She sucked in a breath, blinking to beat back the tiny pinpricks of tears. Tell him, a small, insidious voice whispered in her head. Just tell him the whole truth, and he'll forgive you. Her lips parted, the confession almost spilling from her tongue. But an image flashed across her mind's eye. Her father, disgraced as he faced a judge and jury. Her father, handcuffs shackling his wrists as he was led away from her mother, from Sydney. Her father, old, worn, broken, speaking to her from behind a panel of Plexiglas.
Jason crossed his arms. "Sydney. An address."
An address. An address. God, I don't know. She was adrift, a lone leaf floating on a biting, brisk autumn breeze. Out of all the scenarios she'd envisioned, being thrown out of her home hadn't been one. Where would she go? She had friends, but none close enough to ask if they would take her in. Or more importantly, none close enough to not gossip about her circumstances …
"She's staying with me." Lucas squeezed her hip as if warning her not to disagree. As if she could. Objecting would require working lungs and a tongue. "I'll leave my address with your assistant." Shifting to the side, he tangled his fingers with hers once more. "And she didn't choose me over her family or transfer her loyalty from you to me. On the contrary, you chose your pride over her happiness and well-being. If you change your mind about abandoning your daughter, you know where to find her."
Not allowing her a chance to speak or Jason an opportunity to reply, he turned and led her from her father's office. Numb, she remained silent, frozen as he shut the door behind them.
"Are you all right?" he asked once they were safely down the hall.
The question seemed to reach her through layers and layers of wool, distant and muffled. God, no, she wasn't okay. Everything she'd known-her parents, her home, her identity-had been blown to hell and back in a matter of minutes. As flawed as her family and life were, they'd belonged to her. They were familiar. In their own dysfunctional way, they were her safety net … her norm. And now what did she have? No home. No family. Friends who bent and wavered in the direction of the ever-changing societal wind. A man who detested her father so much he had no qualms about stripping her of her will and power to obtain his revenge.
No. "All right" had caught the last red-eye flight out of Boston, and "crazy as shit" had just stepped into the building.
"I don't know where your father's assistant went, but she'll probably return soon." The dark gray of his shirt and darker silver of his tie filled her vision as his spring-rain scent wrapped her in its embrace. "For the next couple of minutes, don't think about who's watching or about appearing weak. Instead, for these two minutes, lean on me. We won't talk about it, won't ever bring it up. And I promise not to use it against you." He cupped her nape gently but firmly, tugged her closer and into the strong, hard lines of his body. "It'll be our secret," he murmured against her hair.
The low, dark velvet of his voice lured her in as much as his tender, insistent grip. For just a moment. She rested her forehead on the wide plane of his shoulder. Allowed her lashes to drift shut. She was so tired. The weight of her father's displeasure and rejection settled across her shoulders like a dumbbell she had no hope of bench-pressing. Instead it pressed down on her, squeezing the air from her lungs, constricting her chest, weakening her legs. Yes, for just a moment, she'd borrow his strength, lean on him …
"Sydney?"
She stiffened. Oh. Damn.
Slowly, she straightened, turned. And faced Tyler.
His gaze switched from her to Lucas and back to her, a frown drawing down his dark brown eyebrows.
"Sydney," he said, stepping closer, his arm outstretched. "What's going on? Is something wrong?"
Regret for the humiliation and hurt she was about to inflict clenched her belly. She harbored no doubt that Tyler cared for her, yes, but the affection a man should possess for his wife? No. But he would still suffer from the public rejection. He would still be whispered and gossiped about. And she would lose a friend.
"Tyler," she pleaded. With a quick glance toward the empty conference room on their right, she shifted to the side, neatly avoiding his hand. Knowing in a few moments he wouldn't want anything to do with her, much less invite her touch. "Can we talk?"
Tyler hesitated, then nodded. As she moved to follow him, Lucas aligned himself beside her. Once again refusing to let her face the backlash alone.
