Archer's Voice(90)

Archer: I've gotten good at texting.



Me: No kidding, overachiever. Why am I not surprised?



Archer: You shouldn't be. Technology loves me.



I laughed, and then cried a little more, emotion overcoming me.



Me: Thank you for being with me. It made all the difference. You made me brave.



Archer: No, you were brave long before you met me. What's on your calm list?



I took a deep breath, thinking of the things that calmed me, soothed me, comforted my heart.



Me: The sound of the lake hitting the shore, a cup of hot tea, you. What’s on your calm list?



Archer: Flannel sheets, looking up at the stars, you.



Me: Hey, Natalie's pulling up at the curb. We're going to my dad's house to pack up a few more things. I'll text you later. Thank you, thank you. Ilu.



Archer: Ilu2.





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Me: Guess what? I'm back on the road.



Archer: What? How?



Me: I miss you. I need to come home.



Archer: Is this your home, Bree?



Me: Yes, Archer, my home is where you are.



Archer: Did you sleep this morning? You shouldn’t drive when you're tired.



Me: I'll be okay. I'll make lots of coffee stops.



Archer: Drive safely. Drive carefully. Come back to me, Bree. I miss you so much it feels like a part of myself is missing.



Me: Me too, Archer. My Archer. I'm coming back to you. I'll be there soon. I love you.



Archer: I love you, too. Always.





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Archer: Don't text me while you're driving, but next time you stop, let me know where you are.





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Archer: Bree? It's been a couple hours and I haven't heard from you…





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Archer: Bree? You're scaring me. Please be okay.





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Archer: Bree… please… I'm losing my mind. Please text me. Please be okay. Please be okay. Please be okay.





CHAPTER 27




Archer – Seven Years Old, May



"Archer!" my mama called, her voice sounding just a little bit scared. "Baby, where are you?"

I was sitting under the dining room table, the heavy tablecloth hiding me as I kneeled on the floor with my action figures.

I hesitated, but when my mama called me again, sounding more worried this time, I crawled out from under the table and went to her. I didn't like to hear my mama scared, but I also knew something was going on and I was scared too.

My mama had been whispering into the phone all morning and for the last half hour, she'd been upstairs stuffing clothes and other things into suitcases.

That's when I'd hidden under the table and waited to see what would happen next.

I knew that whatever was going on was happening because my daddy had come home last night, again smelling like some other lady's perfume and had slapped my mama in the face when she said his dinner was already cold.

I had a feeling my mama had finally had enough. And if I had to guess about who she was on the phone with, I'd say it was Uncle Connor.

My mama turned the corner into the dining room just as I was crawling out from beneath the table and let out a loud breath. "Archer, sweetheart," she said, putting her hands on my cheeks and bending down so that her eyes were right in front of mine. "You worried me."

"Sorry, mama."

Her face got soft and she smiled at me and moved the hair back from my forehead. "It's okay, but I need you to do something for me and it's really important. Do you think you can listen and do as I say and not ask questions right now?"

I nodded.

"Okay, that's good." She smiled, but then it disappeared and the worried look came back into her eyes again. "We're going to go away, Archer–me, you, and your… uncle Connor. I know that's probably confusing to you right now, and I'm sure you have questions about your daddy, but–"

"I want to go," I said, standing up taller. "I don't want to live with him anymore."

My mama just looked at my face for a couple seconds, her lips pressed together. She breathed out and ran her hand over my hair again. Tears came into her eyes. "I haven't been a good mama," she said and shook her head back and forth.

"You are a good mama!" I said. "You're the best mama in the world. But I want to live with Uncle Connor. I don't want my daddy to hit you anymore or make you cry."

She sniffled and wiped a tear from her cheek and then nodded her head at me. "We're going to be happy, Archer, do you hear me? You and me, we're going to be happy."

"Okay," I said, keeping my eyes on her pretty face.

"Okay," she said, finally smiling.

That's when our front door opened and Uncle Connor walked quickly inside. His face looked tight.

"You ready?" he asked, looking at my mama.