That turned me on like nothing else. I didn't doubt that he was the kind of guy who was generous in bed, but I had no idea how he had managed to detect that I was kind of submissive. Not all Omegas were, despite the Alpha/Omega dynamic, but I was. I liked the idea of being ravished by an Alpha.
And I knew that when my turn came, he'd give me an incredible orgasm. It was common knowledge that sex with your fated mate was supposed to be the best sex you'd ever have in your life. This was proving it. The sensations coursing through my body right now were incredible, unparalleled by any experience I'd had before.
"You want me to come in your ass?" he asked in a whisper, his lips brushing my ear and his breath humid.
"Yeah," I said. "I want to feel you explode inside me."
That was the cue he needed. He roared magnificently as he released his pleasure, jetting inside me and filling me up with his seed. He squeezed me tightly in his arms, almost painfully, as his pleasure took over him and made him shudder spastically, the tension releasing in waves.
He had had a long orgasm. When he finally finished, he rolled off of me, giving me a chance to sit up and stretch. My own cock was sticking out, rock hard and dripping, desperate for a chance to release its own orgasm.
He was lying flat on his back, so I crawled up to him and placed my face over his. "Is it my turn now?" I asked. "Pretty please?"
"When you ask nicely, like a good little Omega … " he said, trailing off. He sat up and flipped me over easily so that my back was pressed up against his chest, which was sticky with sweat. He reached in front for my cock, his large fingers dancing over it with a grace that I hadn't expected.
It didn't take much teasing for me to become wild with lust, squirming in my seat. In response to this, he wrapped a strong forearm around me and held me tight, working my cock faster, pumping it with the same urgency I felt.
"I'm gonna come," I said quietly."
"Good. Do it."
At those words, I lost myself, shuddering in his grip and shivering as the pleasure wracked my body. Drops of come trickled down my cock and his hand as the orgasm coursed through me. I was lost in a haze of bliss, aware only of Xander's body enveloping mine. I could smell his sweat and my sex and it only added to my pleasure.
"Damn," I said, as I came down, aftershocks making me shudder even more. "That was literally the best orgasm I've ever had in my life."
"Same," he said. "This fated mates thing is serious."
"Isn't it?" I said, leaning back. "This is how I know you're the one. The sex is out of this world."
He laughed. "Seriously, though. I feel like I didn't understand the gravity of the concept until now. I mean, you could write off the compulsion as a crush, but this is strong evidence."
"Yeah," I said. "I understand. A part of me always thought the legend was bullshit, but now I'm convinced."
"Me too," he said. "I'm glad you said that. I feel like everyone doubts it a little, until they get to that point where they believe it."
"So now will you date me?" I asked.
He hesitated, and I felt bad for asking. It was as if I had broken the bubble that held all the magic of our encounter.
"Like I said, I'd like to," he started.
"But you're not ready. Right," I said. "That's okay. You'll get there, in your own time. I mean we're fated to be together, and that's what matters, in the end."
"Yeah. I'll get there," he agreed, mollified. "We've got all the time in the world."
4
Xander
When Kade and I slept together for the first time, it was like a sheet of ice had been broken-a sheet that I had no idea existed. We became warmer around each other, more comfortable. I had been carrying tension like it was a burden, feeling stiff around him because I didn't know how to act. I wanted to take him, claim him, but I was employed for a purpose, and I didn't want to cross any lines.
But now I knew he felt the same way, so I didn't have to worry anymore. It had been painfully obvious that we had slept together because he hadn't come back to the band's room. He had straggled in in the morning, sleepily prying himself from my arms.
No one else had said anything. Michael didn't know because he was shut away in his own room and hadn't seen the transition. But in such close quarters, we weren't going to be able to hide it from him for much longer. I didn't think he was going to be too pleased.
None of that mattered to my wolf, though. My wolf knew what was right and good. But what I wasn't so sure of was getting romantically involved. I still hurt from my past betrayal, and I still had the scars on my heart. It wasn't something I had healed from just yet, and even though I knew I was fated to be with Kade, I needed time.
So why I had even initiated? It wasn't fair to Kade, to string him on like this. He had made it abundantly clear that he wanted a relationship, so it would be horrible to keep having sex with him without giving him that connection. I knew how he felt, at least a little bit, because it was how my compulsion made me feel. I wanted that connection, too. I just didn't know if I could handle it.
I sighed. I'd have to deal with this at some point, but I couldn't bring myself to do anything about it now.
At least the tour was going well. We had finished California and were making our way through the Southwest towards Texas. We had plenty of time to rest because of how spread out the stops were. When we hit the East Coast, it'd be crunch time.
We stopped in Phoenix for a show and took some time to walk around, looking at the sights. I desperately wanted to hold Kade's hand, but I knew even a simple romantic gesture like that would plunge me into thoughts I wouldn't be able to handle. Instead, I enjoyed the secret glances we shared and the easy intimacy between us. I wrestled with my feelings, my face impassive.
"What's the point of visiting all these cities if I don't even get to see them," I said musingly. "I feel like we should go minigolfing or something."
"Minigolfing?" He was bewildered.
"It was the first thing that popped into my head. It's like the stereotypical date thing to do, you know."
"Dating?" He seemed hopeful, and I instantly felt a pang in my chest. "I thought you didn't want a relationship. Or something."
I sighed. "It's hard, Kade. But maybe we can try it out. Maybe I will take you out on a date."
"Where to?" He started to get more excited, and despite my reservations, seeing the joy on his face was absolutely worth it. My wolf was urging me forward, onward, wanting to me to get over it already and just date him.
"Hmm. I don't know this city well, and we have the show in the evening. This is the only free time we have. Maybe we should go minigolfing, after all," I said.
"I have a confession to make," said Kade. "I've never even been minigolfing."
"What?" I turned to him. "How?"
He shrugged. "I never had the opportunity."
"Well then, we're definitely going to go," I said, pulling out my phone. "And since I'm taking you out, I'm paying."
I found a place and hailed a cab to get there. "We're not expected back at the hotel until a couple hours before dinner," said Kade. "So we have plenty of time. Man, I'm excited. Minigolfing."
I hesitated, wondering if I should put an arm around him. Fuck it, I thought. Now that we were on a legit date, I ought to do it. So I did.
I was instantly rewarded when he scooted closer to me and snuggled up against my side. He was warm and solid and it felt great to have him by me, intensely satisfying.
On the other hand, though, I felt like we were going far, fast. This hadn't at all been what I had bargained for when I took on this job. I had known that something would happen between us, because of our connection, but here I was, steering myself right into a committed relationship.
Right after I had told myself I didn't want one.
Well, the wolf wanted what it wanted, and it was difficult to resist when what it wanted was so close. And I'd be lying to myself if I said I didn't want the same thing. It was just the pain that kept me tethered to the past. I had to move on at some point. I had to be able to trust my fated mate, of all people.
It was extra frustrating because I was an Alpha. I was supposed to get out there and take what I wanted. I wasn't supposed to let my emotions hold me back. I had to be confident and sure.
I took a deep breath as I thought about all of this. I'd take it slow. I'd be patient with myself. If I really was fated to end up with Kade, I would.
We arrived at the minigolfing place soon enough and stepped out. I peered around, still aware that I had to keep Kade safe, but it looked like a sleepy little place. Not many people wanted to minigolf before noon on a weekday.