Alexia Eden(97)
“Talon get off me! I swear if you mark me I will never forgive you! Both of you!” I cry out loud. This is all too much and the tears spill out. I tried to be brave and hold myself together but I don’t know how to get them to stop and the thought of being taken without my consent sends be into overdrive as I start panicking,
They both immediately stop and I see their eyes clear, they have control over their wolves.
“Oh my God baby, I’m so sorry!” Talon says as he climbs off me looking distraught. Tyler also apologizes looking ashamed. Tyler tries to pull me in for a hug but I jump away from both of them I fall off the bed hurriedly and step away from them as they sit there shocked and sad that I don’t want them to touch me.
“You’re sorry? Didn’t you tell me the same thing last time? Generally, when people say they’re sorry it means they won’t do it again!” I shout at both of them as I wipe away the tears.
CHAPTER 32:
I walk to the bathroom and they seem realize I don’t want company so they don’t follow me. I close the bathroom door behind me then sneakily open the other door that leads to the twins’ room. Their curtains are still opened but there are no lights on in the dark room. I climb under the covers and climb into the warm bed surrounded by the boys’ scents, even after what just happened I already miss them. I’m not upset with the boys for what they did, I’ve seen it multiple times when wolves take control over the mind, I’m more angry at myself for enjoying what they were doing to me.
Before, I only had to deal with my confused feelings for Jax and Drake, now that I’m trying to get over the heartache that Jax caused me I’m starting to develop feelings for the twins. Ever since Talon questioned my love for Drake and Jax I’ve been asking myself questions. Do I really love Drake? These past couple of days I’ve been so preoccupied with the twins that I havnt really missed Drake as much as I thought I would. When I’m away from the twins however they’re always on my mind. Maybe I’m just trying to fill the void of Jax... I guess I’m just not used to getting attention from boys. The boys at my old school knew they weren’t getting any from me so they didn’t bother trying and they also use to sway in the direction of the stick figure girls, they wouldn’t know what to do with a girl with curves in the first place but I was okay with that. These boys drive me crazy and I don’t know how to control myself when I’m around them.
I’m such a hoe…
I’ve always liked the twins but I never really looked at them more than that because I was already too focused on my feelings for Drake and Jax. I guess because I’ve been spending so much time with them lately that only now am I noticing the flirty remarks and sweet gestures they both send my way. They obviously do like me but I’m with Drake and I need to start acting like the girl he deserves.
Every now and then I think about Jax and wonder what he’s up to, but I quickly toss any thoughts of him into that little black box in my head where I’ve hidden all the ugly things that have happened to me recently.
Right now the thought and memories of my time with Jax is sitting within that black box in a smaller box right next to the box that holds the memory of how Georgina treated me and the memory of how Drake hurt me that one night.
All these memories are hidden deep inside at the back of my mind because I know as soon as I start to dwell on all of them… I will feel all the pain that I'm trying so desperately to keep locked up. I know I’ll start to ask myself questions, like why wasn’t I good enough, why have I acted this way or that and eventually I will blame myself for being treated badly.
I snuggle into the boys blankets and breathe in both their scents. I close my eyes but I’m unable to fall asleep without them by my side. I hear the door to the bathroom open slowly behind me but I only hear one set of footsteps.
The bed dips behind me and the blanket is pulled open, a large warm hand wraps around my waist and I am instantly enveloped in Talons musky scent and his warm bare chest is now against my back. He holds me close to him as he leans over and whispers in my ear.
“I did it again baby, I’m so sorry. You’re just so fucking amazing that we want you so bad, please forgive me…please.” He begs as he nuzzles into my neck. I slowly turn around so I’m facing him and our faces are inches apart.
I look into his sad eyes as I speak, “I can see how hard it is when your wolf takes over, I’ve seen it a couple times before remember… but this can’t keep happening…even if I really want it too…” I whisper my last words as my eyes travel to his perfect lips. I can’t help but want to touch them, I slowly raise my hand and with my one finger I gently trace it across his bottom lip…hmmm so soft.