Her smile fades, her eyes dimming. “Why would you say such a thing, Beckham? She’s yours. She’s all yours. She has your chin. Your ears. Your dimples.”
I try not to look, not to give in and let her think she’s winning.
“I had a vasectomy, Eva, before we were together. There’s no way this could’ve happened.” I swallow the hardness in my throat but it returns. “I don’t want to believe you could’ve tampered with anything at the clinic, but…”
“You don’t know what you’re saying.” Her eyes glass over until large tears fill at their brims. “We’re a family. You. Me. Our baby. To suggest that this wasn’t in God’s plan…”
She glances down, stroking the baby’s cheek.
“She’s beautiful, Beckham. We created her. She’s here because of our love.” Her voice is strained.
My stomach churns. Eva is not well. She hasn’t been for a long time.
“How are you going to take care of her?” I ask. “When you leave here. Do you have someone?”
Eva whips her attention toward me. “I thought we could come home with you. You have space for a nursery. A couple phone calls and we could have one set up within a day.”
She’s clearly fantasized about this a hundred times before.
“Eva…” Pressing my chin against my chest, I squint across the room at her. “Did you really think it would happen like that?”
“You’re a good man. I know you’ll do the right thing. I know you’ll come through for us. It’s not in you to walk away from family.”
She doesn’t know me. At all. I’m not some valiant prince. I’m a man with minimal responsibilities, reigning over a kingdom of beautiful women with my mighty cock in hand. I’m a playboy. My only commitment is to a life of debauchery.
“Remember what Dr. Brentwood said? About projecting?” I remind her. “I’m not a family man, Eva. I told you that from the beginning.”
“Then why were you at a fertility clinic?” she snaps back.
She has a point; a tiny point that doesn’t help my case.
“You knew you wanted to be a father, just not yet. Not now,” she says, her tone rushed and excited. “You knew there was a chance you might change your mind someday.”
“My mind was made up, Eva,” I groan. The sperm-freezing was nothing more than an insurance policy to keep me from backing out of my decision to get snipped.
“Sometimes we don’t know what’s best for ourselves,” she says, glancing down at the baby again. A tiny fist rises above the blanket and stretches out, grabbing onto the flannel fabric of Eva’s gown. She hums a little tune, something sweet and unfamiliar. I’m guessing it’s an Argentinian lullaby.
“I can’t be in your life, in her life, until we get the results of the test.” A sear of something sharp flashes across my chest. The thought of leaving the baby in Eva’s care for God knows how long unsettles me.
“She’s yours, Beckham. I would never lie to you, mi amor.” The humming continues.
Convincing Eva to agree to this is a tight walk along an unstable balance beam.
“And if you don’t think she’s yours, I have no problem moving back to Argentina,” she says a minute later, lightly raking her fingers through the baby’s jet black hair. “Raising her in my homeland.”
My fist clenches. The thought of the baby being whisked overseas despite not knowing if she’s mine was a possibility I hadn’t yet entertained. I wouldn’t put anything past Eva.
“Did you decide on a name yet, baby?” Eva smiles, looking up at me like we’re not locked in crossfire. “Something pretty for our pretty girl?”
Dr. Brentwood would be waving a checkered flag, telling me to abort the mission. Shut it down.
“You have to name her. It’s tradition in the Delgado familia. The fathers choose the names,” she says.
“I haven’t given it any thought.”
She holds the baby up, grinning ear to ear and examining her. “You’ll think of something for our little angel.”
“The test, Eva.” I clear my throat, crossing my arms. “There’s a clinic uptown that does them. Results come back in two-three days.”
“No!” She holds the baby against her chest, patting her back vigorously.
“I hoped we could do this the easy way.” I grab my phone, dialing my attorney.
“What are you doing?” she spits.
“Getting a court order,” I say. Roger answers. “Roger, I talked to her. Make it happen.”
“You’re making a huge mistake.” Eva shakes her head, bouncing the baby in her arms. “She is our daughter.”