Maryanne closed her eyes and cursed Shepherd to hell.
When she woke, there was no need to make a complicated decision regarding her lodger; Claire had made it for her. The little black-haired Omega was gone.
It was strange to walk through Thólos.
Claire may as well have been walking through the apocalypse. Everything she saw was far worse than the nightmare where the rabid pack was chasing her through the streets. Nothing seemed alive; no stores were open, no restaurants offered food. Buildings stood in shambles, broken glass and debris scattered about. Even bodies were left in the streets to freeze.
As her stroll continued, the warmth of Maryanne's bed leached away as if Claire had never known the comfort. She wandered, confused … wishing she could unsee all of it. In less than a year the city had become a wasteland, another world that poisoned all it touched with frost, ice, and loss.
Shepherd's plan had been a success. Thólos was destroying itself, and all the man had to do was sit back and watch.
A whoosh of breath left her lungs and Claire stopped walking. Hunched against the wall was a dead child-blue, frozen-a little boy no older than nine.
Kneeling over the stiff corpse, Claire reached out and brushed back his matted hair, wondering how Shepherd could think this child's death would satisfy his plan. What great lesson would society learn by a lost life no soul would remember?
Slumping to the kid's side, mimicking the body's posture, Claire tried to find a reason for any of it. Tragedy in Thólos was nothing new; since the occupation, orphan children died all the time.
More children were orphaned every day.
This was the new norm.
And who took them in? Where were they to go?
The people failed. Claire was not even sure if she could justify it anymore, not after seeing this. Leaning her head to the side she rested her cheek on the dead boy's hair and stared forward. There was no pleasure in her freedom or her view of the sky … there had not even been a sense of victory at her success freeing the Omegas.
Even in Maryanne's company she had only played the part, falsified emotion on instinct.
Closing her eyes, she let out a breath, ruffling the stiff brown hair under her lips. There was no point in being Claire anymore; instead she would be nothing, as hollow as Thólos had allowed itself to become.
It was the sound of a sob that woke her, and for a moment she thought it was from the boy she slept against. Waking abruptly, her bleary eyes darted around and found nothing-just the same empty alley and the same piles of icy garbage. The only difference from before was the darkness, a thing her eyes adjusted to quickly after so long underground.
Oblivious to the freezing cold, Claire stood, ignoring the crack of stiff knees. Her pillow, the forgotten corpse, sat as rigid as before, the child staring forward into the same future as hers … into nothing.
Claire claimed him, and with more strength than she felt, she hoisted the boy up on her back, the corpse's limbs not easy to manage.
Not a soul disturbed her as she walked with her macabre prize through the streets of hell.
Chapter 4
Corday looked over the newly freed Omegas, silently observing as they assembled a living space from piles of garbage. The mid-level Incineration Plant no longer created compost for the farm levels-not since citizens had taken to dumping their garbage in the streets. Now rotting mounds of muck protected an enclave of frightened women. Every breath stank of putrid food, mold, and things better left undescribed.
One thing it did not smell like was the young Omega still writhing through estrous, the girl moaning and begging for relief.
Corday was admittedly not an expert on Omega heat cycles, but whatever had been done to her, her sobbing response could not have been normal.
He kept his distance. The other Omegas also gave her a respectful berth, the group huddled together for warmth, gnawing on the rations he had provided.
An old woman, Nona, had come knocking on his door. It was Claire, she said, who'd directed her to find him. It was Claire who'd promised the resistance would feed and supply the freed Omegas.
It was the name Claire that made him come running.
He'd taken supplies without the permission of his commander. Brigadier Dane was going to kill him, and he was going to tell her straight to her face to go fuck herself. He was not going to let Claire down.
When he'd arrived the previous night, the Omegas had been … hostile. They were filthy, reeking just as badly as the garbage heap they'd chosen to shelter in.
Nona had warned him the women were dangerous, that they were armed and might shoot any male on sight. She had even warned him not to follow her back once she'd procured supplies.
Corday was having none of it. He needed to see Claire.
