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By:Penny Reid


Furthermore, the intensity of my attraction was distracting and I didn’t want a partner who distracted me. The last month had proved definitively that I couldn’t see clearly with thoughts of Jennifer Sylvester clouding my vision.

“No, you’re not always grumpy.” Sienna tugged on my beard. “You’d like to think you are, but you’re not. Is this because I didn’t make you my maid of honor?”

“Yes. I wanted that orange dress.”

“It’s not orange, it’s burnt umber.”

“It’s orange and your bridesmaids look like pumpkins.”

She laughed again. “Stop making me laugh. I can’t do yoga if I’m laughing.”

“We do not look like pumpkins,” a familiar and welcome voice behind us challenged.

I opened my eyes and turned. My sister Ashley was climbing the steps of the deck, a bakery box in her hands. I squinted to read the lettering on the side, confirming my suspicions. Donner Bakery. I grimaced.

“We’re not pumpkins. We’re stunning autumn gourds. Good morning, Sienna. How are you feeling?” Ashley crossed to Sienna and bent to give her a kiss on the cheek. “I brought you lemon custard cakes.”

“You’re a saint.” Sienna shot to her feet and accepted the box from Ash.

I followed the two women with my eyes as they moved to one of the picnic tables, opened the box, and began digging in.

“Hey!” I sat up. “What about yoga?”

“Yoga can wait.” Sienna waved me off. “I’ve been craving these since Jethro brought them home last week. It’s the only thing that tastes good right now. I want to hire Jennifer Sylvester to bake them for me every day.”

“You can ask her, she’s coming to the wedding. I’m sure she’d do it.” Ashley stuffed a bite in her mouth and her eyes rolled back into her head. “Ermergerd!”

“I know, right?” Sienna licked a bit of custard from her thumb and moaned.

“You invited Jennifer to the wedding?” I scratched my cheek, keeping my tone nonchalant to disguise the strength of my interest. I hadn’t expected Sienna to invite Jenn, especially after the way Kip Sylvester had acted a fool when first meeting Sienna. He’d made her sign twenty napkins at The Front Porch during Jethro and Sienna’s first date.

Sienna couldn’t answer because she was chewing. She looked to Ashley, her eyebrows raised in question.

“No, I don’t think Jennifer was invited. But Jackson was invited, both on account of being Jessica’s brother, and Jethro wanted to invite the sheriff. Jennifer is going with Jackson,” Ashley explained, her tone normal and calm, like this wasn’t gut-wrenching news.

Like this wasn’t the most loathsome, earth-shattering, abhorrent, and distressing news ever.

“What?” My sharp question was out in the wild before I caught it, propelled from my mouth by the angry beating in my chest. “What do you mean Jennifer is going with Jackson?”

Ashley tensed, her eyes widening. She moved them to Sienna, then back to me. “Uh, exactly that. Jackson is taking Jennifer to the wedding.”

Red tinted my vision, then black.

“How do you know this?” I demanded, standing and stalking to her.

Ashley took a step back, lifting her hands between us. “Calm down, Cletus.”

“How do you know?”

“Because Jackson told me at the bakery. He was there with Jennifer.” Ashley placed a hand on my shoulder then smoothed it down my arm, her eyes wide and concerned.

Her touch brought me back to myself, although my blood pressure was through the roof. The sound of it between my ears muffled the world beyond. I turned, pulling my fingers through my hair; they caught on the curls and tangles, and the pain was sobering.

I needed to calm down.

But I couldn’t.

Jennifer and Jackson . . . they fit. In fact, even her name began with a “J.”

But just the thought, just the thought of seeing them together.

His hands on her . . .

I couldn’t breathe.

“Cletus?” Ashley’s soft voice met my ears, the uncertainty in it shamed me.

I’d come too close to losing my temper. I hadn’t lost my temper in years. I did yoga. I meditated. I composed lists. I plotted and planned. But I never lost my temper.

“I have to go.” I marched to my mat and rolled it up, still seeing red.

“Hey, so, where are you going? Want company?” Sienna tried to sound natural and almost succeeded. She was a good actress.

