"I still hate you," she said.
Chapter Five
Holy shit. Crap. Bugger.
Her legs were around his waist, his hands hot on her arse, which was just as well because she was pretty sure he was all that was holding her up. And if he let her go, she would melt into a puddle at his feet.
And that was so not going to happen.
She'd spoken the truth. She hated him. Hated that he seemed to be the only man capable of making her feel this way.
Weak.
She gritted her teeth and opened her eyes. The light was bright, probably because outside it was broad daylight and she was in an office with floor-to-ceiling windows and no blinds. She gazed out at the sky as an alternative to looking closer to home.
Yes, she hated him, and already her body craved him again. After he'd left her the last time, she'd gone through withdrawal symptoms similar to a drug addict. Had lost herself for a while. She would not go through that again.
As Declan's hands tightened on her ass, a ripple of residual pleasure ran through her and she winced. He was still lodged firmly inside her, filling her, stretching her. The old Declan had had amazing stamina. She had no intention of sticking around to find out whether or not that had changed.
"Put me down."
His fingers dug into the flesh of her buttocks and for a moment, she thought she was going to have to resort to physical assault. She was pretty sure she could take Declan if she had the element of surprise. He was bigger, stronger, but she was betting she was faster and she had a black belt in Tae Kwon Do. And his pants around his ankles were hardly likely to help his case. She was filled with a need to strike out, to release some of her pent-up feelings.
She tensed her muscles, a quick punch to the chest, twist free …
Before she could act on the impulse, he lifted her up slightly, pulling out. A sense of loss washed over her. Ignoring it, she loosened her legs from around his waist and put her feet on the ground. She'd avoided looking at his face; now she risked a glance. A sleepy, sated expression filled his eyes, but otherwise, his face was blank. She couldn't blame him. So was hers. She hoped. Steadying her legs, she let go of his shoulders. She could stand alone. Declan took a step back, reached down, and pulled up his pants, fastening the zipper but not bothering with anything else. He shoved his hands in his pockets and scrutinized her. His gaze dropped to her body, her totally bare-assed naked body, and his nostrils flared.
"You're beautiful."
The murmured words twisted things low down in her body. She ignored the sensation, because getting all happy because Declan thought her beautiful was a big mistake. Not quite as huge as fucking him against his office wall, but big. "Glad you think so."
"You shouldn't have come back if you didn't want this to happen."
She scowled. "Who said I didn't want it to happen? There's nothing like a nice screw against the wall to cement client relations."
A small smile curled his sensual lips. "Don't lie. It's been a long time for you."
And how the fuck did he know that?
"You were desperate," he murmured as though she'd asked the question out loud. "And so tight it was almost like the first time."
"I don't remember."
"Liar."
"Yeah, well, you were pretty damn desperate yourself."
He shrugged. "I was curious. You were the best fuck I'd ever had even at seventeen. What you lacked in experience, you made up for in enthusiasm."
She glared daggers at him, imagined him lying at her feet. It could be arranged. "Well, glad I indulged your curiosity."
"Glad to see you're still as enthusiastic."
Shit, she hated him. Had she mention that little fact? Was it worth saying again?
But she didn't like the way he was looking at her. His gaze focused on her breasts now, then lower and she had to fight the urge to cover herself. She'd never been body conscious, but this was self-protection.
She'd promised herself she could have him once. Now it was time to get out of there. Purge Declan and the old negative emotions from her brain, take control of her life, and move on.
She bent down, scooped up her clothes from the floor, slipped out from in front of him, and strolled across the office.
"I can't believe you had 'Declan is a prick' tattooed on your ass."
At the words, she glanced back over her shoulder. "If the name fits." It had been on a drunken night out with some of her army buddies. They'd all gone for tattoos, but Jess hadn't wanted a new one. In fact, she didn't want the old one, so she'd just changed it a little.
