Dane takes the bag and juts his elbow out, nodding for me to take his arm. "We have one more stop before we go."
He leads us back down the dark hall until we stop at the third door on the right. Dane knocks, and a moment later, a beautiful girl dressed in white pulls the door open. Velvet lined walls and a crystal chandelier draw us in. A three-fold mirror rests against the far wall, and a small changing curtain resides next to it.
"Welcome to the dressing room. Please, come in." She addresses Dane, but her gaze holds the floor.
"We're only here for measurements," Dane says, nodding my way. I lift my gaze to the white swan. She reaches for my arm, ushering me to a platform in the middle of the room. A small measuring tape resides on a nearby table, and she whips it out and slips it around my bust.
"Arms up, lovely," she says with a baby doll voice. "There we go."
She measures my bust, waist, and hips, all in front of Dane. Her touch isn't shy.
"What's your shoe size, sweetie?" Her honeyed tone is more for his benefit than mine.
"Seven and a half," I say.
She struts to the corner of the room where a small desk is illuminated by a fringed, Victorian lamp that gives off a warm, burgundy glow.
"I think I've got all I need," she says. "Master Townsend, I'll send these measurements to Elisabeth, and she'll pull the items once you tell her what you'd like."
"Perfect. Thank you."
Being the quick learner that I am, I take Dane's arm and follow him out of the dressing room.
"Everyone knows you here." I slap my hand across my mouth, realizing I've just spoken out of turn. My body flinches when his gaze snaps toward me.
Dane reaches for my hand, slowly pulling it off my mouth. He glances up and down the hall and then presses me against the wall by way of stepping into me.
"Bellamy." He leans in, his mouth grazing my ear. The racing of my heart has nothing on my inability to catch my breath. I wait for him to speak, only I hear him pull in a breath and stop, backing off of me with no explanation as to what that just was.
I get the feeling I'm wearing his patience to the bone.
"Let's get out of here." He doesn't stick his arm out this time, and I make sure I'm walking at least three strides behind him.
When we emerge among the living, the blinding afternoon light sears my eyes. I want to ask if he's mad at me, but I can't say a word. We walk in total silence back to Townsend Tower, and when we reach the end of our hallway, I refuse to let him walk away without at least telling me where I stand.
With my hand on the door to my office, I inhale, and say, "If I'm not right for you, tell me now."
Only he doesn't answer, and by the time I turn around, he's gone and his door is shut. I'm not sure he heard me, and I'm not sure I have the courage to march into his office and ask that question one more time.
I plop down in my chair and rest my head in my hand before reaching for a pen. It's the silver bullet pen I signed the consent form with. I spin it around as fast as I can like I'm playing spin the bottle.
Not that I've ever played spin the bottle.
I'm not sure what else there is for me to do until Dane tells me what's going on.
Two hours pass before desk phone rings. I clear my throat.
"Bellamy speaking."
"Do you trust me?" The sound of Dane's voice sends a pleasant electric current down the center of me that incinerates the bulk of my worries.
Am I already that conditioned to crave his attention?
I teeter a bit, not sure if I should tell him the truth and risk being kicked to the curb or tell him I wholeheartedly trust him.
"It's okay if you don't," he says.
Is this a trick question?
"I don't know you that well yet," I say.
"Correct answer." He ends the call, and within twenty seconds he's standing in front of my desk. "You don't trust me yet, Bellamy, and that's normal. You shouldn't trust me. That's something we build over time. Together."
He steps from the front of my desk to where I'm seated, pulling me up. We're separated by a couple close inches, our scents mingling.
"What you did earlier," he says, his jaw clenched. "At the Crystal Swan..."
"What did I do?"
"The fear, Bellamy. You thought I was going to hurt you when you spoke out of turn. You covered your mouth, and I saw it all in your eyes when you flinched. You can't be afraid of me, or this will never work."
"I'm not afraid of you," I hold my head up. "I'm afraid to disappoint you."