I shook my head, unable to respond. I was still too angry and I was fixating. Images of Jackson and Jenn, together, him touching her bare skin, holding her waist, looking into her impossible eyes, kissing her . . . a repugnant collage of vile imagery flashed through my mind.

I hated this.

I swallowed, nauseous and dizzy.

I hated this.

I couldn’t stop fixating. The images wouldn’t stop.

I hated this.

I didn’t have control of myself.

And I hated it.



“I was wrong.”

Billy glanced up from his desk, his eyes were large with surprise.

I didn’t wait to be invited in. This was only the second time I’d been to his impressive office. The first time was the week after our momma died last year. I brought him soup and bread for lunch to make sure he wasn’t in danger of an emotional breakdown. He hadn’t been.

This time, I was here because of my own questionable emotional well-being.

Billy waited until I closed the door before asking me, “What were you wrong about?”

“Billy.” I blinked at him once, maintaining a frown of intense irritation. “Really?”

He lifted his eyebrows like he didn’t know what I was talking about.

“Firstly, I’m never wrong. So it’s obvious what I’ve been wrong about.”

“I can think of at least a hundred things you’ve been wrong about. You’re going to have to be more specific.”

I shook my head at my brother, placing the food I’d brought for lunch on his conference table. “You disappoint me, brother. Teasing me at a time like this.”

The side of his mouth lifted with a commiserating smile. “Jennifer Sylvester.”

“Precisely.” I winced. Just hearing her name made breathing hard. “How could I let this happen?”

Billy’s smile deepened, though his eyes communicated pity for my situation. “You didn’t let it happen, Cletus. No one would let it happen, just like no person would knowingly surrender their sanity for the sake of getting laid.”

“That’s not what this is about. It’s not about getting laid.”

“I know,” he said, and he did know. His eyes and tone were sober with how intimately he knew.

“Although . . .” I dipped my head to the side as I considered how much of my sanity I would surrender for a lifetime of making love to Jennifer Sylvester. “Getting laid is definitely part of it.”

“Absolutely.” Billy’s eyes moved to some spot behind me and lost focus.

I got the sense Billy was fixating—insomuch as Billy fixated—and I didn’t want to interrupt. So I took advantage of his quiet, thoughtful pause to unpack the food on his well-appointed conference table.

When a full minute had passed, I interrupted his contemplative silence. “What kind of soup do you want? I have French onion and vegetable barley.”

“Vegetarian?” He made a face, standing from his big chair and crossing to the table.

“I also brought hamburgers.” I motioned to two closed food containers flanked by French fries.

“Much better.” He claimed a seat next to mine and reached for the burger. “Tell me what happened.”

“Eh . . .” I scratched my chin. “I don’t know if that’s a good idea.”

“Why?”

“It involves blackmail.”

His eyebrows jumped. “You blackmailed her?”

“No. She blackmailed me.”

His eyebrows jumped higher. “Come again?”

“She blackmailed me. Jennifer was blackmailing me. Just for a week though—or at least I thought she only had the video for a week—mostly, I helped her because I wanted to.”

“I don’t follow. You might as well start from the beginning.”

“Fine.” I unwrapped my burger and discarded the top bun. Top buns were superfluous. “She accidentally videotaped me taking evidence from the sheriff’s office.”

Billy choked on a bite and reached for his fountain drink. His eyes continued to bulge as he swallowed a large gulp, then asked with a raspy voice, “Who was it this time?”

“Pardon?”

“Who was it? Duane? Beau?” He hesitated, a flicker of intense concern flashing behind his eyes before he asked, “It wasn’t Jethro, was it?”

“No! No, nothing like that. It was evidence on . . . on—” I huffed, placing the burger back in the container. “I’m not going to tell you.”

“Why?”

“Because you don’t want to know.”

Billy’s narrowed stare moved over me, assessing; eventually, he nodded. “Fine. She videotaped you taking evidence and then she blackmailed you. To be honest, I wondered why you decided to help her. I knew it wasn’t out of the kindness of your heart, at least not at first.”

“You’re right. I wasn’t going to help her. I don’t fight other people’s battles anymore.”