Nixon makes sure that I fill him in on every detail regarding what happens when I’m amongst the witches, but I think he’s more interested in every detail relating to Phoenix. Phoenix and I get along really well, apart from Nixon and Axel she’s the only other person I’ve been able to open up to recently; it feels really great to have another girl to talk to. I’ve sent Daisy messages and even tried calling her a couple times, but every single time the call goes directly to voice mail and I’m guessing that budding friendship is a dud.
I sit at the end of the dock, one foot in the cold water, the other bent up to my chest with my arms wrapped around it tight. Resting my cheek onto my knee, I look out over the beautiful lake. The starry night glistens as it reflects across the water, but it’s not as peaceful tonight. I can hear the sounds of pack members laughing and chatting in the distance. I try to zone out, focusing instead on the sound the ripples make across the water, but eventually the sound of my own thoughts take over all other sounds.
I don’t know what I was thinking. Why the hell would Tyler come to my rescue and be by my side during my heat? I’m actually surprised Talon showed up. He didn’t want to be near me and he sure as hell made that known, but his presence still eased my pain. Tyler didn’t even bother to make the effort, and now I fear for the rage I might inflict on him when I lay my eyes on his beautiful blue ones. I worry that once I’m in the twins company, I’ll hurt them by blurting out all the horrible things I’ve been thinking. I’m afraid that in a moment of pure fury I’ll say things I don’t mean and end the mate bond that is already only hanging by a thread, a thread I’m holding onto for dear life. Of all my fears and doubts, losing them is still the biggest one of all. Even after all that they have put me through, the bond that we have now, and my wolf’s infatuated need for them keeps me from rejecting them.
I lift my head up from where it rests and look up at the stars praying for someone to give me the answers for all my questions. I let out a deep breath and close my eyes.
I hear the sound of creaking wood, I open my eyes quickly and look to my left to find Tyler in the darkness walking towards me from the other end of the dock. He has a green hoodie on and its pulled over his head, but the way he walks and the perfect nose and jawline peeking out of the hood tells me it’s him. I lift my foot up out of the water and try to stand, just as I’m about to reach for my shoes Tyler speaks.
“Angel, wait,” he says in a soft but firm tone.
I stand up straight leaving my shoes on the floor. I cross my arms over my chest and tilt my head to the side waiting for him to speak.
He walks straight up to me, his face filled with concern as he looks my body over.
“How are you doing?” He asks. Keeping his eyes fixed on my face, but avoiding my eyes. Faith is almost purring with content at his closeness. We haven’t had our mate this close to us in a while and I can feel her glee within me.
“How do you think I’m doing, Tyler?” I glare at him. “I’ve been in hell-”
“I’m not here to argue with you, Angel. I’m really not in the mood to argue right now,” he says, his voice getting louder and harsher.
I look down at the wooden dock beneath my feet as I rub my palm across my face. “Not in the mood?” I mumble, ever so softly.
I look up at him scowling. “I don’t want to argue with you, Tyler.” He crosses his arms over his chest as he stands firmly. I swallow and force myself to look at his sparkling eyes.
“I hate arguing with you. I hate everything that has gone on between us. I hate what our relationship has come down to.” I wave my hands in the air gesturing towards the two of us. I watch as the tension in his body disappears slowly, the hard glare he had on me moments before evaporating.
“I get what I did to you and Talon while I was with Drake…” He growls and I watch his jaw flex. “…was wrong. I get that, I really do. If I could go back and change everything I would. I don’t know how many times I’m going to have to apologise to you or him.” I nod my head in Talon’s direction when I see him walking out of the woods and towards us. I know he can hear everything I say, so I don’t wait for him to get to us as I continue to let it all out.
“I’ve done all I can do and I’ve said all that was left to say, but you continue to treat me like I’m a piece of shit. I know what I did hurt you and I know I pushed you away, but not once did I ever mean to hurt you.” My voice rises with emotion as I swallow the lump in my throat. When Talon reaches us he extends his hand out to me, but I take a step back and lift my hands up shaking my head. I can feel the pity radiating from them.