His grin disappears and his hand loosens its hold. I immediately realise my mistake. I dropped the guard that was keeping my thoughts locked up. He heard me.
“You still love me?” he asks, now fully sitting on the bed and looking directly at me. I sit up and lean against the headboard.
“I do,” I whisper, afraid to look at him and see his reaction.
“You still think I’m beautiful? Even after all I did to you?”
“I do.”
“I’m still the same person,” he says, reaching out and lifting my chin so that I have no other choice but to look into his eyes.
I shake my head. “You’re not, Ty. You’ve changed so much. The things you’ve done. What you’ve said…” I shake my head again. “…You’re not the person I met when I first arrived here.”
He drops his hand and stands up. His anger is back. “You!” He points to me as he paces my room. “You’re the reason I’m like this. I can’t shift, I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can’t even fucking think and it’s all because of you! You’re taking over everything.”
“Tyler, what are you doing?” Talon’s loud voice has me nearly jumping off the bed in fear; I didn’t even see him come in.
“You okay?” he asks, looking me over.
I nod, looking back at Tyler who is frantically pacing the room. Turmoil has gripped him and he is running his fingers through his hair, pulling at it and looking rather manic.
“I can’t even touch Kate without thinking about you, touching you, being with you.” My eyes widen when those words come out of Tyler’s mouth. As much as I like hearing him talk about me, I don’t want to think about him touching Kate.
“Tyler, stop. Now!” Talon growls.
“If you want me out of your head then just do what you’ve gotta do! If rejecting me means you treat me better, then go right ahead! I’d rather be nothing to you than have you look at me with so much hate and disgust,” I spit out, yelling so loud I have both men stepping backwards.
Tyler’s body relaxes and his brows furrow with confusion. He takes a step forward and I back away, sitting as close as possible to the headboard and as far away as I can get from him. Talon watches his brother cautiously as he walks slowly towards me. Tyler climbs onto the bed and sits right in front of me. He rests both of his hands on my knees that are pulled up to my chest.
“You won’t ever mean nothing to me. To us.” He looks at Talon and back to me.
“I know I’ve said so many hurtful things out of resentment, but all those meaningless things don’t matter. You will always mean so much to me.” He rubs his thumb gently across my cheek and my wolf forces me to lean into his touch.
“I’m so sorry,” his voice is gruff and scratchy. I open my eyes to find his filled with tears. He removes his hand from my cheek, sniffs and clears his throat before leaning into me and leaving a kiss on my cheek. He moves away and whispers into my ear, “I still love you too.”
Tyler is gone before I can even process his words. What does that mean? Is he still gonna reject me? Is he gonna dump Kate?
“I love you too, you know.” Talon’s words clear my worried thoughts.
“Don’t glare at me like that, Angel. I mean it. I still love you and I’m sorry for all the shit we’ve put you through.”
I scoff at that and roll my eyes. They have no idea how much pain they’ve caused me and a few I’m sorry’s won’t have me crawling back into their arms anytime soon. This thought I do project to them.
“I understand that, so does Tyler. We’re going to make it right, I promise. Tomorrow night your parents are home. They want to have a dinner with all of us, but Tyler and I don’t want them to witness this…” He waves his hands in the air. “…hostility between us.”
“Are you fucking kidding me right now? Is this the only reason you two came here and “apologised” to me? You don’t want the Alpha to know what’s been going on between us? You want me on my best behaviour. Is that what you’re saying?”
He takes a few moments to talk, and I get my answer. “Jesus, that is what you’re saying.” I shake my head thrashing the pillows around before I lay back down with my back facing him.
“Don’t worry, Talon. I won’t tell them that my mates don’t want me,” I whisper.
He doesn’t move for a minute, just stands there watching me. I hear a shuffling and then the blanket is placed on top of me. I feel the bed droop behind me and then his face is hovering over my side looking down at me. He bends down and places a kiss on my temple.