Alexia Eden (FairyTales Don't Exist)(68)

Drake pulls me into his chest and I cuddle into him closer, I lift my  head to give him a kiss, "I love you so much Drake." He smiles down at  me with his sparkling brown eyes and says, "I love you more than you  know Lexi, I'm so excited to plan for our future, you are all I need  Lexi … " he kisses me and I hear a growl.

I look behind me and I see Chelsea standing there glaring at me, I feel Drake tense underneath me.

What the hell is going on?

"LEXI! Come here, I have something for you!" Ronny yells taking my  thoughts away from what just happened. I make my way over to her.

"What's up Ron?" I ask her, she's sitting on a lounging sofa with Chloe,  I sit on Chloe's lap earning myself a soft growl from Ron, Chloe  giggles underneath me.

"We have something for you Lex." Chloe says handing me a gift bag.

"Why did you buy me something?" I ask them confused.

"We know it's your birthday tomorrow Lexi and I know you missed your  graduation so you could watch us graduate. Don't worry, only Chloe and I  know about your birthday tomorrow. Well … actually now … Happy Birthday  babe." Ronny says looking at the time on her cellphone.

12:32am … .

"Happy Birthday Lexi!" Chloe whispers and hugs me.

I feel a tear trail down my face as the kindness of these two girls. I  love them so much. "Thank you guys … you don't know how much this means to  me. I don't know what I would do without you two."

"We know, we love you to Lex, open your present!" Ronny says excitedly.

I look inside the bag and pull out a little black box, I open it slowly  and it reveals a black leather bangle with two pendants hanging off it. A  wolf and a moon … .

I look at Ronny and Chloe and they have the exact same one on their wrists.

"Thank you guys so much! I love you." I give each of them a hug. We sit  there chatting for another hour as the people start to leave. I notice  Drake isn't around, so I get up to look for him but I can't find him  anywhere when I bump into Rachel.

"Hey Lex, Drake went home, he wasn't feeling well. You can get a lift back with us."

This confuses me … why didn't he tell me?

We reach the pack house, as I step into the door I immediately sense  Jax's presence. I don't know why and it scares me, I look around but  he's nowhere in sight. I shake it off and make my way up to Drakes room.

I'm just in front of his door when I hear Ronny shout, "No! Don't open  it Lexi!" but I've already opened the door, the room is dark but I can  hear moans and grunting.

I let go of the door and step away as realization hits me, Drakes in there with someone else.

That's why he left me at the restaurant … he brought someone home.





CHAPTER 40:


Ronny comes running up to me followed by the others, I can feel Jax's  presence now as if he is standing right by me but in fact he is at the  end of the hallway.

"I'm so sorry Lex, this shouldn't have happened!" Ronny yells as she slams Drakes door shut.

I stand there frozen as the tears fall, I can't form words … how could he  do this to me, after everything he's put me through? He built me up just  to tear me down … he's done this over and over and this is the final  straw.

Drake's door opens and a pale looking Drake steps out with only boxes on. "Lexi … " he reaches out for me but I step away.         

     



 

"No Lexi … please … " he tries again but I continue to back away from him  until the wall is behind me. Ronny steps in front of him so he can't get  any closer to me.

He looks remorseful and I can see the regret forming in his face. His  door opens wider and a disheveled looking Chelsea steps out wearing only  Drakes shirt he had on hours before with a big grin on her face.

I bend over trying to catch my breath and stop the tears from falling. My hand clutches over my heart at the sharp pain.

"Get back!" Drake growls at her, she looks shaken for a minute then she  smiles again, watching me as she wraps her hands around his waist. "Why  don't you come back to bed baby, what do you say to round three?"

"Round three … " I mumble realizing that they've already gone at it twice before I got here.

"Get off me!" Drake shouts at her full of rage, she lets go then steps back.

"Lexi please, you don't understand, I just found out tonight … she's my mate."

"So that's okay? She's your mate? That gives you the right to leave me  there so you can come home and screw your mate!" I scream through sobs. I  see him flinch and the hurt that appears in his face.