But Claire was not there. Even hours after the women had settled in, their liberator failed to show her face. The night dragged on, morning came, afternoon, Corday stiff from leaning against a slimy wall.
Had Claire been captured? Had the tyrant killed her?
Nona gently told him that Claire's plan required her to arrive from a different path; that the woman most likely was waiting for dark before she moved; that she had always been overly cautious when away from the safety of the group.
Corday scoffed. The Claire he knew was reckless. She was also badly hurt.
Over and over, Nona reminded him that if Claire had been taken, Shepherd's men would have already come for them.
Claire O'Donnell was out there.
And so he waited past the point of exhaustion, exasperation, and flat out fear. Evening fell. At first Corday thought his eyes were playing tricks on him. A two-headed hunchbacked beast staggered down the plant's dark garbage chute. Milky eyes stared right through him; they never blinked-just as the mouth beneath those dead eyes gaped in a fixed expression of hopelessness.
It was the face of a corpse.
Hidden beneath it sat a much dearer countenance, the struggling woman's eyes half-covered by a curtain of black tangles.
"Claire!"
Corday rushed towards the Omega and her burden, unraveling the frozen limbs of a cadaver unwilling to release its host.
Claire did not seem happy to see him. In fact, she didn't seem herself at all. "I found that boy alone in an alley, Corday … forgotten."
Once the dead child lay safely upon the ground, Corday pulled her against his chest. Warmth of his cheek against hers, stubble scratching, he breathed, "Nona came for me. I know what you did."
After the atrocities Claire had seen in the city, the attack on the Undercroft … facing Shepherd, seemed to have happened in another life. "The city's become a horrible place. I saw things … What's happening to us?"
Existential talk on the human condition could happen later. Tugging her towards the Omegas' fire, Corday urged, "You're freezing, Claire. Sit."
Nona ran over at first sight of her friend, the older woman throwing herself around her. "Your mother would be proud. You know that, my girl?"
Claire didn't want accolades, she just wanted to collapse.
There was no shyness, Corday ignored the watching women and tugged Claire down to rest between his thighs. Arms and legs wrapped around the girl's shivering frame, he put his chest to her back and purred.
The Omegas were openly confused by the state of their hero. Where was the confident deliverer who'd faced down an army? Why was she letting a Beta male hold her in an intimate embrace?
Why wasn't she speaking?
Nona smoothed the hair off Claire's forehead, watched her young friend close her eyes, and waited until Claire's breath became steady in sleep. Only then did she sniff.
Cautious not to wake her friend, Nona mouthed the words, "She smells pregnant."
Corday nodded and whispered, "She is."
It should not have been possible-not when Claire's last cycle had come the day she'd entered the Citadel.
Pressing her thin-lipped mouth in a frown, Nona's heart broke. "Shepherd has done this to Claire. This is … ."
Corday cut her off. "I know," he tightened his hold, "but she won't be alone."
Nona's severity lessened, she even smiled at the boy. "You care for her."
Corday did. "Swear to me you won't let her leave when I'm gone. Swear you will keep her safe."
The inevitable was unstoppable. "She is pregnant and pair-bonded, Corday. Even if you tend her constantly, she won't be able to stay for long."
Looking Nona dead in the eye, Corday chewed out each word. "Shepherd damaged the pair-bond. It has no bearing now."
Older and wiser, Nona spoke as gently as she could. "That is not possible … what he damaged was Claire."
"So you'll just let her wander back to Shepherd?" Corday would be damned first.
"You are not an Omega. You can't possibly understand the finality of a pair-bond." Nona began to smooth Claire's hair, looking at her friend with pity. "The only way for Claire to be free, is with Shepherd's death or hers. I guarantee she knows that, no matter what she may say."
"But … " Corday chose denial, "Claire told me … "
Her friend had always had misplaced altruism. "She would want you to have faith." In a hushed voice, Nona confessed, "I know better than to give you false hope. But know this, so long as she is pregnant, she is precious to Shepherd. That makes her safe."