Okay, so I wasn't lying when I told him it helped.
It definitely helped.
Or at least it put me in a good mood for the next few days.
'Did you hear that Jude and Mari from Special Collections are getting married?' Ronan, one of my colleagues, asked me as we sat eating lunch in the staff room together.
Thinking about that harridan Mari, I replied dryly, 'How nice for them.'
'Jesus, you can hold a grudge,' he chuckled, munching his sandwich while he texted his wife. I knew he was texting his wife because the two of them were addicted to texting each other throughout the workday. They'd been married five years and still acted like newlyweds.
My mouth parted in indignation. 'She was horrible to me.'
Special Collections was on the sixth floor of the library and could be accessed only by appointment. It was run by the rare-books staff – Jude, Mari, and a small group of colleagues who were trained in dealing with old and rare books. It was a pretty cool job, and by all accounts a pretty cool place. When I'd first started working at the library I'd asked Mari for a tour. I was promptly told that ordinary staff were not allowed in unless they had an appointment, and the appointment had to be for a legitimate reason.
'This isn't a small-town library, Miss Holloway,' she'd sneered over her glasses at me. 'And even if it was, what would a provincial like you find of merit in Special Collections?'
Ronan snorted as I reminded him what she'd said to me. 'You've got to give her points for getting the word "provincial" into the sentence.'
'Oh, you know she meant "American." Elitist … '
'Elitist what?'
'Nothing,' I mumbled, dipping my head to my e-reader again. 'My mom always said if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all.'
'My mum always said if you can't say something nice, say something memorable.'
I laughed. 'I might steal that.'
The door to the staff room flew open and our colleague Wendy strolled in. She was grinning huge. 'I just got asked out again by another student. This place is brilliant for my self-esteem. I can't believe I didn't think to come here sooner.' She shrugged as she got a plastic cup of water from the water dispenser. 'Of course, the fact that it's the third time I've been hit on by a woman is a little puzzling.'
Sneaking a look at Ronan I saw him struggling not to laugh, which of course set me off. Once I lost control, he started laughing too. Wendy was a thirty-three-year-old wife and mother of two. She was attractive, friendly, funny, and just plain old nice. And apparently a hit with the ladies.
She watched us chuckle with a good-natured smile on her face. 'What? Do you think I'm doing something to encourage it?'
I shook my head. 'I don't know. Just take it as the compliment it is.'
'You should know.' Ronan smirked at me. 'You're always getting hit on.'
My eyebrows puckered together. 'By barely out-of-their-adolescence boys who will screw anything as long as it has boobs and a vagina attached to it.'
'We're using the word "vagina" at work now?' Angus's voice jerked my head around from Ronan. My boss was leaning against the doorway, regarding us with cool amusement.
I smiled sheepishly. 'We're talking about medical journals?'
Angus ignored that and wandered toward the coffee machine. 'I met Michael here, you know,' he suddenly offered up, which told us he'd been standing at the door for a while and knew exactly what we'd been talking about. 'Fraternizing with the students isn't encouraged, but I was twenty-three and he was a twenty-five-year-old postgrad.' He grinned at me over his shoulder. 'Sometimes when you click you just click – you can't help who it's with. Have you never had that with anyone, Liv? A student, perhaps?'
My pulse throbbed in my neck at his pointed question. Oh, my God … did Angus know about my crush on Benjamin? I shook my head quickly. 'No.'
'Hmm.' He smirked at me, leaning against the counter. 'Well, I've noticed a postgrad or two checking you out … in the reserve section.'
Was he saying he'd noticed Benjamin checking me out?
'Really?' I squeaked.
Laughing, Angus replied, 'You're quite possibly the most oblivious person I've ever met in my life.'
'Checking me out?' I asked for clarification.
'Yes. You.' He frowned at me. 'Why do you ask that like it's impossible?'
'Um … ' Uh-oh. I didn't want my colleagues knowing that any self-esteem I had was clinging to my personality with a death grip.
Angus gave me a look that suggested he thought me more than a little nutty (he gave me that look a lot), grabbed his coffee, and strode toward the exit. 'Try not to use the word "vagina" outside of the staff room.'