I glanced at the V of my thighs and blushed cherry red at the memory of him there, stretching me, filling me - and bit down on my lower lip. My night with Calix was one I would never forget. The slow gentle way he’d moved within me, the feel of his lips on my mouth and body, the scent of his skin against mine. It was all wonderful - perfect. And when he came - inside me - so warm and fulfilling, it was just - wow.
At that thought, I felt my teeth release my lip and my eyes dropped to my belly in the mirror. Holy shit - we hadn’t used protection. I wasn’t on birth control. And since I’d been with Calix, he hadn’t given me any to take to prevent - the thought was too much to bear and I felt my skin pale slightly as Calix entered the room naked to stand behind me.
Calix wound his arms around my waist, tugging me against the firm structure that was his front. I went against him numbly, my mind still on the fact that we hadn’t used freaking birth control! I mean, crap! Crap!
“Calix,” I gulped and he smiled into the mirror.
“You’re so beautiful, love.” His eyes swept over my body before coming back to my eyes in the mirror. “So perfect.”
“Calix,” I said his name again, and again, it was nothing more than a hoarse whisper. But crap, I was panicking. Inside, I felt a little like I was drowning.
Calix stiffened and his smile fell from his face as he watched my gold eyes darken and fill with tears. He looked stunned as he stared at me, unmoving, for what felt like eternity. Then, his arms moved away from me and he turned me to face him. His eyes focused on mine as he tipped my head back with a finger beneath my chin.
“What is it, love?” He asked seriously. “Are you hurting?”
I shook my head, still feeling dazed and slightly confused. How could he be so careless? I mean, I had a little bit of an excuse - I was an innocent. I’d never had sex before. I had never had to think of using protection or worrying about a freaking baby! What the hell was Calix’s excuse?
Continuing to shake my head, I spoke under my breath. “You came.”
“Yes.” He said slowly. “I always come with you, Nova.”
“No,” I shook my head harder before bringing my hands up to my temples. I was overwhelmed. “No, you came inside me.”
Again, Calix nodded. “Yes, I’d planned to.”
“But,” I sputtered. “I,”
“What’s wrong, Nova?” He asked, more stern this time.
“You didn’t wear a condom.”
“Yes,” Again he nodded. “And I never will with you.”
“But,” I couldn’t stop sputtering. I could barely contain the trembling pulsing through my body. “But I’m not on birth control.”
“I know.” He replied firmly before dropping his hand from my chin. Placing his hands on my hips, he pushed me toward the shower. “Get in, love.”
I stiffened, my voice raising a few octaves. “Calix!”
“What?”
“We have to talk about this.”
“What is there to talk about, Nova?”
My mouth dropped. It opened and closed and opened and closed so many times, I felt as though I were gasping for air. And who knew, maybe I was. “Calix!”
“Nova, you are my wife. You aren’t my wife for only today or the next year or the next five years. You are my wife until death do us part.” He eyed me through piercing blue orbs that chilled my skin. “Do you understand?”
“Yes.” I breathed.
“Then what are you going on about?”
I placed a splayed hand over my belly and watched as his eyes followed. His jaw tensed when I spoke and I watched a muscle twitch. “I’m going on about the possibility, the very good possibility, that I might become pregnant if we don’t take precautions.”
I seriously could not believe he wasn’t piecing together the danger in us having unprotected sex. My Gods! I thought he was smarter than this!
“I’ve taken that into consideration, Nova.” He said darkly and I felt my eyes, already wide, widen.
For long moments, I didn’t move. I just stared at him - my husband - a man I thought I was getting to know. I guess, that no matter how much you think you know someone, you can always be surprised. Because Calix just shocked the fuck right out of me.
Chapter 15
My blood was raging through my veins like a white-capped river as I stared into Calix’s beautiful face. His eyes hadn’t moved from my face, not once, as I glared through wide eyes at him. I don’t know how long I’d stood there, naked and angry, but I knew Calix was done giving me time to process the words exchanged when he took a menacing step toward me. I could see by the firm set of his jaw, the cool blue of his eyes and the determination in his step that he wasn’t willing to allow this moment to continue.