"Okay. You should probably go." I wanted him exactly in the way he'd described, and he was right. If that's how I felt I needed to talk to Will and be honest with him.
"Alright," he said, jumping out of bed and standing in front of me, unashamed of his nakedness. "Tomorrow?" he asked with a cocky grin, knowing I was checking out every inch of his sculpted, six foot frame.
I nodded and he left to get dressed in the living room where I'd stripped off his clothes the night before. A minute later I heard the front door open and close.
He made his escape not a moment too soon. Will came out of the bathroom wearing boxer briefs and a frown. I couldn't tell if he was angry or hurt. I'd prefer angry.
"Joe take off?" he asked.
"Yeah. He thought you might not be too happy about what happened this morning."
"What did happen this morning?"
"Nothing that didn't happen last night," I told him honestly.
"So what now?" he asked, coming to sit on the edge of the bed. I was still lying naked on top of the sheets.
"Honestly, I just got out of a shitty, long distance relationship where I was cheated on repeatedly. I'm starting to think I'm not anywhere close to being ready for something serious with just one person. As long as you want though, I'd like to keep seeing you. Dating you. Sleeping with you. Being with you is pretty great," I told him truthfully, reaching for his hand.
"Honestly, I'll take whatever I can get from you, Lacy," he said, intertwining his fingers with mine and kissing my knuckles.
"Even if it means I want to date other people too?" I asked hesitantly.
"As long as you want to keep seeing me, then yeah, I can handle that. It's a helluva lot better than nothing."
"Really?" I asked with a smile. Joe's name was on the tip of my tongue, but I bit it instead and kept quiet.
"Yeah, really," he said, climbing up on the bed beside me and leaning down to kiss me. "Good morning."
"Good morning."
"So I take it by how things went last night that you might want to do that again?" he asked, rubbing his fingers through my hair.
"A threesome?" I asked in surprise. "You'd be okay with fucking me with another man again?"
"Well, not just any other man, but Joe, yeah."
"Good," I said, unable to help my grin. "What about with Zack too?"
Will threw his head back and laughed. "You want me to have a … a foursome with you, Joe, and pro football player Zack Bradford?"
I nodded.
"Are you trying to make me feel insecure? He's like six and a half feet tall and over two hundred pounds of professional athlete."
"He'd do it. I'm almost certain of it," I told him. "And like I've told you before, you're a better man than Zack will ever be."
"If he and Joe are in, then hell, I guess I'm in too."
"We'd have to sign non-disclosure agreements and never speak of it to anyone," I told him, knowing from experience.
"I can keep a naughty secret," he said with a grin.
I laughed and climbed on top of him, ecstatic that he was so cool with my need to finally experience all sorts of kinkiness.
Chapter Fourteen
Will
I knocked on Caleb and Lauren's door Sunday afternoon. Lauren answered it a second later, still wearing her teal colored scrubs.
"Hey, Lauren."
"Hey, Will. What's up? Come on in."
"Caleb home? I didn't see his car."
"No, both of us got stuck working this weekend, but he should be here in a half hour or so if you want to hang out. I just walked in the door, so do you mind playing with Cue while I change?"
"Sure. Do what you need to. I'm sorry for just dropping in on you."
"No, you're fine. I'll be right back."
I headed for the couch and grabbed the remote to turn on their TV while I waited for her to return. I didn't tell her that she was the one I wanted to talk to. It'd probably be easier if Caleb wasn't around, but I didn't want him to get pissed that I was here hanging out when he wasn't. This was perfect. I could talk to Lauren and hopefully get my questions answered, then Caleb would be here in a few.
As soon as I sat down a fat, longhaired white cat jumped up on my lap. Cue.
"Hey, you ugly fuzz butt," I told him, rubbing his scrunched up face. He flopped down, taking up my whole lap and part of the couch with his fat ass. What the hell did they feed this thing?
Finally Lauren came back in jeans and a tee, her blonde hair up in a messy ponytail. Of course I'd always thought she was beautiful, but she didn't have anything on Lacy.
"Beer?" she asked on the way to the kitchen.
"That's be great, thanks." I knew without looking it'd be Daughtry's. None of us even thought about buying anything but Dylan's family's brand. Although it wasn't like they needed the support. Last year they'd made billions, and he'd give us all the free beer we wanted. I still liked to buy my own.
Handing me one while sipping another bottle, Lauren sat with a leg under her in the chair across from me.
"So Lauren, I actually wanted to talk to you … but it's sort of personal. If you don't want to discuss it that's fine."
"Sure, but the only thing I know anything about is x-rays," she said with a smile. She had been working as a radiology technician for a few years now.
"There's one other thing I'm pretty sure you're familiar with - threesomes."
She inhaled her sip of beer.
"I'm not asking to be nosy or a perv," I explained quickly. "It's just I'm seeing this girl who is into them and I'm trying to figure out … I don't know, if what she wants is normal and not just about … well, me not being enough for her."
"Okay, I can do that. Probably best if whatever specifics I tell you stay between us. Caleb and I may be married, and Caleb and Tyler best friends again, but our past with Tyler is still a touchy subject that he avoids."
"Sure."
"So your girl wants you and her to have another man with you two in the bedroom?"
"Uh-huh. She said she wants to be wanted by two men and um … you know, screwed by both at the same time." Lacy seemed to really enjoy it last night.
Lauren's face turned red in embarrassment. "Well, I'm no expert, and I may be wrong, but I think that's what a lot of women fantasize about. Knowing you make one man, well, excited, is a huge turn on. Having two hot men turned on by you at the same time is … empowering, and a confidence boost."
I nodded, figuring as much.
"I don't think men understand all the insecurities women have nowadays. The media and Hollywood make us feel like we're never good enough. Or sexy enough. So when men want to sleep with you it raises your self-esteem. The more the … ah, merrier."
"Yeah but Lacy doesn't have anything to be insecure about. I mean, she's gorgeous."
"To you, but every woman, no matter how attractive to the rest of the world, will probably have some insecurities. And maybe hers aren't even about her appearance."
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"Well, for me, it was more about the feeling of being cared for and loved by two men for the first time in my life. No one … " she sniffed, then blinked a few times like she was holding back tears. "No one had ever loved me before Caleb and Tyler. When both of them did, I wanted to be with them both … intimately and at the same time. I also sort of hoped it'd help them get over being pissed at each other, and become friends again."
I nodded, thinking that actually made sense.
"Then, when my feelings for Caleb started getting too deep for me to deal with, I used the threesome as a way to keep distance between us, if that makes sense. I had, I still have, a huge fear that he'll leave me, and because I was scared it took a while before I was ready to take a chance on a real relationship with him."
"I appreciate you telling me all this."
"Sure. And thinking back, our threesome didn't start until I fell all the way for Caleb. Subconsciously I think I knew when it started that I loved him in a different way from how I loved Tyler. But Tyler," she smiled wider. "Well, I'll deny ever saying this, but I just really liked fucking him. We had great chemistry. Not that Caleb and I didn't, but I liked being with Tyler too. It was just … really good. Then I felt bad when I realized I didn't feel the same way about him as he felt about me. Although, as everyone knows, he didn't really love me then either. He and Jess are the real deal, and he just thought he was in love me at the time."
"Do you think it's possible for a woman to have a threesome without having or developing feelings for one of the men, and just like fucking him?"
"Yes. In a perfect world the guy wouldn't have feelings for her either, and then everyone would be happy."
"But that couldn't work long term, right? I mean, someone would get hurt or fed up. The other guy would start dating someone and move on, wouldn't they?"