Before Jamaica Lane (On Dublin Street #3)(58)

Later that day I was still in a fantastic mood and more than happy to see my dad standing outside my building with a shopping bag in hand. As soon as I reached him, he bent his massive frame so he could press a kiss to my cheek.

'Hi, baby girl. Hope you don't mind'  –  he lifted the bag  –  'I brought some food over. Thought I could cook you dinner.'

I unlocked the building door and let us in. 'Of course I don't mind. It's great to see you.'

Once we were inside, Dad immediately set about cooking and soon my apartment smelled like home. Like old times, we chopped vegetables together and I stirred the sauce while Dad boiled the pasta. You wouldn't think there was an art to boiling pasta, but there was. Apparently. Just ask my dad.

Our conversation as we cooked was light. Dad told me about this new contract he'd just signed to work with Braden's company again, while I told him about the sock I'd found in a returned book last week only to come upon the matching sock in the reserve section on Monday. They were dirty socks. I was all for weird. But there was weird, and then there was just weird. Angus had this theory that we had a crackpot Harry Potter fan in our midst and this person had somehow confused library assistants with enslaved house elves and by giving us socks thought he was doing a humanitarian act.

I thought it was a pretty good theory.

Better than my theory that some immature freshman was stashing his dirty socks everywhere, laughing his ass off while he filmed me finding them and then put the video up on YouTube.

We ate sitting on stools at my counter, and I was having a great time just chilling with my dad when our conversation took a more serious turn.

'So you've been quiet lately?' He eyed me, his eyes sharp, searching.

I shrugged, feeling guilty as hell about keeping my shenanigans with Nate from Dad. 'I've just been busy.'

'Did you know Joss and Braden are back from their honeymoon?'



       
         
       
        

Another pang of guilt. Wonderful. 'No, I didn't know that.' I swirled a piece of pasta around my fork. I didn't know that because I was too lost in my selfish sexual world with Nate Sawyer to give a shit what was going on outside of it. That would have to stop. 'I should call Joss.'

'This  …  absence  …  Is it because of Dee?' Dad looked deep into my eyes for answers. 'Because I think we should talk about that. About me and Dee, I mean.'

My breath caught at his expression, at his words, and I felt my pulse speed up. Sweat coated my palms as I shakily exhaled. 'Are you  …  are you going to ask her to marry you?'

Dad frowned and gave a slight shake of his head. 'No, baby girl. No. Though I'm going to take all the color draining from your face at the mere thought of it as a bad sign.'

'No.' I hurried to assure him. 'Dad, I like Dee. I don't know her as well as you do, but I like what I do know.'

He studied me, not convinced. 'Then why do you look ill at the thought of me marrying her?'

Pushing my food around my plate, I shrugged. 'It's silly. Immature. I just  …  still think of you as Mom's.'

Dad's fork clattered against the plate and his huge hand covered mine, drawing my gaze back to him. His eyes were bright with emotion as he told me in a low, thick voice, 'A huge part of me will always be your mother's. I was from the moment I met her. What I have with Dee won't ever change that.'

'Is that fair to Dee?' I asked, trying desperately not to cry.

He squeezed my hand. 'I'm a different man now, Olivia. Life changes us, second by second. Who I was before Yvonne passed was a man who was right for her. Who I am now is someone I hope is right for Dee. But the most important person in my life is, and always will be, you. I need to know that you're okay with me moving on with Dee. And I'd especially like it if you got to know her better.'

I smiled teasingly through the shimmer of tears in my eyes. 'Dad, I'm a grown woman. You don't need to be worrying about what I think.'

'See'  –  he shook his head with a grin  –  'to the world you're a grown woman, but to me you're still my kid. You'll understand that when you've got your own.'

'Then if it makes you feel better, I want you to know that I'm glad for you. Dee makes you laugh. She makes you happy. That's all I care about.'

'Will you meet with her? Spend some time just you two? I know she'd like that.'

Honestly, it's something I should have thought of doing without having to be asked, and I realized that I really had been locked up in my own insecurities and problems for so long now that I hadn't been a very good daughter lately. 'Of course, Dad.' 

Satisfied, Dad changed the subject again, talking about Cole and how Dad and Jo were thinking of getting him a dog if he passed his exams at the end of the school year. Cole had made a comment about how he'd always wanted a puppy and Jo had felt bad that she hadn't known that, and now she and Cam were discussing it with the landlord.