She interrupted me. "I thought you didn't bring people here?"
"I don't." I stated. "I rent a condo for them to live in and when I want to be with them, I visit."
"You cover their living costs?" She gasped in apparent shock.
"Why wouldn't I?" I asked. "For the time they are with me, they are my possessions."
She flinched. I knew my words were harsh but I was being honest. If she wanted to do this, she wouldn't be going in blind. This was not something I was prepared to sugarcoat. If she agreed…she was agreeing knowing everything. Because there was no going back from this. Being a submissive could either break a person or make them. There were no two ways about it.
"How long do they stay?"
"Usually I have them sign a three month training contract and once they are trained they remain with me for another three months before I let them go."
"Six months," she breathed. "Why do you let them go after only six months?"
"Because it is around that time I see feelings start to arise and I cannot have that." I stated factually.
"You mean they fall in love with you?"
"Yes." My tone was barbed and she flinched again.
"Oh," She looked down to inspect the granite. "You don't want that?"
"No." I said before I thought about my words. Did I want her love? No…I couldn't possibly. This thing we had was a mutual need between us that we needed to find a way to sate. That's all.
She breathed out a long measured breath. "Wow, okay."
"Would you like to continue this conversation?"
"Yes."
That surprised me. Truly. "All right." I nodded. "What are you willing to do? And what aren't you willing to do?"
"Sexually?" She squeaked.
"Yes, Olivia." I sighed. "I need to know your hard limits and soft limits. I need to know what you can handle and what you can't."
She shrugged. "I don't know, Jace."
Right. Of course she didn't know. She'd only ever been with me. The thought had me wanting to beat my chest with my fists like an animal. Damn, what was this primal need I had within me to possess her so completely? The fact that I was the only one to ever lose myself in her was so fucking sweet I wanted to scream it from the rooftop.
"Well, I will tell you what I expect from you then." I stated and she nodded with wide eyes. "I expect you to allow me access to your body at all times. I expect you to try anything and everything once and if you do not like it, I expect you to tell me. Honesty is paramount. There is not a place in your body I will not burry myself if I can, Olivia. Do you understand? Your pussy, mouth and ass are mine to fill and only mine. Do you understand?"
"I understand." She confirmed on a shaky breath.
"Good." I eyed her carefully before continuing. "How do you feel about whips, floggers, crops and plugs?"
"Are you serious?" She asked on a thin breath.
"Very." I confirmed flatly.
"I don't know." She replied. Her words were shaky. "I've never been in the position to use one or have one used on me." Realization lit her features and she gasped. "You want to whip me?"
"Yes."
"Oh God," her face fell in her hands and I knew she was panicking, and rightfully so. "Oh my God."
"Olivia?" My tone was hard. "Talk to me. This will not work if you don't talk to me."
"I don't want to be beat, Jace." She lifted her face and her eyes were misted.
My gut ached. Fucking ached. "I don't want to beat you. I want to use sharp pains to inflict pleasure. The contrast between the two aids in higher stimulation for the body."
"Will you scar me?"
I frowned. "Fuck no."
"Okay." She nodded as though to convince herself before moving on. "What is a plug? What do you want to plug?"
I cocked a brow. She really was an innocent. And, I was going to hell. "I fully intend to claim your ass, Olivia. But for you to find pleasure in the act we are going to have to build your tolerance."
"What?" She frowned.
"You're going to have to stretch yourself." I said flatly. "I can't just shove my dick into your ass and pray you like it. You have to take in smaller objects first."
Her mouth dropped. "You want to plug my ass?"
"Essentially, yes." I nodded. "I want to stretch it."
"So you can fit inside?" She asked and even though I knew she was speaking her thoughts aloud, I answered.
"Yes."
Her eyes flickered up to mine and my heart paused. They were so big and wide and damn it, they were innocent. I should stop this right now. I should tell her I'm not interested…but I was.