"I'm so sorry. I so sorry." He says looking down, I watch as the tears fall from his very own face.

"That's not good enough Drake! What happened to me being the one you  need, you said you didn't need a mate and that you would at least try to  make us work when you did find her! What happened Drake? You couldn't  even do that for me? I've given up everything for you, I changed myself  to fit you. I stayed with you Drake , I chose you! Even after you  threatened me for leaving you and even after all the shit you did and  put me through! I CHOSE YOU!!!" I scream as the tears continue to fall  down my face.

"No Lexi, I choose you too, now that I got her out of my wolf's system,  we can be together … I love you babe, I don't want her!" he shouts and the  smirk that was on Chelsea's face is rapidly gone and replaced by tears.

"W … what? How can you say that? I'm your mate! We are meant to be together!" she asks Drake.

"No Chelsea! You were my mate, I love Lexi … I can't give her up. We would  never work Chelsea, you've basically slept with the whole pack, what  would they think of me if we were together? I'm going to be the Beta, my  girl should be mine only! Lexi is that girl!" Drake says angrily  snarling at Chelsea. She continues to stand there speechless.

"You think I'm going to stay with you? You are crazy Drake! You need  help! You continue to break me down just to fix me up and when I'm just  about healed, you ruin me again! I'm done Drake! I'm so fucking broken. I  will never be completely healed if I stay with you. Stay with her, keep  her Drake because you both deserve each other! You never deserved all  the love I gave you … I'm done Drake … I'm done with all of this...I'm so  fucking done." I say wiping away my finally tear.

"No Lex, don't say that." he says pushing past Ronny to get to me, I  move away from him and bump into Jax. My body feels like I've been  slightly shocked, physically, the electrical currents course through me,  I have Goosebumps down my back. My body is on high alert around Jax and  I don't know what is going on.

I look up to meet his beautiful emerald eyes, my whole body relaxes and I  completely forget about Drake and what just happened. I'm in awe of  what Jax is doing to me by just touching me. The only thing on my mind  is Jax. Everyone else blurs as all my attention is solely fixated on  him.

"What's...happening to me?" I whisper staring into those green eyes.

"You're my mate baby … " he says I look up and smile at him then reach out  to put my hands on his chest; I need to touch him and feel him beneath  my fingers. He's magnetic and he's drawing me in … until he stops me and  steps back.

"This can't happen Alexia, we can't happen … I'm sorry." Jax says flatly not looking in my eyes as he backs away.

"W … what?" I say taken aback, I feel unbearable sorrow coursing through  me and I can't control it no matter how hard I'm trying to be strong.

"You're human Lex, you are weak. You would never survive the shift if I  was to turn you. I'm sorry Lexi but you are fragile … I can't have a weak  Luna. You won't be able to bear my cubs and I need to continue the blood  line." He says giving me a disgusted look making me take a few steps  back.

"No Jax wait, I'm not-" I mumble trying to form the words but he doesn't let me finish.         

     



 

"No, it doesn't matter it has to end this way, I have to …  I have to reject you." Jax says emotionless backing away from me.

As soon as the words reject leave his lips …  I bend over in pain,  clutching my heart. I lean against the wall holding myself up but Ronny  and Rachel keep me from falling.

"How could you do this Jax?" Ronny growls harshly looking at Jax full of digust.

"I have to Ronny, she needs to understand … I'm doing this for her." Jax says sadly.

The more he speaks and the closer he is, the worse the pain … I don't know  what's happening to me, my heart feels like it's going to explode, even  after everything that's been done to me, I can't bear the pain.  Everything comes back to me, all the flashbacks, all the memories and  all the hurt I've experienced comes crashing down on me like a ton of  bricks.

Drake, Chloe, Mark and Jax stand close but they don't come near. I can't  control the tears that roll down my cheeks. The pain is unbearable but  I'm not crying because of the pain, I'm crying because Jax doesn't think  I'm good enough for him. He's never admitted it out loud before and  that shatters me.