Alexia Eden(88)

I roll in bed at night with these thoughts consuming me, the more I think about it…the more I want to leave Point Bright and get as far away from him as possible. Maybe the further away I get…the less I will think about him.

Doubt it...

Tonight Drake took me out for a romantic dinner so we could spend time alone on my last night here. The date was perfect and I had a great time with him. We arrived back at house after midnight and I was so exhausted, the house was dark and everyone was asleep so I got dressed and made my way to my bed where Drake was already tucked in.

I climb in bed not facing him hoping tonight he won’t bug me about getting some action like he’s done every night since the argument with Jax.

He shifts and pulls me closer into him and I can feel his warm bare chest against my back as well as his evident arousal poking at my lower back, his hand travels under my shirt toward my chest. I inwardly sigh and roll my eyes.

I can’t help but think that all these wolves and their hearing would probably be able to hear if something was too happen tonight within these sheets, meaning Jax would hear since he’s in the room opposite mine.

“Drake I’m too tired, please let’s just go to sleep.” I say as I hold his hand against my breast forcing him to stop playing.

“Okay Lex what’s going on? We haven’t done anything since that night on the beach. Is this because of the whole Chelsea thing? I told you nothing happened. Why don’t you want me to touch you Lex?” Drake says sadly sitting up looking down at me.

I feel terrible for neglecting him and being distant, I still have Drake and I should be focused on him, he is my boyfriend after all… not Jax. I turn and cuddle into his chest wrapping my arms around him tight.

“I’m so sorry Drake, I didn’t mean to be distant it’s just that the more intimate we are... the harder it will be for me to leave tomorrow. I know this first week is going to be the hardest but I promise when I see you on the weekend I will be back to my normal self. This whole moving thing is stressing me out even though I know it’s for the best.” I say as I give him a soft kiss.

He reciprocates and squeezes me tighter, kissing me back with such force I can only presume that Sebastian has taken over control. I’ve missed Drake and being close like this with him. We make out for a few more minutes before we finally separate and let out heavy breaths.

“I understand Lexi, it’s going to be hard here without you. We love you so much, don’t ever forget that.” Drake says as he speaks for both Sebastian and himself.

We both get comfortable, Drake falls asleep quickly with me cuddling into his chest, I used to be able to fall asleep so easily in his arms but now I can’t because once again my thoughts are consumed by none other than…Jax.

A few hours go by and I’m exhausted but I just can’t fall asleep, I slowly get out of bed and agree that maybe if I have a nice warm glass of milk it may help me fall sleep. The floor is cold so I pull on a pair of socks. I’m wearing short pajama pants with a large t- shirt over. I tip toe out of the room even though I know Drake is a heavy sleeper. As I turn into the passage and close my door, behind me Jax’s door from across mine opens.

A tall gorgeous blond girl comes out wearing Jax’s shirt and holding her heels in her hand, she gives me a sheepish smile and through the light that comes from inside his room I see her blush. Jax comes out of his room wearing only boxers, he spots me there and suddenly he looks shocked as if I caught him doing something he shouldn’t. I’m not stupid and I can put two and two together, I look down at my shaking hands.

This isn't happening...this isn’t happening.

I quickly turn and walk faster down the passage. I know this shouldn’t hurt that he’s sleeping with other girls, he’s not mine to have but it really REALLY does hurt. I make my way to the kitchen and slide onto the floor near the cabinets in the corner and sob into my hands silently in the dark.

It took him to have sex with another more attractive girl…someone more fitted for him, for me to realize….I am so deeply in love with him.

I knew my feelings toward him were stronger than a normal friendship, we have something special…well…we had something special. Now I just feel betrayed, even though I don’t have the right to be but it still feels like I was cheated.

I hear footsteps near me and I immediately know its Jax by his minty smell. I look up to see his sad face through the darkness, I lift myself up and try get away from him but he grabs my hand.

“Just wait baby…let me explain please…” he says in a sad rough voice.

“Don’t touch me and DON’T call me baby…You don’t have to explain either...” I say through sniffles as I pull my hand away from him and attempt to get as far away from him as possible.