Alexia Eden(98)

His wolf purrs at my touch and his eyes close. I’m still staring at his lips when he speaks, “Why can’t we be together? Why don’t you want to leave him? You don’t love him like you love us, you’re not in love with him Angel. I know it. Can’t you see how much we love you?” Talon blurts, I can tell by his quick intake of breath after he mentioned the last word that he didn’t mean to let it slip.

I smile and this causes him to relax as he looks down at me, I look up to meet his eyes and say, “I’m with Drake and even if I’m not in love with him , I have deep feelings for him that I need to explore and find out what it really is. He’s been there from the beginning and I can’t just throw him away like that. He doesn’t deserve it.” I see his face crumple at what I’ve just told him but it’s quickly turned into another smile as I whisper these last words, “I love you too Talon.”

“You love me? And Tyler?” he says looking down at me with a huge smile.

“Yeah I love you….and Tyler.” I say with all honesty and it’s true, I really do love them. I knew all along I had feelings for them but I know now deep down that I truly do love them as I look into his beautiful blue eyes as he wraps his arms around me. When I’m away they're always at the back of my mind and I feel at home when they're around. Although the twins take my mind off Drake when I’m here, Drake could never make me stop thinking about the boys.

My life couldn’t get any more complicated. I have feelings for FOUR boys? I feel differently for each of them but I certainly do have feelings for them. Maybe I don’t know what love is? Maybe what I’m feeling is just deep… like? No! It’s definitely love! Or what I think love is…if it isn’t? Then this is pretty damn close to love.

I continue to trace my fingers against his lips and his warm tongue darts out and sucks my finger. I internally moan because I am so turned on at the moment even though I shouldn’t be.

He growls as he lowers his head to mine, he’s leaning against me and I’m half way underneath him as I try move away from him but my head stops moving as it hits the base of the soft pillow.

He places his body above mine again but this time doesn’t let our bodies touch. I look up expecting to see his wolfs lust filled eyes staring down at me but instead I’m met by Talons gorgeous sparkling blue eyes. His arms are shielding me in so I have no choice but to look at his beautiful face, as he looks down at me, I look him over.

His raven black hair is straight yet messy, falling off his forehead nearly touching mine he’s so close to me. I look at his muscled forearms and shoulders; the light from the moon shining through the windows highlight his hard muscles. I look at Talon taking note of his appearance and the way he portrays himself, I don’t know how I didn’t notice it before but he is definitely not a boy… Talon is pure man.

Everything about him is different to Drake and Jax, he’s more defined, more mature and more…masculine, Talon is absolutely perfect.

He lowers his head to mine then gently brushes his cheek against mine just like Tyler did the other day. It's something I only expected from Tyler because that’s just the way he is but now Talon has also done it to me. I know exactly what he’s trying to tell me even though I already know it…He loves me. He brushes my cheek a few times with his and I swear I can hear his wolf purring with contentment.

I lose the last little bit of conscience I have left , I don’t care if I have to deal with the after effects of what I’m enjoying now, I don’t care if the guilt eats me alive tomorrow, all I know is that I’m selfishly going to enjoy whatever is going on between us now and deal with repercussions tomorrow. Tomorrow when I get back to Drake I will let everything out, I will no longer drag him along and mess with his feelings when I don’t even understand what I feel anymore, I have to tell him everything. Let everything out.

The butterflies in my stomach are wild as I feel him lower his face to mine, he leans in for a kiss and I submit. I don’t give in because I’m scared of what he will do to me if I choose otherwise, I succumb because I want to…I know he likes it when I surrender and somewhere inside I hear a voice telling me to make him happy…so I ignore the conscience that’s screaming at me not to do this to Drake and I lean into the kiss.

I tremble as soon as he deepens the kiss, his lips are so soft and this tenderness is so unlike Talon. He’s usually rough and a take what’s his type of guy. I know he’s being gentle because he doesn’t want to hurt me or scare me away but that rough side of Talon is what makes me love him even more. I don’t want him to change for me so I decide to bring my bad boy Talon back.