Before Jamaica Lane (On Dublin Street #3)(85)

       
         
       
        

Seeing the shadows in the back of Joss's eyes, I realized that she was well aware of the innocence she had given up by having sex too young.

'Was it with someone you liked at least?' Hannah asked softly, clearly hoping for some kind of happiness to lighten Joss's past.

'No, Hannah. He went to school in the next town over. We met at a party. We got wasted. The rest is history. And not one you should ever repeat.'

'Don't worry, I won't,' Hannah promised.

After a minute's silence Ellie's little sister's eyes came to me.

I'd been waiting on it. I heaved a massive sigh. 'Well, at least I was nineteen when I made my mistake. Honestly, there is nothing romantic here. I was sick of being a virgin, so I got tipsy at a college party and lost my virginity in a room upstairs to a drunk senior. There was no finesse. Nothing. It hurt. And afterward he rolled off of me and left me there.'

Hannah now looked traumatized. 'Not one of you has a good "losing my virginity" story?'

We gazed back at her apologetically.

'Well, that's settled it. I'm not doing it with someone I don't love.'

The four of us shared a look, and I smiled. 'Well, at least something came out of it.'

Their laughter was cut off as a knock came at the door a millisecond before Braden popped his head in. 'What's going on in here, then?'

'Clothes,' Ellie answered quickly. 'We're talking clothes.'

We all agreed for the sake of Hannah. I'd heard the stories from Ellie. The last thing Hannah needed was for Braden and Adam to find out there was a boy she liked, because they'd end up making her life an utter hell with their overprotectiveness.

Braden didn't look convinced, but it seemed he was too preoccupied to care about what we were up to. He walked into the room, a small smile playing on his lips as he came up to Joss, who was sitting on the edge of Hannah's dressing table. He bent and pressed a soft kiss to her mouth, his hand automatically drifting across her belly. 'How are you?' he murmured, staring deep into her eyes.

My chest squeezed, but this time in a good way. It was the first time I'd gotten to see them together since the last awful moments in their apartment.

I knew from talking to Joss that she was tentatively excited about the pregnancy and had managed to explain whatever was going on in her head to Braden until they came to an understanding. They were back on track, and it was great to see.

'I'm good,' she answered softly, a wry smile on her lips. 'You don't have to keep asking me that, baby. You know I'll be vocal if any issues arise.' 

He rubbed her stomach again.

'You can stop doing that too.' She huffed in amusement. 'There's no bump yet.' She looked around him, eyeing us with humor in her expression. 'He's looking forward to the bump part.'

'Why?' Ellie asked, bemused.

The question caused Joss to color and Braden to chuckle in this deep, intimate way that suggested, whatever his reason, it was not something he wanted to share with a group that included his little sister.

Ellie looked ill. 'Okay, definitely don't answer.'

Braden chuckled again and then turned to us, his arm sliding around Joss's shoulder. 'Did Jocelyn tell you her agent has found a publisher who's interested in her book?'

'No!' Jo cried out excitedly. 'That's amazing!'

Joss squirmed, uncomfortable because she was modest. 'They read the first three chapters and came back and asked to read the rest of the book. It doesn't mean anything.'

I had to disagree. 'It means a lot. Pity you can't drink, because this is a reason to get shit-faced.' I glanced over at Hannah. 'Sorry, Hannah.'

'Sorry for saying "shit-faced" or sorry because I can't get drunk with you?'

Ellie snorted. 'I'm so glad Mum isn't in the room.'

An Italian woman sang a lively, frolicking tune through the speakers as the waiter poured red wine into the glasses on the table before me and Ben. We'd met at D'Alessandro's since we both loved it so much and also because it offered us a familiarity that I imagined we both hoped would help with any first-date nerves.

Ben was wearing a purple shirt and dress pants and he looked very handsome. It occurred to me that I'd never seen him wear black  –  and that only occurred to me because it was Nate's favorite color. Black or dark red. Nate had looked good in both.

'I have to admit,' Ben said as the waiter walked away, 'I've wanted to ask you out for months.'

'Really?' I asked incredulously, and then immediately scolded myself as I heard Nate's voice tutting at me for my lack of confidence. 'I mean  …  really?' I asked again, going for nonchalant this time.

It made Ben smile. 'Really. But  …  you didn't seem that interested before  … '