Because of Lila(65)

"She needs her space. You can't find her anyway. You don't know where she went," my mother's voice was calm and understanding.

"I did this. I hurt her." My voice cracked with emotion as I said it.

My mom nodded. "Yes. And you'll be the only one who can fix it. But for now, you have something else to fix."

"Goddamn right he does," Dad's tone was angry and annoyed.

"Woods, calm down. I know you're angry. But this started when he was a kid. She took advantage of him. Remember that."

Dad threw up his hands in frustration. "She is married, Della. Married. I'd like to think my son has more morals than that."

Mom nodded. "Me too. But what is done is done. We thought his wild streak was just that and he'd outgrow it. We should have been paying closer attention."

Dad pointed at me. "He should have used his damn brain and not his dick!"

Mom winced. "Seriously, honey. Are those words necessary?"

He shook his head. "This is just. Fuck it. I wasn't perfect at his age but I didn't do this. I didn't put the club into legal question. And I didn't screw around with married employees."

But I had.

"When do we leave for the club?" I asked.

"We should leave now. I need to make sure the room is ready. And our lawyers need to go over some things with you. What you can and can't say."


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Mom stood up. "I'm going."

"No," Dad and I said at the same time.

Mom frowned. "Why not?"

I looked at Dad, and he sighed. "Because Della, I'm afraid we will be dealing with more legal issues when you see Kelsey. The videos will be discussed and I don't trust you not to attack the woman."

He had a better reason than I did. I'd just been worried it would upset her.

"She's pregnant. It may not be Cruz's child but I'd never hurt a pregnant woman," Mom argued.

Dad raised his eyebrow. "You haven't seen the videos."

Mom let out a deep sigh then nodded. "Perhaps you're right."

Dad walked over to my mom, pulled her into his arms then kissed her head. "I'll keep you posted."

She nodded against his chest. They'd always been like this. Close. One unit. Dad worshiped her, and she adored him. I hadn't wanted that. I always thought it made them vulnerable. I didn't trust that. It was a gamble to love like that. I'd heard how awful most marriages were from Kelsey for years. I believed her.

But watching them I realized I wanted that too. I'd had a taste with Lila Kate. A brief time where I knew she was all I would ever want. Now it was gone too soon. What my parents had wasn't unique to them. It was simply that they loved each other.

Kelsey didn't love. There was the difference.

My parents weren't made vulnerable by their love. They were stronger because of it. My lies and secrets had to come out for me to see and understand that kind of love. Why did that have to be the case? Why couldn't I have realized this years ago and saved so many people the pain?

I wouldn't lose Lila Kate without a fight. I'd heal everything I'd broken the best way I could. I would learn and move on. Then I would find some way for her to forgive me. Even if it took the rest of our lives. I'd wait for her. For us.





Eli Hardy

WATCHING LILA WALK toward me with the sun-kissed highlights in her hair and perfect features marked with pain, I realized something. She had felt "more." She had experienced that "more" that we all hope for. That intensity that grabs you and holds you so tightly you can't do anything but enjoy the ride and hope for the best.

I wasn't the ride for her. The night I met her she'd already been grabbed by it. Hell, she was already on the ride and didn't want to be. Cruz had snagged her heart a long time ago. But I was thankful her journey had brought her to me. Without her, without my feelings developing for her I would have never believed I could love someone like I loved Bliss. I knew now that I was wrong. Bliss was my best friend, she was my childhood. We were grown now and our ride was over. 

Lila stopped at the table I had found us outside the bakery in Sea Breeze. One I'd eaten at many times before. She'd called me two days after Nate came by to see me asking if I had heard from her. I hadn't at the time. But he told me some bad shit went down concerning Cruz and Lila had run.

I had asked her where she was when she had called and she'd told me in Nashville. I thought about going to her. But I didn't. She wasn't mine. She never would be. But this morning I'd gotten a text. She was in Sea Breeze. She wanted to see me.