How ironic.
Suddenly alone of family and friends, her one ally was the Beast of Bay Bridge.
…
Sydney stared up at Lucas's Back Bay brownstone. The structure resembled its owner: elegant, striking, imposing. And was now her only sanctuary.
No, not sanctuary. Because that implied while she might be safe-physically-and off the street, it also suggested she felt comfortable, warm, sheltered, peaceful. Those couldn't be further from the truth.
Behind her, Lucas's driver removed her suitcases from the trunk of the limo, lining them along the curb. Apparently, before she and Lucas could make it out of the building, her father had called and told her mother and housekeeper to pack up Sydney's belongings and have them delivered. Her and Lucas's arrival at her parents' home had expedited the delivery part of the command. That simply, that easily, her father had ushered her out of her home, his life. And now she stood on a sidewalk with her luggage, dependent on the mercy of a man who had none.
Not true, her conscience whispered. Lucas immediately stepped in, defended you, offered you a place to stay.
And he's also the person responsible for placing me in this situation, she countered.
God, she must be more exhausted than she believed to be debating points back and forth with herself.
Sighing, she hiked her tote higher on her shoulder. Personal and sentimental items the housekeeper had neglected to pack filled the tote. Pictures-of her parents, of Jay that she'd hidden away at the top of her closet. Books, journals, and pieces of jewelry from her grandmother.
"Come on inside," Lucas murmured, guiding her up the stone steps. Moments later, he opened the front door, and she stepped into the foyer. "I know you're tired. Let me give you a quick tour and then you can rest."
Nodding, she took her first inspection of his home.
She hadn't known what to expect-decor that shouted the wealth of its owner in every painting, piece of furniture, and decorative piece? Or an austere, minimalistic design straight out of the Spartans 'R' Us catalog? Reality fell somewhere in between.
Clean, uncluttered elegance, yet luxurious. Gorgeous landscapes adorned the walls, beautiful earth-toned furniture enhanced the gleaming cherrywood of the floors, banister, railings, and stairs. Airy rooms with high ceilings, large bay windows, and cavernous fireplaces welcomed people to come sit and visit. The entire brownstone belonged to him. The garden level contained his study, while the parlor level, where they'd entered, held the great room, another smaller living area, a bathroom, and an amazing kitchen. The top level had been renovated so the master bedroom occupied most of the space. Huge floor-to-ceiling windows dominated one wall, and late afternoon light poured into the room. Sumptuous, decadent. And perfect for the man standing next to her. She could easily imagine him lying on the almost sinfully large bed with its soaring four posters, the rich black bedspread pooling around his narrow waist, leaving his chest bare.
She reined in her too-vivid imagination and averted her too-enraptured regard.
"Your room is down the hall," he said, leaving the door to his bedroom open. As if in invitation.
Seconds later he opened the door to a smaller but no less exquisitely appointed bedroom. Her suitcases had beaten her there. So this is where I'll live for the next year.
As soon as the words ghosted through her head, a wave of exhaustion and loneliness broke over her, almost buckling her knees. Maybe she wavered or swayed, because from one breath to the next, Lucas's arms were surrounding her, holding her steady.
That fast, the surge of lethargy evaporated, leaving an electrical awareness popping and sizzling under her skin. She shuddered, detesting her visceral reaction. Why, of all people, did her heart pound and her body swell and pulse for this man? Even Tyler made more sense …
Oh, Jesus, Tyler.
Images of their confrontation bombarded her.
She'd prevented Lucas from accompanying her into the empty office while she broke the news to Tyler. Having Lucas there as a witness when she informed her fiancé-former fiancé-that their engagement was off had seemed unnecessarily cruel. And ultimately, she'd made the right call. God, Tyler's shock, disbelief. His rage.
"Are you seriously doing this to me, Sydney? I've always cared for you, respected you, and this is how you treat me? With betrayal and humiliation? What kind of person does that to someone she's supposed to love?"