All That He Requires(20)

Not a good thing to say to HIM at this point, though, I chided myself.

Then I realized that this was the first time I’d spoken to him over the phone since the night we’d first met.

In fact, the very first time I’d ever heard his voice was over the phone. There was an odd feeling of completion to it all, talking to him now, with everything that had happened between us in the last couple of days.

Then I decided I was finished pondering the mysteries of the universe, and went off to the bathroom to take a shower.





24





And so began Lily’s Day Out.

It began with a late, sumptuous breakfast of strawberries, mangoes, and peaches with a small order of scrambled eggs, a side of bacon, and two mimosas with freshly-squeezed orange juice.

Perfection.

I felt a little bad about spending Connor’s money, but decided, Hey, he SAID to, and gave the room service guy a $30 tip.

Not exactly a tip in Connor’s league, but I’m not that crazy.

The red dress was a mess from the evening before – sand and dust everywhere – so I opted for my work clothes from Monday, which Johnny had helpfully stashed in the Prada store’s shopping bag. They were a little funky, but I figured I wouldn’t be wearing them too long.

The credit card was an American Express Black Card registered to Extremis Inc.

The ‘little bit of cash’ Connor had mentioned?

$600.

Almost as much as my monthly rent.

I shook my head, put it in my purse, and headed down to the lobby.

I used the money to get a cab. After making the exasperated cabbie drive up and down the Strip twice, I decided I liked the Venetian the best, so I paid him (with a $30 tip – hey! I was on a roll) and set out for the shops.

The interior of the shopping area was beautiful – buildings modeled after Venice, Italy (duh), complete with canals threading between the shops.

What threw me was the ceiling, which was sky blue and painted with clouds so realistic it took me a second to remember I was inside rather than outside. It was only some shadows in the corners of the ceiling that gave away the illusion.

I was hoping I’d find something a little cheaper than Prada or Gucci – and I did. There was an Ann Taylor store, and I searched until I found a little black dress that I figured Connor wouldn’t mind taking off me. No, it wasn’t as swanky as an Armani… but I figured it a thousand dollars less. At least.

I also picked out a new bra and pair of panties. I kept on all my new clothes when I walked out of the changing rooms, paid the cashier, and left to go find somewhere to eat lunch.

Along the way, I saw an ATM nestled amongst the shops. I still wasn’t comfortable spending all of Connor’s money, so I thought I would replenish it with a little of my own.

It’s still his money, a snarky little voice whispered in my head.

“Shut up,” I said out loud, then looked around, embarrassed, hoping nobody had heard me. Thankfully nobody had. At least, nobody was looking at me like I was a crazy person babbling to myself.

I popped my card in the ATM slot… entered my code… withdrew $400…

…and gasped when I saw the printed transaction receipt.

He’d already told me.

I knew it was there.

But it’s one thing to ‘know’ something, and entirely another to actually see it.

Especially when the ‘something’ is fifty grand.

My bank balance was $49,927.73.

Considering that I’d just withdrawn $400, that had meant it had been $50,327.73 just a few seconds before.

$327.73. That’s all I’d had to my name 24 hours ago. Not nearly enough to cover my rent – much less groceries, gas, car insurance, and utilities.

And now… now I had more money than I’d ever had before in my life.

Actually, more money than I’d ever made, combined, in my entire life.

It was disorienting.

I actually stumbled over to a bench and sat down. My hand was shaking as I looked at the receipt.

I think, until that moment, the emotional impact of being with someone as rich as Connor hadn’t fully registered.

That sounds goldigger-y and smarmy. Let me try again.

Until that second, I had been living in a fairytale. An X-rated fairytale with some hot hot moments, and a few really unhappy ones, too… but it was like a story I was guest-starring in. It was somehow… not real. As though I might wake up any second and discover it was all a wonderful dream, and now it was Monday morning and time to go back to suffering the petty torments of working for Herr Klaus.

Tune in this week for Fantasy Island, starring Lily Ross!

But there was one thing in my life that was more Real Life than anything else – and that was Money.

