thing, talking about how impressive Lucian's rise to power is and how he's the next big thing in the corporate world.
Holy fuck, he's accomplished so much.
Insecurity stirs in the pit of my stomach, replacing the dread. Next to him, I feel like a complete underachiever. It's going to be hard not to focus on his status when I'm with him. I can only hope that he makes me forget who he is when we have our sessions, otherwise they won't be pleasant.
I scroll through a few more of the same types of articles spanning the last few years and take deep breaths, my anxiety ebbing slowly.
Satisfied there's nothing else to see, I'm about to close out the search page, when I notice another eye-catching headline that makes my heart jump in my chest.
Young CEO headed for tumultuous divorce.
Married for less than a year, CEO and sole proprietor of Stone Enterprises, Lucian Stone is headed for a vicious split with Tricia Stone, formerly Morgan. The couple has filed for divorce, citing irreconcilable differences although there are several rumors of an affair. And not what you'd expect. It appears Mrs. Stone has fled their home and is staying with an unknown "former friend." Tricia has been quoted as saying, "The last few months of our marriage have been difficult, and I simply can't continue in this manner. This marriage and divorce have certainly harmed my image, and I have no doubt that it will affect me for the rest of my life. This isn't what I thought we were committed to when we exchanged vows, and I am deeply heartbroken by the turn of events." Mr. Stone has failed to comment.
I close out the page, feeling slightly uncomfortable and wincing with a twinge of guilt. I shouldn't have dug past his company's history, let alone gotten into his personal history. Shit.
"Feel better now?" Carla is looking at me with relief in her eyes. I wish I felt the same. It seems she's just as happy as I am that nothing dastardly has shown up on Lucian. I probably would've driven her crazy had I not done this. "You found out that he wasn't a serial killer... and I found out that I missed out by getting stuck with Bruce."
"Carla!" I protest.
Carla gives me a playful smirk. "Just joking. But seriously, you okay now?"
No, I'm not. But I'm going to suck it up and deal with this until tonight. I nod my head. "You're right. I didn't find out anything that makes me want to back out of my contract, thank God."
Carla smiles with relief. "Good."
The rest of my day is much more productive, and I'm even able to come up with a kick ass costume theme for Debra's after party; Subs and Doms. Carla thinks it's an absolute hoot. She's just worried about how Debra is going to take it.
By the time six rolls around, the exhaustion I was experiencing earlier is gone. Like I predicted earlier, I'm wide awake and I can't stop trembling with excitement.
"I'm going to go freshen up and then wait downstairs for my ride," I announce to Carla, my hands trembling with nervousness and excitement as I stick the last profile on an outfit. There's still one last pile of clothes that needs to be organized, and there are sticker papers all over the floor. I'm supposed to help Carla clean it up, but if I do, I'll be late and I'm afraid of angering Lucian before our first meeting.