Julianne stilled halfway down the stairs, her hand gripping the wooden railing until her knuckles turned white. He was even more handsome than she remembered, his short dark hair framing a classic face that could be as still as an evening lake or, as now, charmingly expressive as he returned the greetings of the Therians gathered around him.
His shoulders were broad beneath the navy blazer and striped dress shirt, his waist trim, his legs long as he stood among the tallest of the men in the room.
As she watched, he looked up. As if feeling her gaze on him, he turned unerringly toward her.
His dark brown eyes zeroed in on her. His gaze locked onto hers, grabbing hold and burrowing deep. Warmth and affection softened the lines of his face as he stared at her, dashing any hope that he might ignore her, or that he’d maybe even forgotten her.
Love for him rushed up inside her, tearing down her carefully built defenses, nearly overwhelming her with a need to race down the stairs and into his arms as she used to do as a child. But she couldn’t give in to the need. Not this time.
If his anger with her was gone, as it seemed to be, she was the one who would have to force the distance between them. The last thing she could afford was for him to get too close. To see too much.
She was going to have to pretend he no longer meant anything to her. Even if it was the greatest lie ever told.
Julianne tore her gaze from Zeeland’s, focusing on herself, on the pounding of her heart, and on the need to get her feet moving down the stairs even though part of her longed to turn and flee back to her room.
Panic rose, constricting her throat. How could she face him? How could she hide how she felt about him? How could she keep him from knowing anything was wrong when everything was wrong?
Out of the corner of her eye, she saw him start forward. Toward her.
Her pulse careened, her breathing turned shallow and erratic.
Clearly there would be no delaying this reunion .
She pulled her mask of friendly indifference tight around her and held on fast.
Julianne.
Zeeland started toward her. As she’d stood on the stair, as still as a statue, her brilliant turquoise gaze had met his, not with pleasure and welcome but with a wary guardedness. Something clenched deep inside him, twisting until it hurt.
Where was his Julianne, his Sunshine? Where was the bright-eyed sprite who’d always flown into his arms with a glad cry whenever he returned?
The woman who descended the stairs was a stranger, her back ramrod straight, her steps measured and controlled.
Too controlled. He hadn’t seen her in ten years, not since before she’d come of age. Yet even from here he could see the stiffness in her step.
He pushed past his friends without a word of apology, drawn to her by the same invisible force that had drawn him to her from the day she’d arrived at the house twenty-one years ago. As if he’d always known her. As if she’d always been a part of him.
Why had he stayed away so long?
He’d forgotten how bright her eyes were. He’d forgotten how strongly his body reacted to the mere sight of her. Goddess, but he’d forgotten how much he missed her.
For ten years, she’d haunted him, her soft beauty stealing into his thoughts at the most inopportune times. For a decade, the memories of her smile and her laughter had remained tucked like precious gems deep inside his heart.
Where was that smile now? That laughter?
He’d run into Ryland in London yesterday and asked about her, as he always did. He’d asked if her music still rang through the house at all hours. Ryland’s offhand comment that she’d developed a sudden fondness for Beethoven had sent his heart plummeting and a hundred warning bells ringing in his head.
Ryland hadn’t seemed to understand the significance of Beethoven. Zeeland doubted anyone but he ever had. If Julianne was playing Beethoven, something was wrong. Seriously wrong.
He’d wrapped up his business in London and gotten on the next flight to D.C.
Zeeland reached the stairs, meeting Julianne as she reached the bottom step.
She smiled at him, but the smile was a pale imitation of a Julianne smile and didn’t reach her eyes. Her gaze almost connected with his, but not quite. As if she focused not on his eyes but his cheek.
Goddess, but she was beautiful. Her skin creamy perfection, her nose small and straight, her eyes a brilliant turquoise framed by long, dark lashes.
Her scent wrapped around him, a sweet scent that had always reminded him of honeysuckle in the rain. A scent that had haunted his dreams and now wove itself into the very fabric of his flesh, into every drop of his blood, heating him. Hardening him.
Coming back was a mistake.
“Hello, Zeeland. Welcome back.” She said the right words, even injecting an appropriate level of warmth into them, but the words fell flat on his ears. They were lies. An act. She wasn’t glad he was here at all.