Notice that I didn’t say ‘Important.’ I said ‘Real Life.’

Like the sort of things that beat you over the head and remind you you’re not living in a Hallmark Movie.

Rent. Bills. Being able to eat something other than Top Ramen.

You need Money for Real Life, and there was never enough of it.

Not that I wanted a ton of money. I mean, yeah, you want to give me a winning lottery ticket? Sure, I’ll take it. But I never chased after money, not like ambitious people do. There were other things that were more important to me. Truth, beauty, love, friendship, a sense of greater purpose…

That sounds like it should go on a sappy greeting card.

But if all I was interested in was money, I would have been all over Connor’s original offer of $20,000 like white on rice.

I didn’t take it because I was in love with him. And him offering to pay me for my time? It cheapened that. Made it feel tawdry. Made me feel tawdry.

But the Real Life thing about Money was this: I’d struggled with it all my adult life (what little I’d lived so far). Never enough money to do what I wanted. Just barely enough to scrape by. Having to do crappy jobs and work for people I hated just to survive.

Haha – welcome to the human race, right?

Yeah, I know, I know – Join the club, Lily.

There was a funny joke I heard last week on the radio that went something like this: you say you want a support group for people who hate their jobs? There is one! It’s called ‘Everybody,’ and they hold meetings in bars!

But four days ago I’d met a guy for whom money was like tap water to me: something you just turned on. Took for granted. It was always there, as much as he wanted.

And he’d given me something that, to him, was no more than a glass of water.

But for me, it changed everything.

And the proof of it was on a little paper slip in my hand.

I cried a little as I sat there looking at it. I felt like I had a lottery ticket in my hand for No More Scraping By. No More Worrying. And the ticket had come up a winner.

I know that sounds stupid – after all, I wasn’t exactly on Easy Street.

But that’s how I felt. Connor’s gift had bought me a year, maybe two if I was careful.

And it might sound as though all I cared about was the money. Trust me, nothing could have been further from the truth.

The main thing was, a huge weight had been lifted from my shoulders.

I was thankful to Connor for so much – for the passionate nights, for the feelings he inspired in me, for the affection he gave me, for the way he touched me, for the sights and experiences I would have never had if it hadn’t been for him.

For making me fall in love.

And for the hope that maybe, just maybe, he might be falling in love with me, too.

But at that moment, I was thankful that he had given me something else:

Time.

Freedom.

The chance to not have to worry.

And I hadn’t had to sell my soul – or my feelings for him – to do it.

So I sat there and cried a little, and felt that my world had suddenly changed.

But it wasn’t a dream this time.

It was reality, and the slip of paper in my hand proved it.





25





Okay, mope time over.

After I had my little freak-out over an ATM receipt, I decided I was going to celebrate.

Not, like, celebrate the way Connor did, with sixteen-course meals and surf-n-turf room service.

Just lunch. A nice lunch and a glass of wine. I’m a sensible girl (usually), and contemplating a year of financial freedom had made me want to keep it.

Mmm… maybe two glasses of wine.

I found a nice little restaurant by the crazy indoor canal that ran through the Venetian’s shopping area. It was late enough after the lunch crowd that there was plenty of seating, so they put me by the wrought-iron railing so I could watch the gondolas go by. Guys wearing white-and-black-striped shirts with little red scarves pushed the boats along with poles. Meanwhile, the people inside the gondolas filmed the whole thing with their iPhones. Or smooched. Or filmed themselves with their iPhones as they smooched.

It looked like fun. I wondered if Connor would do something so ‘Vegas-y.’

Probably not. He’d say, Let’s just fly to Venice and do it for real.

Which would be great, but not really what I was after. What I really wanted to do was see him squirm. I figured I could bring it up and then make fun of him for being a snob when he recoiled.

But there was a chance he might say ‘yes.’ And that would make life super-difficult for Johnny. The poor guy would probably be jumping out of his skin the whole time… if Connor even let him on the boat.

On the other hand, we’d had the whole ‘Normal Day,’ and he’d ridden the ferris wheel at Santa Monica Pier, so maybe he actually would go for –