“With a mouth like that, right now you’re my bad girl. That’s all you are.” My pussy clenches at his words. I can’t help that it turns me on. But I have to remember that this can’t happen. This is wrong.
“Bad things will happen if you come in here.” I tell him the truth and regret it when his eyes heat with lust and his lips pull into a smirk.
“You want me that much? You really can’t control yourself?” he asks with a cocky grin.
It pisses me off. And I hold on to that anger so I can push him away like I know I should.
“Fuck you!” I grab the edge of the door and try to slam it shut, but hit boot hits the door, blocking it.
For the first time ever in his presence, I feel scared. I don’t know why, but a sense of danger takes ahold of every part of me, and I race to get to my gun. I grip it with both hands and point it at him as he takes a step inside.
His eyes go wide when he sees the gun pointed at him. He raises both of his hands, “Whoa, baby, what are you doing? Put the gun down.”
My hands tremble slightly, and I feel so fucking insecure. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. I don’t trust anything that I’m feeling. My hand starts shaking. It’s never done that. I’ve always had control. But I’ve never been in this situation before, either. I don’t even know why I grabbed it.
“Hey, it’s alright.” He keeps his hands raised. “You really want me to go? I’ll go.”
I don’t know what I want. I slowly aim the gun down and keep my head down. I’ve fucked this up so fucking bad.
“I know I push you. I didn’t mean to threaten you though.” I watch in my periphery as he walks toward me like one would a wounded animal. And that’s exactly how I feel. I’m so fucked up. So worn out and torn.
“I’d never hurt you, Tonya.” I shouldn't believe him, but I do. He reaches out slowly and grabs my gun. I think about resisting, but I don't want to. He gently places it on the end table and looks at me like he doesn't know what to do with me.
He takes his gun out, making sure to point it away from me and quickly sets it on the end table next to mine.
He cups my chin in my hand. “I’m sorry I pushed you like that. I really thought you were just pushing me back.”
“I don’t know what I’m doing,” I say weakly, and look up at him through my thick lashes.
A soft chuckle rumbles through his chest. “I don’t either, baby.” He lowers his lips to mine. He whispers with his full lips barely touching my own, “I won’t hurt you. And I won’t let anyone else hurt you, either.”
I open my eyes and see sincerity in his dark stare.
“You gotta stay away, though.” My gaze drops to the floor. I try to push him away, but it’s a weak and useless effort.
“Not from me.” His words pull me back from the defeated place I’d sunk to. “I want you. But they can’t know. No one can know, and you need to stay away from them.”
His chest rises and falls, and his breathing is the only thing I can hear other than my own heart thumping in my chest.
This is dangerous. It’s forbidden. But I want it. I want him.
“Tell me you want me, baby.” His voice is confident, but I can tell he needs the reassurance. He needs me to tell him I want him, too. And I do. I desperately want him.
“I want you.” Before the last word leaves my lips, his hands grip my hips and he pulls me under him as he falls onto the sofa.
His fingers tickle my skin as they travel under my shirt, slowly lifting it up past my breasts.
“I'll make you feel better, baby.”
“Yes,” I whisper. Please. I need to feel better.
“You’re just too tempting. I fucking need you under me.” He stares at my breasts as he pulls the cup of my bra down and pinches my hardened nubs. It sends a direct shot of need to my clit.
A soft smile plays at his lips, but he looks into my eyes with concern.
“You really thought I’d hurt you?” He pulls my shirt over my head, taking the bra with it and lifts me into his lap. His arms wrap around my waist as he leans back against the sofa.
I feel ashamed, so I try to look away, but he cups my face and turns my head so I have to look at him. “Don’t do that.”
“I'm sorry,” I say barely above a murmur. I am. I'm so damn sorry.
He smirks a bit and says playfully, “I had it coming, messing with a bad girl like you.”
He takes my lips with his, and I feel every emotion crash down around me. The only one left standing is lust. I moan into his parted lips and let his hands roam my body. I need him to take me away. I need to feel something else.