She snaps her head up and stares at me. Her face is set in a positively mutinous line, something I've never seen on her before. "Happy now?"
"Nonny … "
Her brow creasing, she looks back down at the yogurt. "You should've told me."
"I'm sorry."
"Forget it." She polishes off the yogurt in three big spoonfuls. "I'm running late."
I glance at the clock on the wall. She has plenty of time.
"We need to talk."
"Yeah, like weeks ago."
"I'm trying to talk now."
"Like I said, I'm running late. I have some things to do before school." She turns around and goes into her room.
I make myself fresh coffee and drink it silently, blinking away the tears burning in my eyes. What do I do now? I've never felt so alone before. Even though the people in Lincoln City turned their backs on me, Nonny has been always by my side. I didn't realize until now how much that meant to me.
She leaves the condo soon after, backpack slung over one shoulder. She doesn't say goodbye, doesn't even look my way. It's as though I'm dead to her.
My phone beeps. I pick it up listlessly, then notice a text from my best friend Traci. She's from Lincoln City, like me, and her family lost everything because of my dad's Ponzi scheme. It's a miracle that she's gotten over the betrayal and anger, and I'm grateful. I can use a friend.
Are you okay? I saw the articles about you and Elliot. You know I'm here for you if you need a shoulder or sounding board or anything.
Suddenly it seems like a great idea to see her. Traci's smart and discreet. If nothing else, she'll cheer me up and help figure out what to do about Nonny.
I text her back. I'm okay, but I could use a friendly person to talk to. You have any free time?
Her response is almost instant. Of course. Today or tomorrow? I can take an early lunch.
I look at the closed door to Elliot's office. Today is good. Time?
Eleven thirty at Galore? It's a sandwich shop not too far from the office.
I remember that place. Elliot took me there after our courthouse wedding because I was nearly fainting with hunger. Has it been only two months since we got married? I know the place. See you there.
I check the time. Almost ten. I write a short note for Elliot, then go back to the bedroom to put on some makeup. Traci won't care, but I don't want to run into any acquaintances of Elliot's and cause embarrassment by looking so haggard and tired. Everyone already knows about my stripper past and will have drawn whatever conclusions they're going to draw. I don't want to look pathetic over it. I haven't done anything illegal or unethical.
I carefully apply concealer and foundation to hide the dark circles under my eyes, then put some color onto my cheeks. The lip-gloss adds a nice shimmer to my mouth, and I pull my hair back in a ponytail and put a pair of big sunglasses over my face. I'm not ashamed of what I've done, but at the same time I don't really want to deal with people recognizing me either.
By the time I step inside Galore, it's only eleven twenty. I shrug mentally. Being early never killed anyone.
The sandwich shop is nice and cool inside, A/C running low and ceiling fans doing the rest. The dark wooden tables and chairs are empty now, but soon they'll be crowded. I get an order of a ham and cheese sandwich plus chips and Coke Zero and take a table in the back, thinking it'll give us the most privacy. Traci shows up at eleven thirty five.
She struts in like a model, dark brown curls bouncing around her shoulders. Her carefully mascaraed hazel eyes are bright on her round face. She's dressed in a fashion similar to before-her tight skirt a little too short to be professional but long enough to pass muster. The deep purple sleeveless top has a plunging V-neck, but again, it covers just enough to be okay for an office setting. Her stilettos look like something Torquemada might have designed, but she seems perfectly fine in them.
She spots me easily in the nearly empty shop and joins me with a bowl of chicken and veggie soup, a half sandwich and an iced coffee. I stand up, and we hug tightly before taking our seats.
"That's all you're eating?" I ask.
"Yeah. Don't have time to work out these days, so I gotta cut calories."
"I had no idea you were so busy."
"Hey." She reaches over and squeezes my hand. "I always have time for my best friend."
"Thanks, Traci. It really means a lot to me."
"I'm just worried about you, that's all. But you seem to be taking the … well, you know, the news pretty well."
"I don't care what the tabloids say."
She peers at me while sucking her coffee up through a straw. "Is Elliot okay?"
"I … " I hesitate. Elliot is okay with my past as a stripper, just not the other stuff. But something holds me back, and I can't tell her the whole truth. I don't know if it's because of the way she abandoned me when I was at my lowest or if it's something else, but my gut tells me to keep my mouth shut. "I mean, he already knew, so … " I shrug, not wanting to lie outright to her face.