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Bad Wolf(3)

By:Jo Raven

       
           



       

"To you?" I snap, angry at having to accept his help after all, and at how good he smells, pressed so close to me-unlike the other douchebag from before.

"Well, sure, if you like," he replies easily, "you can confess to me."

"Shut up. Just …  shut up." All I want is to shove his arrogant ass away-only he's already opening the door with his free hand, and we're stepping out into the muggy air of the back alley.

The beat of the music falls away as the door swings closed behind us. His hand is still clamped on my elbow, and I'm grateful for that as we go down two steps I hadn't noticed.

Finally on level ground, I take a deep breath stinking of trash and urine and probably vomit, when I notice two figures a few feet away.

I don't know the girl she's talking to, but I'd know the one with her back to me in a dark room full of people.

Sydney, her red curls cascading on her shoulders, her skirt barely covering her ass. I helped her into that skirt earlier tonight.

My head is spinning despite the fresh air and the quiet.

What is she doing here? I expected to see her with her friends, but instead she's talking to an unfamiliar girl with pixie features and pigtails, a girl in a long overcoat, in spite of the heat coming off the asphalt. She has that coat open, showing something to Sydney.

The guy still holding my elbow-I'd forgotten about him for a second-hisses a curse under his breath, and yanks me backward.

What's going on here? All those little bags hanging from the inside of the pixie girl's coat …  Oh God. Are those drugs?

I open my mouth to call for Syd, and his other hand presses over my mouth, stopping me.

"Come on," Fen whispers in my ear, lifting his hand, and his scent hits me again, spicy and mouthwatering. "We're going back inside." He hauls me up the two steps and back into the club before I can formulate any objection. "Now."

"Wait. What are you doing?"

"Saving your ass." He's still hauling me deeper into the club, his grip like a vise. "You don't wanna be a witness to a drug deal, trust me. Stay the fuck away from that girl."

"I can't."

"Steer clear of any of-" He stops so suddenly I almost fall and faces me. "What? Why can't you?"

I swallow hard. "She's my bestie."

We've stopped near the long expanse of the bar. The guy's looking at me, and I stare at his face. God, he's so hot. His mouth is pursed in annoyance, his eyes narrowed, and he's gorgeous.

That expression …  it reminds me of someone I used to know, and that feeling of recognition hits me again.

"She's bad news," he says, and jabs a finger in the direction we came from. "You'd stay away from her if you had any fucking sense."

Or maybe I'm mistaking annoyance for recognition? "Yeah? And what about your buddy? Talk about bad news."

His mouth tightens more. "Stay away from that asshole, too."

Someone is calling my name, and turning, I see Sydney. She's waving at me, all bright smiles. Jeez. "All I'm saying is, you keep really bad company, so you're one to talk."

He shakes his head. "You don't know shit. Seb is my goddamn brother."





Chapter Two





Jarett





I know her. I know exactly who she is, and I'm about to say her name-when her junkie friend appears and starts dragging her away from me.

Starting after them, I get distracted by memories pelting me. Small things, like her taking my hand as we walk down the street, of talking about her family, about school, about everything. She talked, and I listened, and it felt like home for a while.

Until she moved away, vanished from my life, and I tried to erase every memory I had of her.

Yeah, I know her name. Augusta something. Wellston? Walton? I'm pretty sure it's her. But she doesn't call herself that.

Gigi. That's what she calls herself. I remember now.

Gigi.

She's gone in the dancing crowd, and I'm still following her. I force myself to stop before I make such a big mistake. Things have changed. I keep forgetting that. I'm not the boy who used to walk with her down the street.

I've fucking changed, falling into the spin of the world around me, carried away on the current, out of control.

What would Connor think of me if he saw me these days, I wonder. He'd have lectured me about right and wrong, about ethics, and then made me do a hundred push-ups and skip dinner as punishment. That was his parenting method. His philosophy of education.

But Connor's dead. Everyone who's ever given a damn about me is dead or dying.                       
       
           



       

So what the hell does it matter?

