I was going through so much, blaming my brother and myself for allowing someone to hurt Angel so brutally. We tried to be there for her, but it was as if she was afraid to be around us. She closed herself off and continued to move back and forth every weekend to Point Bright. Alpha’s orders also prevented us from asking questions about the incident and trying to find out who had hurt her. He didn’t want to cause her anymore pain in bringing up the subject; I think he was afraid that if we found out who whipped her we would beat him to it and kill the fucker first.
“I will find the person responsible for hurting our mate and I will rip him to shreds,” my wolf, Jett, growls.
“You and me both!” I think back.
Tyler and I were under the impression that Angel was going to move to Point Bright indefinitely once she graduated, that was one of the main reasons I started dating Lucy exclusively. I needed to move on and be with someone that wanted me just as much as I wanted them, but that all changed when Angel came back that night and I found out she was my mate.
I regret all the terrible things I’ve said to her and all the terrible things I have done, but I needed to make her feel how much it hurts when you see the one you love with someone else. I couldn’t stop myself as the hurtful words flew out of my mouth, I couldn’t control lashing out at her. The memories of her promising to leave her ex and be with us, and then never following through entered my mind.
Every single time she went back to Point Bright to be with her boyfriend, then coming back smelling like him felt like a knife to the heart. I don’t want to hurt her, but I constantly keep doing it. I notice her doing stupid little things and it just sets me and my wolf off. Every time I see her with Nixon, every time I see her touching him, I want to release my wolf and let him do the damage he keeps promising me he will, but I know it will only cause an uproar in the pack and Angel will never forgive me for taking away her only friend.
“Uh hello? Talon, I’m talking to you!” Lucy waves her hands in front of my face, clearing my thoughts suddenly.
“Sorry, I’ve just have a lot on my mind,” I mutter, as I look back at the lake and the moons reflection shining off of it.
“You mean you’ve had a lot of Angel on your mind,” she says, in a snarky tone. I whip my head back to her and glare as my wolf takes over my words.
“You better quit with the attitude, she’s done nothing to you. Show her respect, she’s the Alpha’s daughter.”
Lucy quickly looks down at the ground in respect letting off a little whine. Her eyes are fixated on the wooden boards of the dock beneath us as she speaks, “I’m sorry, honey. I didn’t mean to be disrespectful… I just miss you. We’ve hardly spent any time together and you haven’t been over to my place since… well…” she looks up and moves closer to me. “…since she arrived.”
I run my hand over my jaw and let out a deep breath.
“I’ve been busy, Lucy. Alpha has us doing more duties now that he’s out of town more often trying to keep the rogues from entering the allied packs. I have more responsibilities now.”
I step away from her. Her whining and begging is a major turn off and right now I just need distance.
She nods her head. “I get that,” she drones on, but I know she doesn’t get it at all. My brother and I have to work hard for our place in the pack. Her parents are part of this pack and she was born into it, therefore she is accepted through default. Alpha accepted my uncle, Tyler and I with the condition that we make sure our loyalty is shown. As long as we do, we will always have a place and be welcome into his pack. We are loyal to this pack, we love this pack as if we were born into it and I would never do anything that would make Alpha question my allegiance because he’s been so good to us. I fear that that will all change once he finds out how Tyler and I have been treating his daughter.
It’s the only thing I fear… except the fear of losing Angel forever.
“Honey? Did you zone out again?” Lucy’s whiny voice kills all thoughts once again. As her face appears again, she stands waiting with a hand on her hip.
She walks slowly towards me and runs her hands up my arms. My wolf growls from within me, but I make sure not to voice it loud enough that she can hear.
“We haven’t been together since she got here. I really miss you,” she whispers, running her hands towards my neckline.
“Get her hands off us… now!” Jett roars inside my head, instantly giving me a headache.
I take a step back. We haven’t had sex since Angel showed up. I just can’t bear to follow through with it, not when my wolf is constantly screaming at me from the inside whenever Lucy puts her hands on me.