A salon trip to look halfway presentable? A stylist came to the mansion.
But actually getting the money? That was much harder.
William introduced me to Beth Hartly, my father’s pretty redheaded investor of choice. While she worked over the agreement with the trust, Albert Wright, our banking representative, ordered another round of escargot for the table.
I was more a chili-cheese fries type of girl.
And, after one bite of the shelled creations on the plate? My stomach agreed.
I excused myself to the restroom as my financial and legal teams discussed how to untangle my trust from my father’s graduation clause. I darted into the stall before the escargot slithered its way back out.
Not pleasant.
Especially with an attendant waiting in the washroom to assist the restaurant’s patrons. It probably wasn’t in her job description to help them to their feet after they threw up half their lunch. She offered me a clean, warm cloth and said nothing as I washed and dried my face.
It didn’t soothe me. My stomach still fluttered. Maybe the escargot turned into butterflies.
I’d have to Google exactly what the hell I ate when I returned to the table.
If I made it to the table. Gross. My stomach still hadn’t settled. I hid in the stall again. To her credit, the attendant said nothing. I shakily emerged. This time I gave a nervous shrug.
“The food really is excellent here…” Awkward. “Don’t take that as a Yelp review.”
“We’re pleased to hear it, Miss.”
I hurried out of the restroom, grateful for the refilled ice water at my seat. I didn’t press it against my flushed forehead, but I guzzled it and tried to freeze whatever upset my stomach. Too bad I couldn’t blame the snails—they made me eat snails? This was the third day I wasn’t feeling great. Too much stress, too little sleep.
Not nearly enough Zach.
“Well, Shay,” William said. “Looks like this will be an easy fix. Your father intended the inheritance to be awarded at an appropriate age, whenever you’d require it. We can agree a college graduation was an arbitrary date, especially as he…seemed to forget precisely when you would graduate. As you’re twenty-one and he has regrettably passed, his requirements are satisfied. Provided Mr. Harden also agrees to the change in terms, your trust can be released.”
“Zach has to agree?” I asked.
“I hope that won’t be an issue?”
“He should be okay with it.”
“Good. I understand you aren’t on the best terms with your step-brother.”
Yeah…there weren’t many more terms I could be on with Zach. We were as termed as any couple could get without actually admitting our feelings.
The only problem was that Zach hadn’t been around much.
At all.
Ever since his return from Washington, and that feral, passionate night spent on the floor of the library, he pulled away. Became distant. Worse part was, I expected it.
But it didn’t make it hurt any less.
Zach said the doctor would eventually decide if he was fit to return to the SEALs. He waited on the verdict, but I knew the answer already.
A resounding yes, and Zach would be gone.
The SEALs were his life. He trained specifically for their demands and literally rebuilt himself after the mission that nearly killed him. Students changed majors because a textbook gave them a paper-cut. Zach was hospitalized for months, and he would have sewn his body together with fishing line just to get back to the fight.
He’d be the most romantic, sexy, and unbelievably noble man…if he hadn’t broken my heart. In a few months, he’d be gone. And then?
No matter how wonderful our nights were together, I had to prepare for him leaving. It wasn’t worth letting him into my life if it’d be torn apart once he deployed.
“And now, Shay, you want to start a charity?” Beth tapped her water glass. “You realize investments are much safer and can guarantee a solid return on your money.”
I nodded. “Well, yes, but I’m not looking for a return on my money. I want to begin a charity or a program of some sort. Something like a tutoring or afterschool initiative for kids. Or even a camp. I’m open to ideas.”
“But the investments—”
My stomach flipped.
Not again.
I didn’t have time for an excuse. I rushed to the bathroom, humiliated myself, and accepted the soft words of the attendant who offered me a mint this time.
I staggered to the table just as Beth chuckled to the men.
“A children’s program. Can you imagine? She’s obviously never had a baby.”
Click.
And just like that, it clicked.
It wasn’t a good click. More like the starting gun to a new course of nausea and confusion and about a billion different complications.