Maybe this is who I really am. Bad to the core. Everything I've done follows me. You can't outrun your own shadow, right?

Two shapes detach themselves from the bar and approach me. My back stiffens as Mav and Angel come to stand on either side of me.

"Chasing skirts tonight?" Mav drawls, tapping an unlit cigarette on his Marlboro pack. "Who's the chick?"

Fuck. "Nobody."

"Well, little Ms. Nobody has a nice rack," Angel says, and I don't have to look at his face to know he's leering like a sick old fuck. "Where's your brother?"

"I'll look for him."

"You do that," Mav says, "and then we hit the next club. This one was a bust. Oh and … " He slams a hand on my shoulder, gripping tight, " … you wanna get your dick wet, dude, go ahead, but not on a work night, you hear me?"

"Loud and clear," I grind out between my teeth. "Get your paw off me."

He tsks. "Attitude. Need to work on that, Jarett."

My whole body is tense, strung like a wire. At least their focus is off her now. "Should I get hold of my brother and go, or stay and chat?"

"Maybe you want my fist in your face?" Mav's grip tightens, until my teeth are gritting from the pain. "Huh?"

"Oh man … " Angel tugs on his beard and rolls his eyes. "Let him go, Mav. We should get out of here and hit the next joint, see if we can get rid of the merch tonight."

Mav still doesn't let go, and adrenaline spikes in my blood, turning my vision red. "Go on, Jarett. Find your good-for-nothing brother and come find us at the exit. Just don't get lost running after any more skirts, we clear?"

"Got it," I force out, my hands clenching at my sides. "Now hands. Off."

Mav chuckles and lets go, amused because he's top dog, and I'm dirt under his shoes. I'm used to that. Been that way all my life. What they don't know is that I'm not dirt, I'm a thorn that will cut through them, and I won't be put down.

Not as long as I have a goal.

Such as getting my brother out of this fucking mess and through the night in one piece. Living one day at a time. Following through with my promise to myself that I won't lose anyone.

Not again.



Seb grumbles and fights me when I haul him away from a new chick he's found and is slobbering all over, but I'm having none of that fucking shit.

"Stop thinking with your damn dick for a minute and move." I yank him through the club, anger churning in my gut. "We need to go."

"What's the damn hurry? I was just about to-"

"-get your rocks off? I don't give a shit, dude. We're blowing this joint right the hell now. Mav's orders."

"Well, fuck." He stops fighting me at last and follows me to the front exit-not that I loosen my grip on his forearm. "Job fell through?"

"Yeah."

"Who fucked it up this time? Was it Mav and Angel, or-?"

"Shut your trap, Seb, anyone can hear you. Jesus Christ."

"You're not my nanny, man."

Really? My fist itches to fly into his smug mouth that spews all that stupid-ass stuff every day, with no real repercussions.

Know why?

Cuz I'm the whipping boy. If the gang are pissed with him, they turn to me. I'm the responsible brother, even if I'm younger. I'm the sensible, unemotional, handy muscle, a watch-out for the gang's dealings and for keeping my brother in line.

I'm my brother's-and my mother's-keeper.

And I'm lucky to have that, to have them. I just have to remember it in times like this when my patience runs thin and I'm in danger of decking Seb and leaving.

Leaving has always been my default state. It's an urge I struggle with every morning. I could just walk out, walk away and not look back.

So damn tempting.

"There you are." Angel throws Seb a hard look. "Let's go."

We step out of the club and hurry toward Angel's car, an old silver Jaguar. Maverick lights up and sucks hungrily on his cigarette as Angel unlocks the car with a beep, and we climb inside, not speaking a word.

It's midnight, according to the glowing numbers on my phone, and weariness is a weight around my neck. Weariness and tension, never releasing its claws, always coiling my muscles tighter until my head pounds and my vision blurs.

This fucking shit I'm forced to do, day in and day out, every goddamn night of the week. Of my life.

It'll never end, will it? I've always known, and yet I kept hoping, until I realized there is no fucking way out.