Ignoring the looming man, she pulled on her underwear, her pants, and shirt-most of the buttons were gone, but she tucked it in as well as she could-then sat down to put on her boots. Finally, she picked up her holster and slipped it over her shoulder, fastened the buckles, and felt ready to face him. He hadn't moved. Still stood there with his hands in his pockets, watching her. She returned the inspection. He must work out-he was ripped-no way would he get a body like that from sitting at a desk all day. Weights she reckoned. He'd certainly picked her up with ease.
But it would take more than a nice body to impress her. A nice body and a stunning face and a huge …
She shook her head and picked up her jacket. Definitely time to get out of there. Pulling her jacket on to cover the gun, she turned back to him. "So, as you don't need a bodyguard … " Her gaze drifted to the bandage on his arm, proof that he obviously did need a bodyguard. A little twinge of something stabbed her in the gut. Fear? Guilt? But if he didn't want babysitting, there was nothing she could do about it. She couldn't force him. "I'll cancel your account and"-she gave a casual shrug-"that's it. Lovely seeing you again after all these years. Try not to get shot and maybe we'll do it again in another ten." Or maybe not.
He didn't speak as she strolled across the room. The skin down her spine prickled as she waited for him to say something, anything. She didn't know what she wanted him to say, but the silence was deafening.
Until she reached the door. As she opened it to leave, he spoke.
"You can tell your boss that I think you were very … nice."
Ha, so he thought she was nice. Slimy bastard. What right did he have to think she was nice after dumping her unceremoniously all those years ago? Even after a night of trying to put them from her mind, the words still niggled as she entered the office the following morning.
She sort of forgot them as she walked through the big open-plan room that housed the operatives who weren't out on assignment or who were about to head out. Everyone's eyes followed her movements. Her gaze snagged on Dave, seated at a desk, arms folded, a smug grin on his face. Her eyes narrowed. If he wasn't careful, he'd be spending the next six months on the most boring surveillance jobs she could come up with.
Her, vindictive? Hell, yes.
She stalked across the room, stabbed her finger on the elevator button, and tapped her feet on the tiled floor. As the elevator doors opened, someone spoke from behind. "Are you going to show us this tattoo, Jess?"
She turned slowly, headed back the way she had come, halted in front of Steve, who had a cocky grin on his face. "Do you really want to piss off your soon-to-be-boss?" she asked sweetly.
The grin faded, but his eyes still gleamed with amusement. "No, boss."
"Well, don't mention tattoos again."
"Yes, boss."
She resigned herself to more hazing as she made her way up to Jake's office; she'd known Dave wouldn't keep quiet about the comment. There was no one in the outer office and she banged on the door and waited for the muffled come-in. It wasn't safe to enter Jake's office these days without knocking first.
But when she opened the door, Jake wasn't there. Instead Kim, his wife, sat behind his desk, long legs stretched out, her feet resting on the dark mahogany.
She looked positively radiant; marriage to Jake obviously agreed with her. Jess had known Kim for nearly five years now, since Jake had rescued her from her bastard of a husband and given her a job at Knight Securities. She'd always found it hard to relate to women, but Kim and her other best friend Dani were special. Though at this moment she didn't appear particularly friendly; her mouth was a tight line and she studied Jess through narrowed eyes.
"You have a tattoo, and you didn't tell me?"
She shrugged. "It never came up in conversation."
"How come I've never seen it?"
"Probably because we've never gotten naked together."
"True." She pursed her lips. "Has Dani seen it?"
"Yes?"
"So you've gotten naked with Dani but not with me?"
"Obviously." Actually, Dani had been one of the army buddies who'd all gotten tattoos together the night she'd had hers … updated. "Where's Jake?"
"Delayed. He said to start without him." This was their weekly meeting to go through all the open cases and make sure the staff was allocated where best suited. "And don't try and change the subject. You know you're not getting out of here until I've seen it."
She sighed. "Okay. But you're not to tell anyone." She wouldn't give the assholes the satisfaction. Let them guess. "And I mean not anyone."
"Not even Jake?"
"Especially not Jake."
Kim's eyes widened as Jess unfastened her pants, slipped them down, then turned her back, and pulled up the edge of her panties to reveal her left buttock.