“It’s been way too long.”
By the time I finished half of my drink, my shoulders had dropped, and the muscles in my neck were a lot looser. We’d started to settle into the old Davis-and-Rachel comfortableness. I gave him an update about my classes, and he asked how my sister was. Never liking to talk about myself too much, I steered the conversation back to him.
“So what’s new with you? How’s your job?”
“Good. Got a little promotion—a bigger territory.”
“Wow. Congratulations. I knew you’d do great. Do you get a big fancy corner office now?”
“Nah, I spend three-quarters of my time on the road. But they did give me a better car allowance, so I got myself a fun new car to enjoy while I’m doing all that driving.”#p#分页标题#e#
“What did you get?”
“The Audi A4. It’s a manual transmission. Makes for a fun drive on long hauls with hills.”
My brain was being unfair. It immediately conjured up the memory of Caine driving his little car—the way his hand gripped that gear shifter. Such an odd thing to have gotten me all hot and bothered, even odder that I shifted in my seat remembering it.
I sipped my drink. “You’ll have to take me for a ride sometime.”
“I’d like that. You can even take it for a spin, if you want.”
“Thank you,” I scoffed. “Caine wouldn’t let me drive his car. Thought I’d ruin his precious clutch.”
“Caine?”
“Professor West. My thesis advisor.”
Davis seemed contemplative for a few seconds and then nodded. “That’s right. You mentioned him the other night at O’Leary’s. You still working six days a week over there?”
“Actually, not the last few weeks. Between teaching and student extra-help sessions, faculty meetings, and writing lesson plans, I’ve had to cut down a bit.”
Over dinner, we chatted away like long-lost friends. Davis was good company, and our familiarity gave me a sense of comfort—Davis had always given me a sense of comfort. When our conversation came to a lull, I could see he was thinking. It looked like he was debating saying something.
“Spit it out,” I said.
He chuckled. “You could always tell when something was on my mind.”
“What’s going on? Is everything okay?”
He stopped eating and put down his fork. “You said you weren’t seeing anyone?”
“No, I’m not.”
“Is there a reason for that?”
“Other than that I barely have time to breathe and most of the men at O’Leary’s are sixty-year-old retired cops, no. Not really.”
“Have you dated anyone since…you know…we were together?”
“Does one guy who was a total jerk and Charlie almost hit with a baseball bat count?”
We laughed, but Davis remained serious. “I went out with a woman for a while—Stacey. We had a lot in common and got along great.”
I felt a pang of jealousy. “Are you still together?”
“No. We broke up.”
“What happened?”
Davis looked away for a few seconds, then returned to meet my gaze. “She wasn’t you.”
I opened my mouth to respond three times, but each time I shut it, realizing I wasn’t sure what to say. Davis caught my bewildered expression and seemed amused.
“You don’t have to say anything. In fact, don’t. Let me just finish, if that’s okay?”
“Okay…” I managed to get a word out—a single one, but it counted.
“First of all, this wasn’t how I planned to talk to you about this. My plan was to have dinner tonight, charm you into remembering how great things were between us, and then take you out a few more times before I laid it all out there.”
“I’d say you went off script.”
“Yeah…sorry about that. I got a little jealous and stepped on the gas.”
“Jealous. About what?”
“Nothing. It was stupid.”
“Tell me.”
“You mentioned that professor a few times at dinner the other night, and then when you mentioned being in his car a little while ago, I visualized you… My mind just started to race a bit. I thought maybe you were seeing him or something.”#p#分页标题#e#
I scoffed in denial. “Definitely not.” Although the emphatic tone in my voice made even me not believe it. Obstinate denial is often the loudest confession. But Davis didn’t seem to notice.
“Anyway, my plan was, after I got you to remember how good we were together, I would tell you I’ve never stopped thinking about you.” He paused, looking up at me with a shy and vulnerable expression. “I’ve tried to move on, but every person I start to date—no matter how great they are—has one flaw I can’t seem to move past. They’re not you.”