Bent, Not Broken(26)

After Amy finished eating Deanna’s spaghetti, they made the trip back to David’s. Before Joker had headed out on this trip, they’d promised they wouldn’t stay too long at the clubhouse alone. She was glad they were heading out. The thought of spending any more time with the women who used their bodies to attract the club members made her uncomfortable. She’d never be like those women.

“So, you and Joker?” Deanna asked. “Who knew he could be like that?”

Amy chuckled. “You sound surprised. Joker’s not someone you should underestimate. He’ll surprise you.” Amy smiled thinking about the Reese she had grown up with.

“He cares about you. Anyone with eyes can see that,” Deanna said, reaching over to touch her hand.

“How do you handle this? When the men go on jobs?”

“I don’t handle it. To be honest, I’ve not had a lot of experience with this. Demon and I, we’re very new, really new, actually.”

“Do you love him? I mean, after everything you’ve been through, do you love him?”

“Of course; Demon is the only man I’ve ever loved. I know our situation is not normal for most couples but who needs normal? I love being with him. The club isn’t all that bad. You just have to take what you love and leave what you don’t.” Deanna ran fingers through her hair as she weaved her way through traffic.

“Is that what you did? Take what you liked?”

“Being Demon’s old lady, I don’t really have a lot of room to choose what I like. He needs me to be strong at his side.” Deanna bit her lip. Amy couldn’t look away. She really wanted to make this work with Joker. “You know Demon’s the President of the Soldiers, right?”

“Yes, Joker told me.”

“Then you know it’s going to be different for every woman. Before Demon, I was all alone. My mom had passed away shortly before all this happened, and I didn’t have anyone. Then out of the blue, the shit happened and my father gave me to the Soldiers to pay a debt. I met Demon and even though it was tough, something eventually just clicked between us. Do you ever have that with Joker? Where it doesn’t matter what you’ve been through, you’ve got that connections?”

Tilting her head to the side, Amy thought about Joker. Her man, the one she could talk to about anything and not be afraid. “Yes, I’ve got that with Joker.”

“That’s how I can handle the club.”

“Aren’t you worried he’s going to use those other women when you’re not around?”

“Honey, I don’t let him get the chance to be with anyone else.”

“What do you mean?”

“I don’t know why men stray, but I’m not going to let my Demon get away from me. I’ll be whatever he wants me to be. He gives me the freedom to be myself, never judging me. I love him with my whole heart and I love sex just as much as he does.”

Amy thought about Joker and his touch. The way his hands caressed and stroked her.

“I see you know what I’m talking about.”

“It’s down at the end of the street, last house on the left,” she said, pointing out the window. Deanna followed her directions.

“You know you can talk to me, right?” Deanna asked. “I’m not going to run back to Demon and talk about this. It would be totally gross.”

Amy laughed. “I’m not a very, um, open person.”

“Neither am I. I like you, Amy. There’s something about you. It could just be the fact I know you’re not going to try to steal my man.” Deanna parked the car. “This is a nice place. My old place was a shit hole.”

“This is my parents’ house. My mom, she passed away recently. David, my step-dad, Joker’s dad, he lives here. I crash here every now and then.” She climbed out of the car. There was no sign of David’s vehicle. “It’s a nice area though, quiet. Not a lot of kids.”

“I love kids. I want a ton of them. I just hope Demon can keep up with the supply I want,” Deanna said.

“You want kids?”

“Yeah. I’ve always wanted a big family. It was only me and my mom, you see. My father was a deadbeat crack head; I hated him. So, I’ve always wanted a big family.”

Amy had thought about kids but completely dismissed the idea. Could she be a Mom? Be responsible for kids? Thinking about Joker, she imagined a little boy who looked exactly like him. The very thought touched something deep within her. Would Joker even want kids? And with her?

No, she was going too fast. They were only just starting out in this relationship. There was no pressure to have kids or get married.