"Fear is fear." He lifts a hand to the side of my face. "I'm not a sadist, Bellamy. Fear and pain don't mix with pleasure. Not for me. I'll never degrade you, humiliate you, punish you publicly or painfully, and I'll never abuse you."
"I understand."
"Why don't we take a night to sleep on all this? I imagine it's been a pretty intense day for you."
My heart drops with a quick thud, and I'm ninety-nine percent sure he's in the process of changing his mind about me.
"Why is your face falling like that?" The corner of his mouth twists up, revealing a flash of a dimple I'd give anything to run my fingertips against. "You think I'm letting you go? You think I'm going to change my mind?"
I nod, my head falling. He lifts it up, forcing our gazes to meet.
"I'm taking things slow. This night, this extra time to think things over, it's all for you." I get lost in his stormy eyes for a split second and forget about the absurdity of this entire arrangement. "My goal is to keep you constantly turned on and thinking of me. There's no greater feeling than being wanted, Bellamy. So if you want to know what I get out of this power exchange? If it'll help put your mind at ease? There you have it. I get off on knowing a beautiful woman can't stop thinking of me. It's a power trip like you wouldn't believe, and one I'm fully addicted to."
"So it's about power and sex?" My voice comes out meeker than I intended, my vocal chords strained.
Dane's lips spread wide. "That's exactly what it's about. Sex is power, Bellamy."
He's exactly right.
Sex.
Is.
Power.
SEVEN
BELLAMY
"How was your first day of work, sweetie?" My mother asks as if she cares.
Summer and Kath buzz about the kitchen, doing final prep work for dinner as the younger kids start ushering in from the family room. Dad should be home soon.
"How's your boss?" Summer asks. "Do you like him? Or is it a her?"
I almost choke on my iced tea. "My boss is a man."
"Okay, so tell us about him," Summer pushes.
I crack a smile because it's all I can do to relieve the intense pressure building inside me. I've got to frame his description in a way that doesn't give away a thing, and for that, I need a bit more time.
Besides, I'm still trying to wrap my head around what I think of him.
"He's just a regular boss." My shoulder slinks up to my ear, and I shake my head. "You know, business suit. Doesn't smile much. No nonsense."
"I've never worked outside the home, so I wouldn't know." Mom juts her lips out and shrugs. If her eyebrows were lifted any higher, they'd fly off her face.
"I had a job once." Summer glances off to the left. "Dairy farm. Dirty job. Stinky. But it was fun. Oh, and then I nannied for the farmer's family. Two jobs. Same boss."
Kath doesn't speak; then again, she doesn't speak much. She's the calmest and quietest of the three of them. We don't know much about her life before she met my father, just that she was married to some preacher who abused her. None of us know an ounce of the details, and none of us have the poor sense to go prying.
"Do you think you'll like your new job then?" Summer hands me a stack of thin ceramic plates, and I make my way around the table with them.
"I think so. It's still early, but it looks promising." I set all but the last four plates, stopping momentarily to appreciate the buzzing that goes clear through to my fingertips.
What is that? Nerves? Excitement? Anticipation?
"What kinds of things will you be doing?" Mom asks.
My cheeks flush red out of nowhere. I'm not sure how Dane expects me to spend the afternoon in some sex lair and then go home like nothing happened. Scratch that. I'm not sure how I expected myself to be able to do that.
I drag in a slow, cleansing breath. "I don't know yet. I'll be assisting the CEO and probably doing a little bit of everything."
Literally.
"Dad's home!" One of my little brothers, True, comes ripping and snorting from down the hall, and the slam of the front door follows with my father's footsteps growing close.
It'd be really great if I could compartmentalize everything …
Starting now.
"Hey, champ." Dad ruffles True's head and works his way to my mom, kissing her cheek. "And how's Little Miss?"
Little Miss. The nickname I've still yet to outgrow even at twenty-two.
"Good." I take a seat halfway down the table, sandwiched between Waverly's spot and my other sister, Honor.
The doorbell chimes and several of us crank our necks to glance out the window.
"Who's here?" Honor crinkles her nose.
"Not sure," I mumble.