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Angelology(127)

By:Danielle Trussoni


and down a set of iron stairs to the dark, cold, city street below. He felt as if some cataclysm had hit

New York in his absence, and, through some trick of destiny, he had returned to a ravaged and empty

city.

Upper East Side, New York City

Sneja had ordered Percival to stay indoors, but after pacing the billiard room for hours waiting for

Otterley to call with news, he could not tolerate being alone any longer. When his mother’s entourage

had left for the night and he was certain that Sneja had gone to sleep, Percival dressed with care—

putting on a tuxedo and a black overcoat, as if he’d just been to a gala—and took the elevator down to

Fifth Avenue.

It used to be that contact with the outside world left him indifferent. As a young man, when he’d

lived in Paris and could not help but be confronted with the stench of humanity, he had learned to

ignore people entirely. He had no need for the ceaseless scurrying of human activity—the tireless toil,

the festivities, the amusements. It had bored him. Yet his illness had transformed him. He had begun to

watch human beings, examining their odd habits with interest. He had begun to sympathize with them.

He knew that this was symptomatic of the larger changes—those he’d been warned would occur,

and that he had been prepared to accept as the natural progression of his metamorphosis. He was told

that he would begin to feel new and startling sensations, and indeed he found that he recoiled in

discomfort at the sight of these pitiful creatures’ suffering. At first these odd sentiments had poisoned

him with absurd bouts of emotion. He knew very well that human beings were inferior and that their

suffering was in direct proportion to their position in the order of the universe. It was just so with

animals, whose wretchedness seemed only slightly more pronounced than that of humans. Yet

Percival began to see beauty in their rituals, their love of family, their dedication to worship, their

defiance in the face of physical weakness. Despite his contempt for them, he had begun to understand

the tragedy of their plight: They lived and died as if their existence mattered. If he were to mention

these thoughts to Otterley or Sneja, he would be ridiculed without mercy.

Slowly, painfully, Percival Grigori made his way past the majestic apartment buildings of his

neighborhood, his breathing labored, his cane aiding his progress along the icy sidewalks. The cold

wind did not hinder him—he felt nothing but the creaking of the harness about his rib cage, the

burning in his chest as he breathed, and the crunching of his knees and hips as the bones ground to

powder. He wished he could remove his jacket and unbind his body, let the cold air soothe the burns

on his skin. The mangled, decaying wings on his back pressed against his clothes, giving him the

appearance of a hunchback, a beast, a deformed being shunned by the world. He wished, on late-night

walks like this one, that he could trade places with the carefree, healthy people walking past him. He

would almost consent to be human if it would free him of pain.

After some time the strain of the walk overwhelmed him. Percival stopped at a wine bar, a sleek

space of polished brass and red velvet. Inside, it was crowded and warm. Percival ordered a glass of

Macallan scotch and chose a secluded corner table from where he could watch the revelry of the

living.

He had just finished his first glass of whiskey when he noticed a woman at the far end of the room.

The woman was young, with glossy black hair cut in the style of the 1930s. She sat at a table, a group

of friends encircling her. Although she wore trashy modern clothing—tight jeans and a lacy, low-cut

blouse—her beauty had the classical purity Percival associated with women of another era. The

young woman was the twin of his beloved Gabriella Lévi-Franche.

For an hour Percival did not take his eyes from her. He composed a profile of her gestures and

expressions, noting that she was like Gabriella in more than appearance. Perhaps, Percival reasoned,

he wanted to see Gabriella’s features too desperately: In the young woman’s silence, Percival

detected Gabriella’s analytic intelligence; in the young woman’s impassive stare, he saw Gabriella’s

propensity to hoard secrets. The woman was reserved among her friends, just as Gabriella had

always been reserved in a crowd. Percival guessed that his prey preferred to listen, letting her friends

carry on with whatever amusing nonsense filled their lives, while she privately assessed their habits,

cataloging their strengths and faults with clinical ruthlessness. He determined to wait until she was

alone so that he might speak to her.

After he had ordered many more glasses of Macallan, the young woman finally gathered her coat