No way.
Not possible.
William called my name. “Shay, are you feeling well? Maybe we should postpone the charity talk for another day. I’ll call around for representatives of like-minded programs. They might wish to meet with you for investment opportunities.”
We shook hands, but I bolted, nearly forgetting my purse at the table. I didn’t remember making it to the parking garage, and I only remembered the limo once I circled the lot looking for my car.
The humid, smoggy air did wonders.
Just because I was a little nauseous didn’t mean I was…that. I didn’t want to say it, especially since the pack of pills in my purse were part of my morning ritual…even if the time I took them shifted as I occasionally overslept…
I counted the days in my head and didn’t like the answer. So I did it again until I missed a number, found the error in my favor, and decided to stick with it until I was safe and secure and strapped into the limo.
I rapped on the glass, forgetting the driver had a speaker button. He was accommodating and dropped me at a nearby drug store, no questions asked. I couldn’t say the same for the cashier. I covered the test with a candy bar, but she still price-checked it. I should have thrown up on her pristine floors just for her snotty look.
The driver delivered me to the estate, but I wasn’t sure how to dismiss him. He accepted a flustered goodbye as I tripped over myself into the mansion and rushed into the nearest bathroom.
I didn’t recognize the blue tile.
Had I ever been in this powder room before?
It didn’t matter. I locked the door in case Zach finally decided to show up and ripped open the box. The contents flew everywhere like a piñata chalk-full of unfortunate surprises.
This was silly. I was on the pill. Even if Zach and I got a little too close for comfort without a condom, the pills worked just fine. I was overreacting, and I’d laugh about this later.
…Because I sure as hell wasn’t laughing now.
I could either sit and do my thing or use a small container to catch the specimen. Ew. I didn’t like the odds on me doing either of the requirements correctly.
I opted to sit, but the quirky diagram drawn on the inside of the box made taking the test look like Olympic gymnastics. Sit, crouch, bend, flail. I wished my hands weren’t shaking so damn much.
But then it was done, and I resolved never to speak of it again. I rested the test flat on the counter per the instructions and waited.
My cellphone rang, and I nearly swore. I read the name. Azariah. Now was the worst time to chat with her.
But my trembling fingers grazed the wrong button. The call connected. I grimaced and cradled the phone.
“Hey.” I checked the call timer. Two minutes to go. “Can I call you back? I’m kinda busy.”
Azariah had none of it. “Look, girl. You know I love you.”
Oh, Christ, she had that tone. The settle-in-I-need-to-tell-you-how-bad-you-fucked-up-don’t-you-raise-your-voice-to-me lecture. I headed her off.
“It’s fine.” The panic rushed my words out, and I wasn’t sure they spouted in the right order. “I already accepted your apology. We’re fine. Heaven can piss off, but we’re fine. Seriously. I need to call you back. It’s fine though.”
“You’re saying fine a lot.”
“That’s fi—okay.”
“Look, Shay, I still feel shitty, and I know how to make it up to you.”
A time-machine? A condom? I was so not worried about what my friends thought of my money now.
“I got your party all organized,” she said. “Forget the blowout. We’re doing what you want.”
“That’s thoughtful.” Thirty seconds down.
“We’re calling caterers and waiters. Getting the real deal here, girl. Formal dress. Linen tablecloths. String quartet.”
One minute left. “Sounds great. I gotta go.”
“I just want you to know we are happy for you. I know I am.”
“Thanks.”
“And if that step-brother of yours does it for you, then fine. We all need a little vanilla sometimes.”
Oh, I had a bit too much vanilla now. I swallowed. “Thanks.”
“Do you love him?”
Dangerous question. I stilled. “I—?”
“Come on, now. Don’t front with me. Are you in love with him?”
Not the best question to ask a woman holding a pregnancy test. Traditionally, the answer would be of course! Other acceptable responses included Oh, Fuck! and When did that happen?
Not, I might be feeling something other than rage for the man who caused me to piss on a piece of plastic.
The indicator was ready.